"Feel this
Can you feel this
My heart beating out of my chest
Feel this
Can you feel this
Salvation under my breath."
-Bethany Joy Galeotti
Starry Starry Night
Chapter 1 : Feel This
Hi everyone - I'm back! Heheh-I know I haven't written any fan fiction since 2013 for shame! But I am going to attempt to remedy that-post hast! I'm writing this story because I see the chemistry between Elsa and Emma on Once, even though I do love Killian and Emma. I've been waiting for those two together for a while now. Now I'm torn, lol - meanwhile there aren't many Elsa and Emma stories yet, probably because it's such a new ship. Well anyway, this is one of many Frozen Swan stories I'm hopping to write. Enjoy and check out my other works-hopefully to be updated soon :) Naturally you know I don't own Once Upon A time or Frozen -my use of the characters is just for our enjoyment -heheh
The winter holidays had again come to Storybrooke Maine and with its thick blanketing of snow; the little town for all the world was a scene from a Norman Rockwell painting. Emma herself, couldn't believe, that Christmas was only a week away - the entire town was so swept up with magic, but not Emma. How could she- after all? Not when someone she loved was so sad this holiday. How could she find happiness when she knew someone, she desired more then anything else -was in pain.
Honestly everything had been perfect, for a while, she had to admit. She'd found someone who loved her again, something she'd thought lost. Even though she'd fought for so long, she'd finally give in; and with it her life had blossomed. Once she'd opened her heart. She'd opened her life to the possibility of forgiving herself; admitting the anger she'd be holding. So hurt and so lost, a pain she'd never seen before-well until she'd seen it; reflected in another's eyes. She too had thought she was abandoned, forgotten, unloved. In her tears, Emma had had found, peace -made peace. Given herself a chance; to love and be loved by wonderful parents, no longer an orphan, no longer alone. She had a wonderful family a son, an off again on again best friend and a baby brother. She was a princess for goodness sake, something every little girl wanted. Yet still, she hadn't been happy not completely really. Something had been missing - but she'd never imagined life could get better, but it did. Everything changed -again.
Emma winced, looking at herself in the floor length mirror, hands on hips she sighed. Life had gotten so good again- she guilty knew it wasn't because of the man who was in love with her. It was -no - she thought I won't admit that. But you know the truth her mind wheedled you know why your life is so amazing, your running away again.
She'd met someone-her mind reminded her, as her heart raced just thinking of her. This was a gift, an amazing friendship, a magical one - still why did her heart have to make something it couldn't be, she thought. It was already something so special that was just hers-something she couldn't imagine ever losing-but. Now her life was turned up-side-down. It was in danger of getting messy and Emma hated messy. She liked clarity and her new friendship had made everything muddled and confused. She sighed again, how could she be happy there was such heartache.
She frowned at her reflection, her eyes wet with unshed tears and here she was afraid. Just standing in front of the mirror hours trying to muster the courage to go and see Elsa. She'd seen just seen her the night before-yet this was never enough. She desperately wanted to ask Elsa to go Christmas shopping with her, maybe they could get lunch, but-Elsa was a queen. She needed to be asked properly and Emma didn't know the proper way. Her mouth felt so dry and her heart was racing -just do it.
" Emma?"
Emma turned with a start gasping, until now she'd thought she was alone. Evidently not as her mother's reflection was beside hers as if by magic.
"Emma" her mother said again. "Sweetheart are you okay? I've been calling and calling."
"Yes, I'm okay" she chocked back " I'm sorry, I di..di..didn't know you needed me."
"I just thought you and Elsa where going Christmas shopping." Marry Margret said smiling " I mean didn't you tell me something like that last night? Or did I get it wrong?"
"No, I did...I just..I um...I didn't know how to ask, her." Emma said at almost a whisper. So softly in fact that Mary Margret was sure she'd heard wrong. Why would her daughter be unsure how to ask her friend to hang out.
"I didn't ask her yet." Emma said a bit loader " I didn't know if she'd want to go Christmas shopping - do you even have Christmas back where you guys are from mom?"
"Of course we do...and I'm sure she'd love you to ask her. I'm sure she's so lonely without her sister. In fact you should totally just ask her to spend Christmas with us. I know David would agree-our Elsa shouldn't be alone."
Emma nodded smiling for the first time all day.
"Now hurry and get over there" Mary Margret said returning Emma's smile. "Hurry before she makes other plans."
Emma, dashed for the door and fairly ran down the stairs only stopping at her moms voice.
"Don't forget to wear something warm it's cold out there!"
