AN: Hey guys, this is my very first story so please go easy on me
Also English is not my native language so if you notice any
grammatical or so mistakes please let me know.
Btw constructive criticism is very welcomed. Enjoy.
Struggle
"Don't" I yell "Don't go?"
She pretended she didn't hear me just ran past me. I took her by the wrist, caused her to stop.
She didn't turn to look at me, glanced away. Afraid, to meet my eyes.
"Please. Stay." She still didn't look at me. Her eyes darting around the room, trying to dodge my pleading ones.
"I-I- don't go. Please."
I tried again. Not saying what I really meant, what I really felt.
"Why?" Her cold voice cut through the air. I struggled, tried to keep myself from crying.
"Because we need you." I lied. Not wanting to tell her the real reason. She laughed coldly. "They've you. And they can pretty good look after themselves. That's no reason for me to
stay." I could hear the pain in her voice.
One single tear escaped my eyes. I angrily wiped it away.
'BecauseI need you.'
I thought not able to say it out loud. I could never tell her. Never.
"Because- because it's where you belong." She finally turned to look at me. I could see unshed tears in her eyes.
"Where?" She asked. I could barely hear her. Her voice barely above a whisper.
"Where do I belong?" She asked again after I didn't answer. I drop my own eyes to the ground not wanting her to read my real feelings in my eyes. As she was always able to.
And again I felt myself struggling.
'I can't tell her, can I? It would destroy our friendship, a friendship we worked so hard to make it work.'
"I-I-"I felt a single tear running down my cheek. She reached for my face and covered the tear with her thumb to softly brush it away.
I closed my eyes at her touch and leaned in her soft hand. And with that I couldn't hold it any longer. She needed to know or she will leave me. I immediately knew: now or never.
I took a deep breath.
"You belong here. With me. This is your home. I would not know what to do without you. You mean everything to me. I could not live here without you. After everything… If you leave me it will break me… because… because…" I took another deep breath.
"Because I love you."
Finally I opened my eyes just to see her wide breathtaking smile. Suddenly her lips were on mine, soft and caring. I replied the kiss and smiled as wide as I could without breaking the kiss. I slowly and calmly brushed my lips against hers, but at the same time in desperate need for her reassurance. We broke apart when the need to breath became unbearable, still holding onto each other. She leaned her forehead against mine and our eyes locked. Chrystal blue meeting Sparkly green. Our eyes shining with love and devotion. In that moment I knew she would stay, her eyes telling me everything I needed to know.
"I love you too."
So I don't really know if I like it or not but I thought it might be a good start. You can also decide for yourself who of them you want to be Beca and who Aubrey, if you know what I mean. Again sorry for any mistakes I made. If you have any tips for me I'd love to hear them.
