Hello I decided until people review for my other fic I'll preoccupy myself with this one

You wake up this morning feeling depressed, as usual. At the same time, however, you feel excited. Today is your seventeenth birthday, and you plan to spend it with the gang. You get ready thinking about your friends, or, at least, one of your friends, 'Erg, I've spent the whole time I've known him trying to get over him, and it's still not working!'

It's like you're a drug
it's like a demon I can't face down
it's like I'm stuck
it's like I'm running from you all the time

When you meet your friends in the park, your heart sinks.

'He didn't come. I should have known. He would never go to a restaurant with humans'

and I know I let you
have all the power
it's like the only company I seek
is misery all around

"Where's Hiei?" you ask Kurama.

"Hn, baka onna, I'm right behind you."

You turn and see him standing there. His gorgeous crimson eyes gazing at you with his world-famous smirk on his well formed face. His tri-colored hair (black, blue, and white) that makes it seem like gravity doesn't exist. The black clothes he often wears, and the white bandana covering his third eye.

It's like you're a leech
suckin' the like from me
it's like I can't breathe
without you inside of me

You stare at him for a while, and then sweat drop.

"Well, unlike SOME people, I only have TWO eyes, and I'm sorry, but none of them are on the back of my head," you say, hoping he didn't notice you staring.

and I know
I let you have all the power
and I realize I'm never gonna
quit you over time

"Um, you guys? We would like to get on with Y/n's birthday party, if you don't mind!" Yusuke says, irritably.

"This is a birthday party? I just planned to spend the day with you guys. I didn't even expect the WHOLE gang to come"

You had done it again. You completely forgot they were there, or that today is your birthday, or anything else in the world for that matter. Except for him."I only came because THOSE bakas forced me to!" Hiei says, clearly in one of his bad moods that he never seems to get out of.

"Figures," you mutter.

"What's that supposed to mean!" Hiei exclaims through clenched teeth.His eyes are glazed with annoyance, as he scowls at you.

'At least he looked at me...'

It's like I can't breathe
it's like I can't see anything
nothin' but you
I'm addicted to you

"Shall we go?" Kurama says, not wanting the fight to continue to something worse, "We are walking to the restaurant, by the way." You all start walking. It take about 20 minutes to walk there, leaving you in silence to think. 'Hmph, Hiei always has to act like a jerk, even on my birthday!' 'Hn,' you hear his voice in your head. 'Gosh darn it, Hiei! People are given the ability to think INSIDE their heads- well, most people, anyway,' you point over at Kuwabara so that only Hiei could figure out what you were doing, in which Kuwabara was muttering to himself again.
Hiei snickers.

'Any who, people are given the ability to think INSIDE their heads so that other people can't hear what they want to say to themselves!' 'Fine, onna!' is the last thing you hear before you feel him leave your mind.

It's like I can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts, in my dreams
you've taken over me
it's like I'm not me
it's like I'm not me

You look over at his gorgeous face to see it glaring at everything meaner than usual. You feel frustrated, but you look happy, for your friends. 'Why do I always have to say things to get him mad? I said leave, Hiei!' You hear him growl, and look over at him again. If possible, he had an even bigger scowl on his face. If it didn't make you so mad, you would laugh your head off.

"It appears, we have arrived at the restaurant" Kurama says after an awkward silence that seemed to last the whole way there, despite the fact that Kuwabara and Yusuke were bickering the whole way. "Good," you say, seething with anger at yourself, "I have to pee."

It's like I'm lost
it's like I'm giving up slowly
it's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
leave me alone

Kurama can smell that you're lying, and he can tell that your teeth are clenched.

'hm, Hiei and y/n must have had a fight telepathically on the way here...'

Meanwhile, in the bathroom, you basically break the mirrors with your loud screaming. "ERRG, I HATE THIS! IT'S SO STUPID! WHY HIM, OF ALL PEOPLE! HE'S THE ONE THAT WON'T LOVE ME!" you think aloud.
'Ha, stop your whining you insolent little brat,' says a familiar voice in your head, 'you are far too weak for anyone, especially HIM!' 'GET OUT OF MY HEAD, HIEI!' 'You KNOW this isn't Hiei.' (To figure out who it is, read the lyrics)

and I know these voices in my head
are mine alone
and I know I'll never change my ways
if I don't give you up now

When you finish venting your frustration at yourself, you go out and look for the place that you guys are sitting. Well, you WERE sitting there, but now Kurama is the only one there. Worry is apparent in his eyes.

"Where is everyone?" You ask Kurama, pretending nothing happened. "Yusuke and Kuwabara got bored, and found an arcade nearby, and Hiei found a tree just outside," Kurama explains, "Y/n, I want to talk to you." "Shoot," you acknowledge for him to go on, curious as to what he could possibly have to talk to you about that is so important.

"how long have you loved Hiei?"

This question catches you off guard, and your face reddens again, this time out of embarrassment. You hope Kurama didn't see this, but of course, he did.

It's like I can't breathe
it's like I can't see anything
nothin' but you
I'm addicted to you

"I... I have no idea what you're talking about," you say avoiding Kurama's eyes. Suddenly the floor just got VERY interesting..."Y/n... please, don't lie to me. You are like a sister to me, and Hiei, a brother." "Fine..." You couldn't resist Kurama's concrete persuasion skills.

