Title: Longing
Day/Theme: November 04 / Why I'm not where you are
Series: Rurouni Kenshin
Character/Pairing: Kaoru/Kenshin (well, Kaoru's thoughts on Kenshin)
Rating: PG
Notes: I don't own anything from Rurouni Kenshin. All characters, plots and other whatnots belong to Nobuhiro Watsuki. Taken from the Shishio Arc, just shortly after Kenshin leaves to fight.
I did not wish for you to leave. But you left anyway.
They came one day and asked for your help and you, having a gentle and kind-hearted spirit, agreed to go away to fight him.
I wanted to hate you for agreeing to help them. It was not your battle to fight, besides. I wanted to hate them for commanding something so dangerous of you, even long after you decided to sever ties with them.
You are living in a time where peace is within your grasp and you hold on to it with such care. Oh, it hurt so much when you said your goodbyes to me that night. The fireflies danced around your face and your eyes looked weary and sad, yet you straightened your shoulders and swore to protect the people you cared for.
I often looked into you eyes, and even when you smiled, there was always that infinite sadness I could see. I know I cannot ease your torment. How I wish it were that easy. Yet you carry that much weight upon your shoulders without a single word of complaint.
How I wish I could be that brave.
Yahiko told me that I should go after you.
But my heart is heavy and I am dreading that there will come a time that when I watch your back as you slowly walk away, it will be the last time I will ever see your figure fading into the sunset.
I cannot be where you are right now. You asked me to stay. Maybe it IS for my own good that I remain here.
But you have taken my heart with you.
And now that you are gone, I am afraid I may never get it back.
