Hey guys, this is an old story of mine that I wanted to clean up, since it was so emotional for me to write. It's an idea I've found myself exploring thanks to the Kingdom Hearts series. It is sad, but I do hope it gets some minds thinking.

Please enjoy and let me know what you thought. Meanwhile, I'll be in the corner crying again (I'm just so freaking emotional with sad stories!). And yes, even as I'm cleaning this up, I still cry at it.


Disclaimer: I don't own it, okay!


Fade Away


It had been another normal day for the famous group of superheroes, the Teen Titans.

A crime alert had gone off in the city.

All of them had gone to face Cinderblock again.

They kicked his rocky butt and sent him back to prison with the supervillains division of the JCPD, again.

They had all returned to the tower, elated at yet another victory over a supervillain, again.

Robin had taken Starfire out on a date shortly after they got back to the tower, again.

Cyborg had used a new teleportation device he invented to spend some quality time with Bumblebee at Titan's East Tower, again.

Beast Boy and Raven had been left in the tower for the rest of the day, for the first time ever.

Two years ago, Beast Boy had finally gathered the courage to ask Raven out on a date. He had been expecting that she'd say no or something around that area. Like being thrown out of the tower, or her making good on her threat to send him to another dimension. He had been so nervous when he had asked.

But to his shock, she had embraced him in a small hug and said yes. The date that night went surprisingly well for the two, and thus, a relationship had been born.

Now, Beast Boy had made special arrangements for their night, It was, after all, their two year anniversary.

He had actually managed to have everything planned out for once, and not just some idea he got off the top of his head. Or that Raven had hinted or suggested to him. It was all of his own doing, with a little bit of Cyborg's help of course.

First off, he and her were going to eat at the place where they had their first date. This would have been followed with a stroll through the park. Before ending it with the both of them flying out to the ocean to watch the sunset on the distant horizon.

And then…

'I love you.'

The three words he'd been wanting to tell her for the past year and a half of their relationship. But he had been too afraid to say them, or even think about it around her, up until last week.

Flashback:

Beast Boy had been minding his own business, walking through the hallways of the tower. He had been bored, not really wanting to do anything but walk the dim hallways of the tower with a bored expression on his face.

He was just about to round the next corner of the hallway, when he heard light footsteps coming from around the corner.

He had instantly went on alert mode and morphed into a fly. He attached himself to the wall and prepared to fight whatever was stupid enough to be in the Tower. Only, it wasn't some scary, slimy monster as his imaginative mind had thought.

It had been Raven.

If a fly could sigh, this one would have. He loved it every time he saw her face. He just found it so beautiful, despite what she may believe. But before he could morph back into his original form and greet her though, he heard her speak.

"I can feel it. She's getting stronger. I'm not sure that even my love for Gar can keep her at bay for much longer now." she teleported, leaving Beast Boy behind as a fly on the wall.

Beast Boy had went stone still when she had said those words. He should have been worried, the way she had been talking to herself made it sound like something bad was happening to his girlfriend. Except, his mind was on completely different matters at the moment.

'SHE LOVES ME! SHE REALLY DOES LOVE ME! BOOYAH! GO BEAST BOY! GO BEAST BOY!'

Beast Boy morphed into his original form as he started chanting his victory dance out loud, something he hadn't done since he and Raven had gotten together. "GO BEAST BOY! GO BEAST BOY!"

Shortly after that, a very lovesick looking Beast Boy could be seen. Almost skipping through the hallways of the tower. He didn't have to fear about his unrequited love anymore. He had heard her say so without her knowing. Everything was good now… right?

End Flashback:

He smiled. He had slid a note into her room at around 5:00, telling her to dress nicely and to meet him in the common room at six. He'd been standing in the common room ever since. He alternated between standing, to pacing, to looking at the clock. The hour seemed to drag on forever for the changeling, but finally, it was 5:59.

He looked to the doors, expecting her to be out any minute. Raven had always been on time for their dates. It was almost as if she had an internal clock or something on her. Finally, six came. He expected her to come in through the doors, maybe in a nice purple dress or something like it.

Only, they didn't open. Now, this seemed odd to the changeling since Raven was never, ever, late for a date. 'First time for everything.' He thought to himself.

