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She's unsure of everything, now, and it's not just the odd smell of Tia Dalma's home that's causing that feeling.
She would be willing to go to the end of the world for Jack, she realizes. She'd go anywhere for Jack. She knows, deep down, it's not just her guilty conscience telling her that. It's her innermost feelings.
Her mind turns back to the kiss they'd shared – or the trick she had pulled. It had completely surprised her how much she'd enjoyed it. Kissing Will was a familiar, safe kind of movement, whereas kissing Jack was an adventure, a challenge, and so much more. As they'd rowed to Tia Dalma's home, she'd thought it over and over – what did this mean? How could she tell Will how it felt, and not have him detest her? They were engaged, they should be able to tell each other everything… now, though, she wonders if she was too hasty in that decision.
Marrying Jack was, of course, out of the question. He wasn't the sort of man a girl would ever marry, especially a well-born girl with a set of morals. And yet he was right. There was something intriguing, something about him she's fascinated with. She'd love to hear him tell her why he became a pirate, why at some moments he could be so good, and at others so despicable. Something about him had always drawn her to him. And perhaps the most treacherous thought of all: the kiss they'd shared was simply magical, and it wasn't just a way to chain him to the boat. She poured all of her feelings into it: how she hated and adored him at the same time, how she is both appreciative and scared of how he makes her feel. Perhaps he caught it, perhaps he didn't.
She definitely thinks her reasoning for trapping him on the Pearl was good. She didn't want the entire crew to die, after all, so it made sense that Jack should, to save them all. But what she didn't consider is how she would feel after doing it. She had no idea when she chained him to the ship of the conflicting emotions that would torment her after she left him to die. Did she do the right thing? Even if it was right, was there another way?
Her mind wanders to the compass, which, according to Jack, showed you what you wanted most. Even then, it had sensed her confusion: she truly wanted both Jack and Will, and she couldn't decide. But now, even though she's unsure of everything else, she's sure about one thing. She wants Captain Jack Sparrow above all else.
The thought hits her hard. It had been what she was thinking about, but the sheer impact of it being stated so plainly still made it hard to comprehend. But it's true, and she knows that she can't change it.
She's always gotten what she wanted – and she'll be damned if she doesn't find the person most important to her. She will find him. And then she'll figure out what she's going to do with the complicated situation she's trapped in.
Author's Note: I like Elizabeth, even though there's been a lot of bashing of her ever since DMC came out. She just did what she thought was right at the time, and I can understand her reasoning. I actually ship Will/Elizabeth, but I wrote this for my friend Rachel's birthday.
