Okay this is how i imagine the scene with mer/der at the end of 'Some kind of Miracle' when Mer/Der are lying in the hospital bed together..
Derek silently held Meredith in the tiny hospital thinking about what they had just been through. He almost lost her, God what would he of done if he lost her? He loved her, in a way he had never loved anyone else. She defined him, he based his life on being her knight and shining whatever. He was so consumed in his thoughts that he could hardly sleep. He just cherished holding her as he tenderly rubbed his hand along Merediths forearm.
Did she want to die? Derek wondered, hating the thought immediately. But he couldn't help it, she knew how to swim, Meredith knew how to swim. It didn't make sense to him, had he not kept her happy enough..at least enough to convince her that she is anything but ordinary. Thinking back on Ellis, he felt guilt, he yelled at her mother but she deserved it, she needed to know that she broke Meredith.
Derek was too consumed into his thoughts that he didn't realized Meredith stirring beside him.
"Hey..you're awake" Meredith whispered gently as she shifted her body so she could lay on her back while facing him.
"Yeah" he returned with a weak smile, reaching over to kiss her cheek before propping his head onto his left hand
"I'm okay, everything is okay" she said sensing the worry in his eyes,
It was amazing how they connected, never having to say a word, they could both communicate with just their look.
Derek drew a long sigh not knowing how to start, or how she would react, he knew Meredith loved him with all her heart, he felt it everyday but today after everything he just needed to hear it. His head leaning in sideways with his hand still against his black curls, he reached with his other hand to cup Meredith's face, slowly tracing the edges of her jaw bone.
"Mer, you still love me don't you? Do I make you happy? I know I've hurt you a lot in the past but you…
Before he could even finish his sentence Meredith silenced him with a soft kiss , "Derek" she whispered softly. "I have intimacy issues, stupid right? God that sounds so stupid"
"It's not stupid"
"No, it really is Derek, I don't want to any more… I want to be able to love you and not hold back" she said raising her voice a little above a whisper. "I love you Derek, and you make me happy, happier than I've ever been but just, just let me get used to this feeling…..I'm new at this remember?" she playfully added
A small smile tugged at end of Dereks lips which soon vanished remembering the thoughts of her drowning. "Mer.." he began as his hand crept up brushing it through her hair softly. "You're a good swimmer…." he stated in a questioning tone.
Her eyes unable to look at Dereks fell back on her hands as she tugged on the edges of the hospital blanket.
"I got tired…"
"Meredith"
"I tried Derek, I did, it was cold and I was fighting a losing battle so I gave up..I just figured..what's the point?"
"Me, I'm the point" lowering his head once again giving her a tender kiss as his hand found hers knitting their fingers together…his lips slowly parting from hers "Don't ever think about giving up ever again"
Yeah super duper short, sorry about that. But review and tell me if its any good and ill continue, if no one likes it i'll just toss it..
