Title: First Love

Author: Lizziebunniehero

Rating: PG for some minor cusses

Category: VA

Spoilers: Second Season (like as in I was bad girl and I read those piles of spoilers at DAFan)

Disclaimer: I'm sorry, I don't own DA or any of the characters associated with it. I'll have to pay you in cement that is presently all over the floor of my kitchen. I'm sure you can have fun with it...

Summary: Max's thoughts on what is to be the second season. Pairings are strange but you'll have to read to understand.

A/N: I wrote this some random night by the light of a flashligh because I was too darn lazy to get up and turn on the light. This is my feeble attempt to explain the fact that Max is going to break up w/ Logan. Don't get me wrong, I am the biggest Max/Logan shipper I know, but I felt the whole mess needed to be explained. Feedback will be greatly appreciated. Flames will be used to toast marshmallows. lizziebunniehero@hotmail.com
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I know I shouldn't have expected Logan to stay alone those three long months I was stuck in Manticore. After all, what would I have done were I in his place? Besides cry myself to sleep every night. I mean, Cindy did tell me the story of her family friend that married another woman 6 months after his wife of fifty years had died. Logan and I weren't even married. So why did I expect commitment from him? I guess I just didn't expect him to get someone new in his life so quickly. Then again, I did die in his arms. And I'm sure that if I had truly died, I would want him to move on and keep living in spite of my death. I love him. I know what love is and what it does to you.

When I met Asha, I knew that it was time for my "relationship" with Logan, or what was left of it, to end. We said the whole "Let's be friends" load of crap, but we both knew it was the end.

When this crazy-ass punk plows into me while I'm on my bike, the last person I expect to see is Rafer. So we screwed. I thought that'd be the end of it.

I've always been a sucker for rebound relationships.

We went to Crash for a coupla beers and lo and behold, Logan and Asha show up. I try to mask the pain I still felt at letting go of Logan by waving cheerily at Rafer. Asha waves to Logan and we part ways, without a single word spoken.

I don't know what to think the rest of the night. I let Rafer ramble on about something that took place in his life while I mentally slap myself many times for what I did with Logan. People say that love doesn't escape you that easily. Guess it did. He was the sole reason I actually made it out of Manticore. I wanted to be back in his strong arms so badly. To feel that I had a partner in taking on my demons. What Logan and I had was special. But we'll never get our happily ever after. We only had our happily ever now. Logan's right. You never really get over your first love.

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