A/N: Not much to say. I've had writters block lately. I'm looking forward to writing more AkkiGure in the summer.
All For You
It was all for you. You still don't realize that, do you? It was always for you, even when it hurt you; even when you were sure I must hate you.
Don't get me wrong, I meant for it to hurt you. I wanted to leave you feeling alone and defeated with no one to turn to for comfort. You should know by now that I have planned out every agonizing emotion that you've gone through; I've meticulously caused every tear you've shed. I did these things with every hope and aim of breaking your heart.
I know you think I was impassive to it all. Do you still think I hate you so much?
Sometimes I regret it. I may have purposely gone out of my way to do it, but that doesn't mean I can't regret it. Sometimes she glances at me, giving me one of her horrible smiles to remind me of what I've done.
Believe me, it hurts me as much as it hurts you. Turning my back on the woman I love, watching as she's crushed and broken? Hearing you sobbing in your room before you sent me away? Hearing your screams in my nightmares thereafter?
Don't you know the reason I put up with those brats every day? Don't you understand why I've put up this masquerade for so many years? Why would I put you and myself through so much pain, without a good cause?
Maybe you don't believe that I love you, and that's all right. In the end, all that matters is that I love you. In the end, all that matters is the small hope that you return my feelings.
Don't you know? Back then and now, it was all for you.