He started pacing again, trying to reassure himself that everything was okay, she had said she loved him, and she wouldn't just lose interest in him in less than a week. He looked at the clock again. It said 6:05. 'That's really odd, Raven's never the one who's even a second late for our dates. It's normally me.' He thought.

He paced some more, the clock now said 6:15. 'Maybe she's having some trouble with her hair?' He pushed the thought away, she still wore her hair in her classic A-line haircut. It took her only a minute to handle it herself. So there was no way it could be that, unless of course it was one of her really bad hair days.

More time passed. It was now 6:30. And Beast Boy was really starting to get worried now. Thoughts of her breaking up with him started to fill his frightened mind. He decided he needed to see if something was wrong, if she needed comfort from him again.

He always tried to make her feel beautiful, wanted… and special to him. But she was still always full of self-doubt, self-loathing, and fear of her heritage, of her father. Yes, Trigon had been defeated by them before, but he was evil incarnate. You can't just kill evil and not expect it to come back again. She feared him taking revenge on her family and loved ones.

Then again, there was also involved a certain magic dragon who will not be named involved. Who had called her beautiful, taught her dark stuff, and then dumped her to the curb when he had been freed. Ever since him, she had always found herself ugly, unappreciated, unwanted.

And boy, did Beast Boy try so hard to not let her feel that way.

He was now standing in front of a door, the door that led to her room. He listened, but heard no sounds coming from within. He thought about knocking, but thought it'd be useless since it didn't even sound like she wasn't even in there. He shrugged his shoulders, and prepared to search the Tower for her.

But then, he realized something. Her name, which had been on her door since the day Titan's Tower had been built, was slowly fading before his eyes. Now, Beast Boy had seen many strange things in his lifetime, but names disappearing off doors was definitely on his list of things that weren't normal. Especially since it was her door.

'RAVEN!'

He turned into a rhino and knocked her door down. Changing back, he ran into her room, and he had been right about the fact that she wasn't even in there. His note still laid on the ground in front of the remains of her mangled door.

Raven's room looked like a tornado had gone through it, absolutely destroying everything she had in there. From her cracked vanity mirror, to her torn up mattress that laid in front of him. It looked even worse than his room had ever been a couple years before.

As he watched, he saw the items on the ground were fading from view, just like the name on her doorway. Worry was starting to fill him. 'Is she leaving us? Does she not want to be with me anymore?'

He saw her only window in the back right above the remains of her bed was wide open, almost as if someone had flown out of it very recently. He flew out of it as an eagle, as he frantically looked around in every direction with his eyes sharp eyes for Raven.

Finally, as he looked up, he saw what looked like a pair of pale legs, sticking out from the top of the tower. With relief filling Beast Boy, he flew up towards the top of the tower. He saw, to his immense relief, that she was just sitting on the edge of the roof. Likely studying the ocean waves in the distance.

Beast Boy landed beside her, morphing back into himself, preparing to say something when he realized something. She hadn't turned to face him when he came in for his landing. And she was still staring off into the distance, studying the ocean waves.

Instead of what he was going to originally say, he said something else. "Raven?"

She didn't respond, it was almost as if she couldn't even hear him. He grabbed her shoulder, hoping to get her to say something, but she just sat there. Staring off into empty space. He took his hand off her shoulder. Thinking of something else to say to get her out of this weird stupor. Yet she still just sat there, unnoticing.

Relief was being replaced with worry. Even at her worst, she had never been this reclusive to even him before. What was happening to his Raven?

"Raven… please… don't you want to talk to me about something." he said, tears starting to threaten his eyes. 'Is she giving me the silent treatment? Did I do something wrong again? Is she wanting to break up with me? What the hell is going on with her!?'

She was still staring ahead. Seemingly unable to realize he was even there. He was just about ready to walk away, accepting she wanted to be alone, when she finally spoke. "What is there to say Garfield." she had said it in a voice that was absolutely devoid of any sort of emotion.

This worried Beast Boy even more. She just sounded so… different to him. She had seemed to be normal to him when they had gotten back from fighting Cinderblock. Although, she had seemed to be really worried about something when she retreated to her room.

'She's never sounded so emotionless before, even when she had been dealing with my immaturity. Is something going on with her again? Is she trying to shut me and the rest of the outside world out? But why would she be on the roof in that case? Wouldn't she have wanted to be in her room? Destroyed as it is?'

