I believe uncle Hotch would have pulled my mother off this case, little did he know. I hope he understands that I won't be alive this time next year even if I make it through this. I wish I'd told my mom I love her more than I did.

Sara woke up in a cold sweat she figured she had screamed cause she could hear someone rustling down the hall toward the room. The next thing she knew Emily had her arms wrapped tightly around her and was calming her down. Sara relaxed into Emily's arms and started to cry, she hated crying to others but she hated her nightmares more. Sara trusted Emily more than she trusted anyone else in the world. Emily has always been there for her, she always had a place ready in Emily's home. Emily once had a date and brought her home only to find Sara sitting outside her door, Emily smiled and introduced Sara to her date and unlocked the door letting Sara find her way around while Emily carried on with her date.

"Hey its ok calm down, I've got you, I promise." That's why Sara always felt safe, Emily always promised. The idea of not being safe immediately fell away when Emily was with Sara, Sara didn't know why but she felt loved more than anything. Emily sat with Sara for the rest of the night holding her tightly, her nightmares didn't repeat that night.

"Wake up!" Emily knocked on Sara's door in the morning then went to her own and did the same thing. Sara threw her legs over the side of the bed and shuffled her way toward a overly awake Emily.

"Em! Shut up! Its like… early."

"It's 11 honey. Time to get up!" Emily smiled at Sara.

"I'm with Sara, its way to early." Jordan leaned up against the doorframe of Emily's room, she smiled over at Sara. "Good morning."

"It was good till Pippy long stockings over there woke me up!" Sara grinned as Emily faked being offended.

"Pippy long stockings?!"

"Oh be quite you love her and we know it!" Sara smiled at Emily, Emily smiled back and pulled Sara into a hug.

"Now go eat I have to get you home."

"Yes Ma'am!" Sara saluted, laughing and walked away. Jordan walked over to Emily taking Sara's place in her arms.

"You know what you do for her? That's why I love you." Jordan smiled and kissed Emily softly.

"Really? I thought you were in it for the money?" Emily teased.

"Well, that too." Jordan smiled and walked toward the kitchen.

"Emily! When did you get up?" Sara yelled from the kitchen as she got a plate of food.

"Nine why?"

"The food! My god I've never seen so much in my life." Sara smiled at Emily as she rounded the corner. "Thanks."

"Anytime kid. Now eat up." Emily pulled up a stool for herself and Jordan. Jordan collected their food and set a plate in front of Emily. They ate in a comfortable silence just enjoying the others company.

JJ smiled at Emily and Sara as they walked back up her sidewalk.

"Hey." JJ said to Sara then turned and looked at Emily. "Thanks again."

"No need, she always have a spot at my place." Emily smiled at JJ. "Always will." JJ smiled right back.

"Tell Jordan I say hey."

"Will do."

"Bye Emily."

"Cya." Emily said turning back to her car.

"Sara, when will you stop taking off like that?" JJ asked her daughter.

"I always go to Emily's so you know I'm safe." Sara shot back.

"I'm not mad Sara. Just worried."

"No your not because you know I'm safe."

"Sara why are you always so difficult?" JJ asked getting annoyed with her daughter.

"Why do you lie? Why do you always ask me why I'm difficult? Why do you hate me spending time with Emily? What's your past with her? I see the way you look at each other! Why do you stay here in this shit of a life when you hate it?" JJ sighed and wrapped an arm around Sara's shoulders.

"We should talk." JJ led her daughter to the kitchen and sat her down. She went to the fridge and pulled out two beers. "I know its early and your technically underage but I'm going to do this with the help of a beer and you mine as well too." JJ handed the green bottle over to her daughter and they cracked them open.

"Younglings? Really? I get to drink the special beer." Sara smiled.

"Yup. Now sit down and shut up while your mother talks." Sara nodded and took a swig from her beer matching her mother.

"Before I met your father I was with Emily, like how Jordan is. I was madly in love with her." JJ sighed as the memories came flooding back. "We had been living together for awhile but we never came out and said anything about our relationship… We had a case in New Orleans where I met Will. I ended up sleeping with him and Emily found out… She wanted us to stay together but I was pregnant… and I couldn't do it, my child needed her father. I left Emily for Will." JJ stopped and finished off her beer getting up for another. "I still regret leaving her everyday."

"Mom…"

"No! Listen. I married your father and Emily…"

JJ stood at the front of the church Will standing less than a foot from her. She didn't like being there and she could barely keep her eyes off Emily. She wanted Emily to be in the shity little tux, but on Emily it wouldn't look bad at all, Emily would look so amazing it'd be perfect. The priest asked if anyone had any problems with Will and JJ being married. JJ prayed to god that Emily would stand up and say something but the next thing she knew Will's lips were covering hers.

