Regret

I didn't mean to kiss him and now I just have lost my best friend. I tried to change but it seems like I always mess up. I don't know when I will do anything right. Why do I always act impulsive? I wish I knew but it seems like I always mange to get in a mess. I really wish I could rewind time but I know I can't. I want to look forward to the future but I keep drawing up blanks. I can only hope things will get better.