ok. This is my first Xenosaga fic. No it's not a oneshot, though I am completely clueless as to how long it will be. You could say drifting along till we get somewhere.
P.s. - I beat the game quite a while ago...sometime in August, so some of the words they say won't be exactly as they were in the game because I can't remember.
Jr.: she doesn't own Xenosaga, and thank god too!
Serenity: what's that supposed to mean? Meanie! UU!
Jr.: ignores her moving on.
Symbols:
'...' thoughts
"..." speech
italics dreams/ flashbacks
if I missed anything sorry! Anyway on with the ficcie!
Disclaimer provided by Jr. - Sere doesn't own Xenosaga and never will, though she can dream she does. Not!
Chapter 1: Nightmares
"Oh Come on Rubedo. You can do better than that. She's only a mechanical toy, what do you need with a rag doll anyway? Ah ha ha."
Junior glared at his brother with hate. He growled silently, and cursed. How could he "talk it out with him" as Shion had so easily put when this was Albedo she was talking about.
"Shut up! Just shut up!" Junior yelled furiously lashing his arms out to the side. It was happening, his Red Dragon aura was starting to take form and he couldn't control it.
'No it can't be. Stop it, calm down.' Junior clenched his fist and battled against himself for control. Albedo watched as his brother's inner torment against himself with a sadistic smile on his face.
"Besides brother dear, it's too late to have your fun with her anyway." He grinned, brought his hand up to his face, and began to lick his fingers slyly. Taunting Jr. With a satisfied look on his face.
"She's already been damaged by my on hands, and I enjoyed it too. I can still feel mུ pechེ writhing in my—
"SHUT UP!" Junior screamed, and with a deep fury, ran at his brother. Instead of flesh, his fist made contact with the wall. He leaned his head down and breathed heavily. The walls faded and once again Jr. Found himself within the anomaly. He walked forward silently awaiting the next barrage of memories. He finally arrived in a church like chasm. Pillars decorated the walls and white tubes containing kirshcwassers inside each finished it off. Junior looked forward and wasn't surprised to see his brother sitting on a throne like chair. From the waist down he was connected to the pillars, with wires reaching out and pulsing as if alive.
"Welcome Rubedo. Glad to see you've finally made it. Hope you liked the welcome." Albedo laughed and stood, facing his brother. They stared each other down silently before Albedo spoke again and declared the battle to begin.
"Albedo, you don't have to do this. You bastard."
"Please Rubedo. We're weapons of war, it's what we were born to do. Am I right or am I right?"
"Damn you Albedo. He he. You're Right though."
"Can you feel that rushing in your veins? Your blood singing for battle?"
"You're right. I can and it's telling me to fight and enjoy myself to, but this time I won't hold back." Jr. grinned at Albedo, brought his guns out, and took his fighting stance. Suddenly everything began to dim slowly and Jr. Found himself falling into darkness.
'Wha— what's going on here? HEY! Hey hey hey...' his yell echoed all around him, making him turn frantically, looking for a way out. Suddenly a light began to shine in front of him, that he shielded his eyes from the brightness. When it dimmed there was someone standing there.
"Sakura" Jr. Looked at her and started walking towards her, when Momo appeared right next to her.
"What?" Jr. Stopped and looked at the two girl watching him. He was confused.
"Choose Rubedo. You must choose." Sakura's voice echoed all around and her words hit him with a force. He stared at her in confusion. Something wasn't right, he could tell by looking at them. Momo just stood there quietly and watched him, waiting for his answer.
"Sakura? Choose what? I-I don't understand, what's going on?"
Choose Rubedo. You have to choose. You must. Either you choose me or her. Which of us do you want more?" Jr. Stared at her in amazement and tried to answer but no words came out.
What? But how? And why? I'm sorry but I can't. Or if I even had no choice why not the two of you?"
"You can't Rubedo. Only one must cross. Our fate lies in your hands. Either she or I get to leave."
What happens to the other?" Jr. Gulped and realized with a sickening feeling that something bad was about to happen. He waited for Sakura to answer and hoped that it wasn't what he was fearing.
"The other, will die. Now choose!" Sakura's voice commanded him with an iron grip. He had no choice. How could he possibly get out of this without losing either. Of course he wanted Sakura back, yet she was gone already wasn't she? And Momo, Momo who was standing so silently next to her sister not uttering a single word.
"I-I can't, please don't make me do this Sakura. You know I can't do it."
"Fine. Then I will choose for you. I will choose myself." Before he could even move, or open his mouth to yell Jr. Watched as Sakura moved towards Momo, and in a flash he saw Momo's face in shock as the knife went through her. He couldn't move and watched as she backed away slowly and turned to her sister, blood poured from her stomach to the floor in waves. Sakura stood there smiling and staring at her sister in satisfaction . He tried to move but found he was rooted to the ground.
"Noooo! MOMO!" Jr. Shouted and tried to free himself with no avail. He watched with tears streaming down his face, not realizing. He couldn't do anything to save her, and it wasn't the first time. He screamed in fury and tried to free himself. Amazingly enough he wrenched himself away from the ground and ran towards Momo. He got to her just in time and caught her as she fell.