"I've loved him since the day I met him. I don't know why, though, but I think it's because of insert everything you like about Hiei. I'm sorry, I just can't stop, and I hate it!" You yell loudly, attracting some quite mean glares from the other customers."Y/n, there is nothing to apologize for. This is not a bad thing." Kurama comforts you, not wanting to mention to you that you're making a scene, yet wanting to stop it from progressing. At the same time, he feels sorry for you. He knows that Hiei would never SHOW anyone, if he DID, that he loved someone.

"Psh, yeah, whatever, I wish he would at least stop calling me onna though..." Just then, Yusuke and Kuwabara walked in, dragging Hiei along with them, again. Hiei seems to be pretty mad, since his face is nearly as red as his eyes, and he is yelling profanities at the two bakas. "That was some pee break," Kuwabara remarks stupidly, ignoring Hiei's colorful words. "So, you ready to open presents?" Yusuke asks.

This perks you right up. "You guys got presents!" "Well, yeah! It's your birthday PARTY, stupid! We wouldn't throw a party and not bring presents! That's just cruel!" Yusuke says a little too loudly.

Being the pervert that he is, Yusuke got you slutty lingerie.

He whispers in your ear, "remind Hiei to thank me later." "Why!" "Heh heh, oh, no reason," he winks. You blush a million shades of red and beat him over the head until his eyes are swirling, and he has about 7 lumps on his head. Kuwabara got you a knife with, you guessed it, a cat on it, and Kurama got you a dozen roses of all the rose colors that would never die. 'Hmm... somethings missing...'

"Hiei," you ask, "where's your present?"

it's like I cant think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts
in my dreams
you've taken over me
it's like I'm not me
it's like I'm not me

"I haven't figured it out yet," he answers, apparently struggling to find the words to explain.He wouldn't look in your eyes.Yusuke and Kuwabara sweatdrop. Kurama can do nothing but watch sadly as he sees your heart break right before his eyes. You feel broken into a million pieces and then stomped on a thousand times, but you can't let Hiei see this, so you use the emotionless mask that he wears all the time, but your eyes give you away, showing the deep sadness of a long-term heartbreak.

'Hn, what's the matter, onna? You'll get your present,' he says in your head."You... forgot..." "So what? You'll still get your gift! Didn't you hear what I said!" He states coldly. This pushes you over the edge.

"FORGET IT! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! I DON'T EVER WANT A PRESENT FROM YOU! YOU HATE ME, JUST ADMIT IT! Don't worry, I hate you too!"

Everyone is very taken aback by your sudden outburst, except Kurama, who seems to be very interested in the floor at the moment with teary eyes. You take advantage of their shock and run out of the restauraunt, and start sprinting to your house.

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it

"Onna, wait!" You hear his voice behind you. "No, Hiei," you say with tears threatening to spill over for the first time in a very long time, "I'm done waiting! Can't you see how long I've waited! For two years, I've waited for you to stop treating me like I'm inferior! It's like you don't care..."You look at the ground. "Baka onna, what are you babbling on about? You forgot your presents from the bakas and the fox!" He shoves the knife, roses, and Yusuke's, err umm…, perverted gift in your hands and storms off, clearly furious again.

Just one more hit
I promise
I can deal with it

You run the rest of the way home, and scream into your pillow, "I HATE YOU, HIEI! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!" And you thought that you were done crying a long time ago.After a few seconds, you lift your tearstained face out of your pillow and say softly, "I hate me, I love you..."

I'll handle it quit it
just one more time and that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

Kurama is at your doorstep during this event. He is holding back tears himself. "Y/n, I'm sorry..." he whispers softly to the door and leaves. Hiei, who is in the tree outside your room, hears you scream your poisonous words at him, but nothing more. He doesn't hear the last part, because he whispers, "I hate me, too," and disappears.

I'm hooked on you I need a fix I can't take it
Just one more hit I promise I can deal with it

The events of what happened today, replay in your head. The fighting, the yelling, the screaming. You think about how you ran out of the restaurant and how he stopped you, only to argue some more and leave you, again."Why me? I've bottled up all of my emotions up 'til this point, but why do they have to spill out now! He just forgot a present, it's not supposed to be a big deal!" You scream at yourself."Why do I have to love HIM!"

I'll handle it, quit it
just one more time and that's it
just a little bit more to get me through this

You force yourself into an uneasy sleep, in your pain of his 2-year-old rejection that he doesn't even know he has done to you. When you wake up the next day, you feel even worse, if possible. Then, you see the knife that Kuwabara got you...

It's like I can't breathe
it's like I can't see anything
nothing but you
I'm addicted to you

"I'm sorry, Hiei. I wanted to be strong, for you, but I can't take it anymore. I love you." You turn the knife toward your stomach...

It's like I can't think
without you interrupting me
in my thoughts
in my dreams
you've taken over me

.:meanwhile:. Hiei is one his way back from training to watch you from the tree. 'Why her! What is this that I'm feeling? I would never feel anything but anger and irritation towards that baka onna!' Suddenly, he hears your first three words (with his cool sensitive hearing) and smells blood. He races up to your room as fast as he can. "Y/n!"

"Goodbye, Hiei. I'm so sorry for... being weak," you manage to say before passing out from the loss of blood.

Hiei catches you before you hit the ground.

it's like I'm not me
it's like I'm not me

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