A/N: What can I say....physics is boring and after watching another Jate deleted scene from S5 (the one called Window Talk), I just decided to write something. So this is a little bit of writing I did in class. It's based off that deleted scene from Kate's POV. If you don't know the scene I am talking about, Jack calls her over from a window when she has just gotten back from the Hostiles with Sawyer. Let me know what you think!

A special thanks to my beta Joy! Thanks for your support.

Disclaimer: Don't own Lost or Jate.


It was like cold coffee, icy to the throat, its taste making you gag as the dregs turned your stomach. You longed for the warmth, the richness. The funny thing was that they looked the same, but the differences below the surface were enough to make even your addiction to it curdle. He was like cold coffee; you wanted to throw up. The doctor, the fixer, the man who wouldn't let anyone go unsaved had the audacity to ask you if Ben had made it, if your plan had worked. Through the looking glass. The fixer became the murderer; the murderer, the fixer. God did you need a cup of hot coffee. For the caffeine to run through your veins. You needed a fix, a fix of him. But he was just too hard to swallow. And then he mentioned Sawyer. The bitterness laced your mouth. Cold, cold coffee, no sugar, no milk. You turned your back, you made a snide remark. You took that cup of cold coffee and poured it on the sidewalk.


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