"Momo! Momo! Hang in there, please Momo." Jr. Sat on the floor and cradled Momo in his arms, telling her she'd be all right. as her eyes began to dim she smiled at him gently, and laid her hand on his cheek softly. He looked up angrily at Sakura and yelled at her.
"WHY! Damn it, Sakura. How could you? Your own sister?" Jr. Stared at her in disbelief as she stood there watching them with an insane smile on her face.
"I did it because she doesn't deserve you Rubedo. She's a fake, a doll, and she doesn't belong here. I love you and you should know that I did it for your own good." Jr. Couldn't believe his ears. This had to be a nightmare. He shook his head vigorously, trying to clear his mind. This couldn't be happening. Momo's breathing lessened and he could feel her slipping, her life was ebbing away slowly and he couldn't save her.
"No! I won't let you go. Please Momo, please don't leave me. You're all I have, I love you. Don't go" Jr. Said.
"Enough. I'll finish this now and I can have you all to myself." She walked forward with her weapon in hand. She looked angry and as she got closer she raised her had and prepared to strike him.
"Goodbye Rubedo." She laughed and struck him. Jr. Fell into darkness as everything turned black.
Jr. Sat up gasping and looked around him wildly. 'It was a dream. Just a dream.' He pulled the blanket back and put his feet on the ground. He breathed deeply and looked around to make sure he was back in the Durandal. He got up and walked towards the window, gazing out at the foundation in all its glory. He was dressed in a pair of boxers, and shivered from the sudden draft of coolness floating in the room. He'd have to ask Mary to have the stupid thing fixed since Alby had broken it the other day.
"Damn it."He sighed and raked his hand through his hair. That nightmare he'd just had was disturbing. His thoughts turned back once more to the dream and replayed the events in his mind. For a week now he'd been having a recurring nightmare, the fight between him and Albedo, then switching to that scene with Sakura and Momo.
He hadn't been able to do anything. He'd just stood there rooted to the spot, and had watched her get stabbed right in front of him. It was a repeat of the fact that he'd promised to protect her and had failed. Was he deemed to fail yet again? That horrible feeling of her right there in his arms, dying and him just watching. The worst thing was that it was Sakura murdering her. He knew that the real Sakura would never do it, because the Sakura he knew loved Momo before she'd even been born.
"Nothing will ever happen to you Momo. I won't let it. Even if I have to lay my life down for her. No one will lay a hand on my Momo." 'Wait a minute— "my momo" where did that come from? Obviously their friendship had grown ever since they'd met, but was he, Jr. Falling in love with the innocent realian?'
"Naah! No way. I can't be, can I?" He remembered when she'd hugged him as he'd come on the bridge after coming back from the anomaly. He'd been surprised at first and had blushed, but holding her in his arms then had made him feel secure. He'd felt as if he was invincible and could do anything. With her by his side he could achieve the impossible.
'Besides the fact that she's a hottie, she's got a nice figure. You know you want her Rubedo. So don't try to deny your feelings. He blushed at his subconscious's blunt response.
"Shut up! What do you know, stupid mind. Besides I like Momo as a friend, that's it!"
'Oh please Rubedo. Who are you kidding? When will you stop being so thickheaded and face the truth you coward!' Jr. Growled in frustration and wished his subconscious had physical form, so he could beat it to a pulp. He stretched himself out on the bed and thought about his recent growth. Anything to get his mind off Momo, and his indecent thoughts of her.
He'd grown a bit since everyone had departed. He was about a foot taller and didn't need to wear his platform shoes anymore. He laughed at that thought. He never thought there would be a day when he would say that. Mary had told him herself a few days ago that he looked "hot" and that all the girls on the foundation and on the Durandal were fainting at the sight of him. He smirked and smiled, thinking about how Mary's choice of words were so true.
He wasn't as tall as Gaignun, but apparently his 1-foot growth had also bestowed upon him the talent to "make ladies go woozy at the sight of him." Though he didn't really see much difference in his looks, he knew he'd definitely gotten taller. His chest muscles had rippled a bit due to his battles with the gnosis, and apparently that, coupled with his growth spurt had turned him into a "wanted bachelor and hunk."
As a matter of fact, now that he thought about it he realized that may have been the reason girls had been trailing him recently. He knew that they thought he didn't know they were following him but he'd known. Some of them were getting a bit too fresh for his taste.
Jr. Sighed and turned on his side. He closed his eyes and Momo's face appeared there. Sleepily he drifted of into a dreamless slumber thinking of her, hoping he'd see her sometime in the near future. All was silent as everyone on the Durandal slept, some dreaming, others thinking. Outside the moon shone brightly, and the stars twinkled gently watching over the unsuspecting innocents of war.
For once in a long time Jr. Was able to sleep peacefully, without any demons plaguing his dreams. A smile graced his lips as he turned over and slept comfortably. Soon a new day would begin and he'd have challenges to face.
"Soon she will awaken."
" Her true self."
"And I can't wait."
well? How was it? hides behind chair it was horrible wasn't it? Come on be honest. Well gotta go and work on the next chapter.
Jr: laterz peoples. And review or I'll shoot you till you cry uncle. takes out his guns as evidence
Oh he's just kidding. glares at him aren't you?
p.s. i apologize about the whole hunk thing. I wrote this at2 in the morning, so that part's way too ooc. ah hehehe...--'!
Serenity out.