"Raven... what's going on?" he said, trying his best to at least sound normal to her. Trying to get the worry and the fear out of his voice the best he could.

She was still not looking at him. Still seemingly studying the ocean waves, almost as if they were more interesting than him. "Tell me, Garfield. What was happening to my doorway? What was happening to my room? Did you notice something… odd about them?" she asked, no emotions present in her tone. Not even a hint of curiosity.

He blinked, confused at her question at first. And then, he remembered what had gotten him so scared and worried in the first place.

"Raven… why was everything just, disappearing?" he asked her, still trying to hide just how scared he was at this point. How scared he was to find out what the answer to that question was going to be for him. He was now genuinely scared that she was leaving him now.

She finally turned to look at him. At first, he couldn't believe what his eyes were seeing. And then, the truth hit him hard. Her face now looked paler than normal, almost making her look like a ghost. In the gap he now saw in her cloak, he was shocked to find that she looked thinner than he remembered from just mere hours earlier. Her mouth had no curve on it, not a smile, nor a frown. But a thin straight line, like a line from a graph in Algebra.

But the worst part for him had been her eyes. Her lively, amethyst colored eyes. That had always been unable to hide the emotions she had felt in the moment, were dead. The amethyst had faded to a mere faint purple. Not one single spark of emotion hid in those eyes of hers. It was as if they were glass now, showing nothing except your own reflection in them. Dead, and unstaring.

Beast Boy had been shocked into silence for once in his life. He just couldn't believe what he was seeing. It was horrible for him to see her this way. What was going on with her?

He raised his hand to her face, just to test to see if his eyes were showing him the truth. And yes, it was true. "Raven… what did you do?"

Even with his hand on her face, she still held no trace of emotion anywhere. Not in her posture, not in her movements, not in her dead eyes. "It wasn't your fault Gar."

Suddenly, as if by saying these words, he saw miniature bright lights floating off of Raven, soaring up into the sky. "I'm sorry Garfield, but I'm afraid I don't have much time left in this world now."

His thought process stopped. Just a few moments ago, he'd been going over his plans on finally telling her he loved her. How he wanted to spend his future with her. And now, here she was, saying she was not only leaving him, but she was leaving this dimension behind as well.

"What are you talking about!" he shouted in her face, anger rising up in him. 'Where the hell is she going! I thought she loved me! Why would she break up with me and leave me!'

She let out a sigh. "Garfield, I'm sorry… but I'm afraid you and the others won't see me again after this."

He felt his heart throb in his chest. "What do you mean! What happened to you Rae! Was it something I did! Is that why you want to leave me so badly! Why the hell would you just leave me! I thought we had something special! I -"

She sunk down, almost as if she was tiring now, the lights were suddenly coming off her at a faster pace now. It had been enough for him to stop shouting at her, anger being replaced with deep worry again. He saw more lights floating off from her body and she weakened even more.

She slumped backwards a little, almost as if she was getting dizzy, and he found himself reaching out for her again.

"Garfield, the reason why you won't see me again… is because I'm disappearing." She said in a weaker tone at last.

His hand stopped in mid-air. The shock clearly evident on his face. "But...but… what do you mean?" he barely managed to get out. He still couldn't fully comprehend just what was happening to her.

She sighed. She fell backwards this time, but Beast Boy was quick and caught her in his arms. She felt so cold, despite all the lights that were floating off from her skin. She started to explain.

"A few weeks ago, I noticed that Rage was acting up again. Only, it seemed like she had more power than before. And it wasn't until last week when I found that Trigon had lent the last of his power to her."

His face paled. He didn't have really good memories of both Rage and Trigon.

She continued. "Rage got loose, the power I had expelled fighting Cinderblock had allowed her to break free of her prison. And the first thing she did, was destroy my other emoticlones."

Beast Boy's face couldn't describe the amount of shock and confusion he was going through at this point. "You mean… happy… and the others…"

She nodded. "She savaged everything in her path. She tore apart all my other emoticlones. She had seemed unstoppable, I didn't even know if I could stop her." Sigh " But then, my last one sacrificed herself, completely destroying the Rage inside me. Unfortunately, she died from the wounds that Rage had inflicted on her, before I could save her." She finished.

"But… this is good… right? I mean… you don't have to deal with Rage anymore… Trigon is gone for good now... right?" he said, trying to find hope in what he was saying to her. Trying to find a reason that she should stay.

