The war was won, the grounders and what was left of the 47 were freed from Mount Weather, and the Mountain Men dead. All of them except those who did not fight, mainly those who were against the treatments and of course the children. The alliance with the Tree people and the Sky people still held though it was shaky. After the war, there was nothing for them to ally against, no common enemy to fight. Clarke was war torn and after the it was all said and done did not see Lexa or the grounders except for council meetings. Much of her time was spent in the infirmary trying to help those that were hurt or sick. It had been several months however and many of her friends were beginning to worry. Raven and Bellamy planned to confront her, and Octavia was fed up with Clarke's behavior. The Commander had not been the same since Clarke had been ignoring her and basically everyone else. She was more ruthless and cold. Octavia was tired of putting up with this bullshit, she was a warrior and had her own relationship issues to deal with she didn't need to deal with theirs too. So the day they confronted Clarke, to say she was a little bit short tempered would have been putting it mildly. Octavia leaned against the wall in the corner of the room where she, Raven and Bellamy were waiting for Clarke. Clarke came in she smiled and greeted them politely, though the smile they could all tell was fake and pained.

"Hey so you guys wanted to talk with me, what's going on?" Clarke asked them taking a seat on one it the stools in the room.

"Clarke we've noticed that you, well you haven't quite been yourself for the past few months." Raven tried to start the conversation off gently.

"Guys I don't know what your talking about I am fine. I know we haven't been able to spend much time together but I've been busy with the counsel meetings and the infirmary." Clarke defended.

"We understand Clarke we are just worried about you. You haven't been, well you've been keeping to yourself a lot and you just aren't the Clarke we all know and love. We just want to help." Bellamy added. Not that anyone was paying attention but Octavia rolled her eyes at that.

"Of course I'm not the same, none of us are the same. We never will be not after everything that happened." Clarke remarked her voice however was devoid of any emotion which as of late had been the usual.

"This is ridiculous," Octavia snapped she approached Clarke from behind, grabbed her shoulder and spun her around. She slapped her hard across the face. "Snap out of it Clarke!" She yelled at her.

"Octavia!" Bellamy and Raven both jumped to their feet startled by her actions.

"Clarke you need to stop this bullshit and snap out of whatever this is. You're not the only one who killed people, you're not the only one who lost people, now get off your ass and stop this nonsense!" Octavia shouted.

Clarke just sat there, she didn't move nor did she speak. "Octavia I thought we agreed we were going to approach this gently." Bellamy said.

"Yeah what the hell was that. We all agreed that Clarke needed us to all be calm." Raven said with a bit more hostility.

"What Clarke needs? What she needs?" Octavia scoffed at that. "She made decisions that got hundreds of people killed. She can't undo that, she can only move past it. But she's not she's wallowing in it and you two babying her isn't helping anyone."

"We're not babying her. She just needed time and now she just. She needs to take it slow." Raven defended.

"Great you guys are all worried about her and that's good I am too but she's not the only one who is hurting." Octavia pauses, lowering her voice. "I know you two don't see it but the alliance is in shambles. Without Clarke it won't stand much more. Abby and Marcus have no idea what their doing when it comes to working with Lexa. And Lexa well," she stops not even sure she should continue with Clarke in the room.

"Is she okay?" The trio heard Clarke ask from the other side of the room. None of them knew exactly how to answer that question. Clarke didn't seem to happy with the silence. "What's wrong with Lexa?" Clarke seemed a little more upset now her voice raised and for the first time in months emotions were apparent in her eyes.

"Clarke, don't worry Lexa is fine." Raven said.

"No this is stupid. Don't lie to her." Octavia insisted. This caught Clarke's attention as it was now obvious that they had been keeping something from her.

"Tell me what's happening with Lexa." Clarke demanded, "Tell me now!"

"Okay, okay." Bellamy conceded, "Since you have been here and well keeping to yourself. She hasn't, she... We're not exactly sure why but she's kind of lost it."

"What are you talking about? I've seen her at the council she was fine." Clarke insisted rubbing her temples.

"Clarke pull your head out of your ass, you may have been at those meetings but you weren't present. You haven't even talked to Lexa in months. I'm at those meetings you don't talk you just sit there." Octavia pulls no punches when she speaks.