"I thought about leaving Will after you were born but I never could, then Emily found Jordan."

"Jordan showed up years later mom…it was only a few years ago."

"I know. Emily stopped having an affair with me when she found Jordan. Emily promised me that you could always have a place to stay if you ever needed it." JJ shrugged her shoulders and went on. "I am still in love with her, always have been."

"Than why do you stay here?"

"Cause I gave up on that dream along time ago."

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Emily walked around her living room, Sara was in her house, Sara! JJ's daughter, JJ's 12 year old daughter was at this exact moment dead asleep in Emily's bedroom… On the same bed where JJ was wrapped up in her arms less than 24 hours ago. That's when she heard it, someone screamed from the bedroom. Needless to say Emily freaked out and ran over to her bedroom and ran in. What she saw nearly broke her heart. Sara thrashing back and forth in a cold sweat in the middle of a nightmare. Emily went over and laid next to her on the bed, she pulled her close and refused to let go. Sara woke up and tried to push away, tears streaming down her face.

"It's ok, I promise everything is ok." Emily said not letting Sara go. Sara sighed and curled up into Emily and cried herself back to sleep. Emily spent the rest of the night with Sara in her arms making sure nothing would hurt her.

Emily would never ask Sara what her nightmares were about, it was her life and if she trusted her enough she would tell her. Emily knew that she'd have to earn her trust, that would be a great reward.

"Emmy…" Sara asked in the middle of the night after waking up again.

"Yea, kid?" Emily brushed Sara's hair away from her face.

"Thanks." Sara wiped a single tear from her face.

"Anytime baby girl." Emily smiled and kissed the top of her head.

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"It's not everyday that I'm honored with the presents of a Jareau woman." Emily grinned and hugged Sara.

"Oh shut up you liar." Sara laughed, hugging Emily back. "You see my mom everyday."

"Ah true but you're the beautiful one." Emily grinned.

"Oh now your hitting on your ex lover's child? Smooth." Sara laughed as Emily's jaw almost hit the floor.

"How!?"

"Well I always knew that mom wasn't going to just any random person's house when she wasn't home or at work. Plus have you seen the way you both look at eachother? Hot damn!" Emily laughed.

"I guess your right we could be a little more discrete."

"Plus I forced her to tell me." Sara grinned widely.

"Thata girl!" Emily laughed. "You didn't make her too mad did ya?"

"No, never, she told me flat out and gave me a beer!"

"You? You're under age."

"It was a younglings too!"

"Oh lucky! She never shares those!"

"Emmy!" Sara screamed and Jordan looked down the hall. Emily wasn't home and wasn't due home for another few hours. She opened the door and looked in on the girl. Sara slept, muscles tense fighting the urge to thrash back and forth. Jordan took pity on her and kneeled on the floor next to the bed, she pushed the hair back out of her face and held her hand.

"It's ok Sara."

"Emily!" Sara screamed again, this time Jordan got up and wrapped her arms around the little girl.

"Hush…it's ok." Sara pushed away from Jordan, who held her closely not letting go. Sara calmed down a bit a fell back into a peaceful sleep.

Emily walked in the door, putting her keys and coat in their usual place. She spotted Sara's coat and smiled.

"Jordan? Sara?" Emily called out for them. She looked through the house and finally went into Sara's room. She smiled at the sight of Jordan asleep with her arms wrapped securely around Sara. Emily made her way over to them and gently rubbed Jordan's back.

"Baby, wake up." Emily whispered and kissed Jordan's neck.

"Hmm…Emily?" Jordan looked up at her with sleepy eyes.

"Yeah, come on why don't we go to bed?" Emily smiled as Jordan nodded and pulled away slightly. Sara whimpered lightly and Jordan slowly pulled away more stopping quickly when Sara screamed out again and latched on to her arm.

"Emily…I can't leave her." Emily smiled and nodded again, kicking her shoes off.

"Ok." Emily kissed Jordan and walked around the other side of the bed curling up on the bed next to Sara. "We'll improvise." Jordan smiled and closed her eyes again.

"I love you."

Sara woke up and stretched but recoiled when she felt that someone was next to her. She looked to her left and right saw that Jordan and Emily were on either side of her. She smiled and crawled down the bed and made her way to the kitchen. Emily's phone rang and Sara picked it up.

"Prentiss's phone."

"Sara?"

"Hotch, hey." Sara smiled.

"Tell Emily and Jordan they need to be here in an hour."

"Yes sir." Sara grinned, she always liked calling him sir.

"Sara…"

"Yes uncle Hotch." Sara laughed.

"Good, stay safe."

"Bye hotchner."

"Bye." Hotch hung up as Sara laughed again and set the phone back down.