She looked up at him. Her dead eyes meeting his. "Garfield… they were in charge of helping me feel my emotions… but they also provided me with my powers… my personality … my own identity. Even Rage had a hand in that. And without them… I can't exist in this realm." As she said it, more bright lights started to come off her skin. It was only then he realized, they weren't coming off her skin, but they were coming from inside her.

Beast Boy was trying to piece together what she was saying in his mind, but couldn't understand it still. Or he didn't want to at this point. He was still in denial.

"Garfield, I'm disappearing… and because of this… everything that I've done… in this realm… is also disappearing."

"W-What are you trying to say?!" he stuttered while again shouting at her.

She shook her head at him. "All that I own, everything that was connected to me in some way… will disappear from this world Gar." She looked up at him. "Even those with memories of me will forget they ever knew about me."

Beast Boy's heart stopped. A chill seemed to permeate through his veins. "No… no…" he said, not wanting to believe it. The woman he loved, the one he had liked ever since the day they had first met, had finally forced his mind to understand. She was literally telling him that she was dying.

But not only that, everything… items… possessions… everything she had ever wrought or made in this dimension, was disappearing as well. And eventually, even memories of her would disappear from those that knew her, be it her friend, her enemy… her love.

The floating lights became thicker, now starting to wrap around her feet, slowly moving up her body. Tears started to fill his eyes, he was still trying to desperately hold on to her. "I'm sorry Gar, I wish things could've turned out better between us." She still said in a dead voice, as dead as her eyes were now.

Something in him snapped, the news finally seeming to hit home for him. Raven, his Raven, his love, was dying in front of him. And not only couldn't he do anything to stop it, he had learned that he would also forget about her as well.

He started crying into her shoulder, and she let him. She couldn't care about anything anymore. The lights were now covering her up to her knees.

"Raven, please… don't leave me…" he said through his sobbing.

Her face didn't change. "If I could have, I would've stayed with you for the rest of my life Gar." She said, gently bringing her hand up to cup his crying face.

"I've lost to many of those I love Raven… I lost my parents… I lost the Doom Patrol… I lost all the family that has cared about me… just please… don't let me lose the one person I've truly loved!" he begged through his tears.

She wiped away one of his tears. "Gar, in time… you will forget about me as well… whether it takes days… months… or even years. You'll eventually forget about me… and then… you'll move on in your life." She said to him simply.

He pulled her even closer to him. "I could never forget about you Rae! How could I forget you when… I love you." he said quietly at the end. It hadn't been the way he wanted to tell her, but he had to say it at least once.

She became weaker in his arms, barely able to speak anymore. "Gar… even if you somehow remember me… I want you to move on… for me."

"But…" he couldn't speak anymore, his sobbing being too much for him now. Her hand was still on his face. The floating lights now up to her hips. "Gar, I can't fight this anymore… I want you to promise… that you'll find someone… that you'll make her feel as you made me feel the past two years."

He looked in her eyes through his tears. Seeing her stare into his soul. He didn't want to do that. He wanted to find a way to bring her back. To cherish the memories he held of her. To stay alone in his life in the off chance that she somehow came back. But he couldn't refuse her.

"I-I promise." he said in a small whisper. His heart breaking in his chest.

Her lips faintly curled up, just for a second. "Goodbye… Garfield… I'm glad… I got to know you... and the other titans…" Her hand lingered on his face for one last second. "Gar… I want you... to be happy… that is all I ask of you."

Her hand slowly came off his face, her eyes closing. "No! Raven!" Beast Boy shouted in a heartbreaking tone.

Her eyes remained closed. The floating lights moved up her body, quickly enveloping it in a sphere of brightness that forced him to look away from her. When the light finally died down, he looked down. She wasn't in his arms anymore.

All that was left, was her hooded cloak, neatly folded on the ground.

A memory flashed in his mind.

The day he had seen her on the shoreline. Shortly after they had defeated the Gordanians. She had looked at him, and smiled at him, the light from the sun making her look like an angel.

"Raven…"

He collapsed on the rooftop. Burying his face into her cloak, hoping to at least find a trace of her scent on it.

But it was gone.

Raven Rachel Roth, and everything connected to her, had disappeared forever.


Author's Notes:

Well… cleaning through this… brought back so many memories…

I'm just going to… go back and cry in my corner now.