"Clarke, look what ever this is. We need you to talk to Lexa. We can't afford for the alliance to break, our people won't survive a war with the Grounders." Raven explained.

"I, I don't know if I can." Clarke says looking down at her hands.

"You're going to do it anyway since this is you're fault to begin with and you know it." Octavia states plainly.

"Wait, what?" Both Bellamy and Raven ask turning to Octavia in shock.

"How is this Clarke's fault?" Raven asked.

"She knows." Was all Octavia said.

"I...it's not. Octavia I didn't do anything to," Clarke stopped mid sentence.

"That's just it though you didn't have to did you?" Octavia just sighs, "Clarke she needs you to talk to her, she thinks that whatever the hell this is" she gestures to Clarke, "she thinks its her fault." With that Octavia walked out of the room.

After about a beat, Raven looks at Bellamy and says "what the hell was you sister going on about?" Raven and Bellamy stand there talking for about ten or fifteen minutes in hushed voices while Clarke is seemly at war with herself. A battle of all her own making taking place in her mind as she debates back and forth as to what she needs to do.

Suddenly, Clarke stands up and makes her way to the door. "Wait, Clarke where are you going?" Bellamy questions.

"TonDC."

Clarke arrives at TonDC at dusk not long after Octavia had. Octavia is of course one of the first people to notice her. "That didn't take you as long as I thought it would." She says and it seems to shock Clarke out of some sort of autopilot she had been on since leaving camp.

"Octavia, I uh I" Clarke stumbled over her words.

Octavia sighs but gives Clarke a small smile. "Come on I will take you to see her. She might not show it but she will be very glad you are here."

Clarke is silent on the way to the Commanders tent. They stop just outside and she realizes that she hasn't moved for a full minute. "Thanks Octavia," Clarke says an heads inside.

It had been a while since she had been inside Lexa's tent but she is quite sure their are many more animal pelts than their were the last time she was in here. She doesn't make a sound, she see Lexa standing with Indra near a table going over a map of some sort. Indra is the first one to look up. Clarke notices the slight surprise on her face at seeing Clarke there and it takes Indra a minute to interrupt the Commander with a simple, "Heda."

Lexa stopped talking and followed Indra's gaze curiously. As her eyes fell on Clarke, Clarke couldn't quite make out the emotions that she saw in her eyes. They seemed to range between shock, awe, desire and maybe even shame. "Leave," Lexa commanded Indra and she did as she was told.

As soon as Indra was gone Clarke spoke, "I shouldn't have come unannounced I'm sorry."

"Clarke, I haven't seen you in months if you have come to see me it must e important." Lexa says and sits down on a chair cover in a bear pelt.

"Lexa I saw you last week at the council meeting." Clarke stated confused.

"Yes this is true I suppose but you are never really at those meetings are you?" Lexa poses this as a question but Clarke knows it is not one.

"I'm sorry."

Lexa straightens at this, "what are you sorry for?"

"This," Clarke gestures to herself. "I've been having a hard time dealing I guess with all that happened. And it has been pointed out to me that I am not just hurting myself by pulling away from everyone."

"Why do you think that you need to suffer Clarke? Hasn't there been enough suffering?" Lexa asked her, she isn't sure she understands Clarke at the moment. And at the moment all she wishes is for her Clarke to return.

"I'm not sure that I can live with the decisions that I made to win the war Lexa," Clarke is in tears now. Still she has not moved from her position at the entrance of the tent. "But I know I can't live with it if you ever thought that I blamed you, or that if any of this was because of you."

Lexa looks at her, she is surprised by Clarke's words but she cannot deny them. "Clarke," Lexa stands and approaches her. "Tell me what you need, anything. I will do whatever it takes to help you move past this. Just swear to me you won't do something stupid." She is holding Clarke by the shoulders now, "Promise me Clarke."

At Lexa's touch Clarke breaks, tears flow down her face and she falls into Lexa's arms. Clarke holds on to Lexa as if her life depends on it and feels a breath of relief when Lexa's arms come around to hold her tightly.

"Can I stay? Please Lexa, I need" Clarke chokes on her words.

Lexa holds her tighter, as if she is suddenly realizing how close she has been all these months to losing her. "Shh, always. You will always have a place with me, Clarke of the Sky people."