This is a fifteen-part series of unrelated song-fics in the life of Luminosity, a District One Career Tribute, as she conquers her fears. Enjoy!
No, I do not own The Hunger Games or any of the songs. If you want to check out the songs, the name and artist are written at the end of the last verse.
#15: Darkness
Age six, in a bedroom at the District One training compound.
The first thing that registers on my mind when I wake up is "it's dark." The realization is chased by a sudden, all-consuming fear. It runs through the veins and arteries in my body in an icy wave. I can't move, can't breathe. The darkness it too much…it presses in on me, suffocating me.
How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core; where I've become so numb…
Without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home.
I know that the solution is only a light switch away, but I'm paralyzed. I struggle to force my shuddering limbs to move, to pull away from the tangled net of blankets. The rought material catches on my legs, anchoring me in place. And still my heart hammers with terror.
Wake me up inside,
call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become.
It's only the dark, I tell myself. But knowing this does nothing to remove the black curtain from my eyes. I'm straining my vision so hard now that spots dance in my eyes. There's nothing I can do but lie quietly as the darkness sweeps closer to me.
Now that I know what I'm without you can't just leave me.
Bring me to life.
(I've been living a lie)
there's nothing inside.
Bring me to life.
I cannot help but visualize all of the creatures that must be pulling closer to me; nimble fingered Capitol mutts preparing to eat me alive. I can feel their relentless thirst for blood in my own frantic heartbeat.
Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling,
only you are the life among the dead,
All of this time, I can't believe I couldn't see,
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me.
I force my frozen hands to work at the frayed edges of my blanket, finally managing to pull them away from my sweat soaked body. I roll over onto my side, hunching into a ball. if I cannot see, then surely the mutts will miss me.
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems,
got to open my eyes to everything,
without thought, without a voice, without a soul,
don't let me die here,
there must be something more
I push myself out of the tangled bed sheets and stumble blindly forward. I cry out as my shin catches on something hard and sends me tumbling. On shuddering arms, I pull myself up.
Bring me to life
wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
I crash into the chipped plaster of my wall. I run my fingers over the rough surface above my head, searching desperately. There-with a faint click, the light switch flicks on. Pale golden light floods the chamber.
bid my blood to run…before I come undone
save me from the nothing I've become
bring me to life (I've been living a lie there's nothing inside)
bring me to life (Evanescence; Bring me to life)
I take deep, calming breaths. It's okay, I tell myself. It's okay. And it is. With the light, I can see where I am. Not in a Hunger Games Arena, fighting against mutts. I'm at home, safe.
I lie down again. The walloping of my heartbeat gradually slows down into something resembling average. My eyelids flutter closed as I settle back into sleep.
So...watcha' think?
I have a little proposition for you. Tell me one fear (it doesn't have to be yours, just a fear,) to use in my story, and I'll make sure to mention your name in my next chapter. Deal? You can also recomment a song.