Elsa didn't know what to do, here in a strange new world-born of the urn and left for dead. Here in a place she didn't understand and felt even more alone in then Arendelle. She couldn't even believe this was true, but it was and here she was sitting alone in foreign bedroom. All Elsa ever wanted was to fade away and she couldn't not ever. Her magic had always made it impossible and now it was even more impossible. Now in this strange land among strangers everyone was curious about the queen with ice powers.
The only saving grace, of all this was Emma, her new friend. Emma the girl she'd nearly froze like her own beloved sister Anna. Elsa couldn't believe after all that Emma would ever want to speak to her again. All the same Emma had given Elsa something she'd never had before, friendship. It had been different with Anna, secretly Elsa, though she'd never admit it out load. However, often she felt Anna had to love her she was her family. Emma had no obligation but still she gave her all the affection she lacked. Her family was lovely and they'd welcomed her even after she'd nearly killed their daughter. Even more Emma was a princess too and her parents where the king and queen of a land, Elsa had only heard whisper off.
Yet of everything the best part was Emma, like herself was was endowed with magic. She certainly wouldn't say she was gifted because their magic was no gift. It also however wasn't a complete curse either. Her magic had recently come in handy. This new friendship was so special to Elsa that today she was even humming and smiling. She had hope again that she'd be reunited with her sister before to long. All because of her beloved Emma, she had warmed her heart.
Wait was that right?
Emma skidded into Granny's, a big smile on her face and a deep blush on her cheeks.
" Woah, now" said Ruby" where's he fire?" calling after Emma, who retreated nearly as fast as she'd appeared. Sailing through the dinner at a break neck speed.
"Going to see Elsa!" Emma called back already half way up the backstairs.
Ruby just shock her head laughing and returned to waiting tables.
Now Emma found herself standing in front of Elsa's door and she was so nervous her stomach was in knots.
She took a tentative breath and slowly and carefully knocked on the door.
" Elsa" she said " would you like to go Christmas shopping?"
The door flew open and Elsa stood there in the doorway with a sincere smile on her face.
"Emma!" She said happily, the very person she wanted to see most.
" Come in I was just going to go find you myself." She blushed deeply wondering if that was okay to say, would Emma like to hear this?
Emma couldn't believe what Elsa had just said; she wanted to see me too? Don't get ahead of yourself Swan she's your friend just your friend. Wait is she blushing?
"I-didn't know if you where busy" Elsa finished " I wasn't sure if you'd be with Killian."
" Oh no, he's -actually I am not sure what he's up too."
"I didn't want to bother you, I wasn't sure what was acceptable in friendship. We just saw each other last night.' Elsa continued softly.
"No it's all right, you saved me from myself. I almost gave up my magic, a few weeks ago, but you stopped me." Emma said smiling blushing sincerely "What you said it changed me, it's the least I can do." Her speech quickening the more nervous she became.
"-I want to show you Storybrooke can be beautiful not just dangerous. Did you see it snowed, you'll be right at home now."
" I did actually, its really beautiful" Elsa giggled scolding herself for how unlady like it was to blush and giggle so. Still she couldn't help it whenever she was around Emma.
" So would you like..."
"I'd love to!" Elsa said happily
It was Emma's turn to smile and as she did a rosy blush spread across her cheeks.
Elsa thought nothing of taking Emma's hand as she'd often done with Anna. Emma for her part couldn't believe the electric shock that went through her. Just as it had a few weeks ago. If Elsa noticed she didn't mention it only smiling at her friend.
"Hurry lets go Emma," an excited Elsa breathed. " Lead the way princess" she said laughing softly.
Emma just smiled and pulled her toward the door and out into the falling night.
It was snowing again, as they burst out of the dinner. The street lamps had turned on and Elsa couldn't believe how at home she felt. Here with her friend in the falling snow, so close to Christmas she felt her heart warm again.
"Emma" she said " you know what I haven't done in forever?"
"No what" Emma said shivering just a little, it was after all very cold.
"Would you maybe like-" Elsa could hardly get it out her own nerves rising. Fully knowing what this would mean if she could only admit it to herself " could we maybe -would you like ever - build a snowman with me?"
Emma couldn't believe her ears, she wants to build a snowman with me? Like she did with Anna?
She just nodded speechless as they stood in the falling snow, both blushing and smiling-the cold forgotten. Emma suddenly was incredibly warm and that Christmas shopping wasn't nearly as important. As just getting lost in the most gorgeous blue of her new best friends eyes. Something was happening she couldn't deny it anymore and Emma knew it was going to be messy. Complicated and scary even, but maybe she didn't care anymore-just maybe.
