Author's Note: So, I decided to finally post my story up. I've just started writing this fic a couple weeks ago, after watching ( again) the season finial. This is all made up in my little head, so no spoilers here! Please leave some reviews it would only make me want to write me ( which means more updates)
Note 2: Okay, I'm ready to post! -deep breath- . I hope you enjoy it! Read and please review!
Disclaimer: All South Of Nowhere character © of the N, and the odd original character I put in belong to me.
A mental image of Ashley and Aiden slow dancing together and how they gazed each other was engraved in her brain. It was the like a broke cassette tape. Repeating the image over and over again. She couldn't help it but laugh to herself. She fell for her game. Her stupid "this relationship is all about me" game. Every little thing she did was for Ashley. How she let every fight slid off the palm of her hand like it was no big deal, when in reality, it hurt her.
Before grabbing her cell she looked up at the girl sitting across from her, nodding her head. As Spencer nodded with agreement she grabbed her phone.
Ashley was worried. She hasn't heard from Spencer since prom night. She left voice mails, e-mails and even text messages...still no word from her. Ashley doesn't blame her for not answering back, she wasn't too thrill about herself either.
Ding
Ashley pulled out her cell phone from her back jean pocket. Her heart began to race with happiness and nerves. She flipped her phone opened and started reading the text.
' Meet me at the park near my house at noon sharp. We need to talk.' Ashley began shaking.She was scared, for the first time she scared. This was new to her.
On the way to her closet she dropped her phone onto her bed. She sat on carpet floor hiding in the closet, cracking open a can of beer in hopes that it'll help her calm her nerves down for the next longest hour she'll have to wait.
' Are you okay?'
Spencer looked up, her blue eyes showed nothing but pain and anger. ' I guess..' she gave Kyla a weak smile. ' How about you?'
Kyla shrugged her shoulder. 'Okay, I guess...' she lets out a soft laugh.' I feel pretty stupid honestly.'
Spencer looked at Kyla with such sympathy. ' Don't.'
' But I do, I mean... I knew this was going to happen. I just knew it. I saw it all happen right in front of me. How they looked and acted around each other. And I was stupid enough to push it all away, in hopes that it was all in my head... Stupid.'
Spencer exhaled loudly and leaned herself back to her bed's headboard.' That makes two of us'
'Yeah.'
There was a silences in the room that was filled with hurt and anger in the atmosphere. Kyla looked at Spencer who was staring at a picture of her and Ashley that was set across the room. She felt her pain.
Ashley stood by the park bench, watching the little blonde girl walk towards her. Spencer wore low rise destroyed jeans that were fitted very well and a pink tank top that fitted in the most of right places. Her hair seemed blonder then ever, straight with beautiful soft angelic curls at the end. Ashley couldn't help herself but lick her lips at the sight of this beautiful creature that was now standing in front of her. But her heart sunk when she saw those beautiful big blue eyes gazing at her with sadness.
She leaned in to give her a kiss, her heart stopped. For the first time she truly felt the pain of rejection when Spencer pulled away from her and stepped back a little further from her.
' Sorry, I'm late.'
' It's okay. I'm glad to see you.. I was getting worry. You didn't return any of my calls or texts...'
' Well, I had a lot of thinking to do.' she replied coldly.
A sharp pain struck Ashley's stomach at the coldness tone in Spencer's voice. Her eyes quickly gazed down to the grass and her tone became shaking. 'About?
' Us.'
' Spence, let me expl—'
' Ashley, just let me talk..'
Again, other sharp pain struck Ashley's stomach, she tried to speak but the words wouldn't come out. She nodded.
' Ashley - - - ' she paused and recollected herself. ' for the past two days I couldn't stop thinking about what happened at prom, it just keeps replaying over and over in my head. And Ash ..'
Ashley looked up and swallowed hard, she knew what was coming. She could feel the tears build up.
' I can't do this anymore. It's over, it's been over it was just that neither of us had the guts to break it off.'
' Spencer, please..' Ashley voice began to crack and tears ran down her cheeks. ' don't.. I'm sorry. I love yo–'
' Ashley don't... don't tell me you love me. If you really loved me you would have never gone to Aiden when you knew exactly how he felt about you.'
' Spencer, I can't just drop him like that, he means to much to me – '
Spencer laughed to herself ' then you made your choice.. Good bye Ashley.'
' Spencer, wait. Why are you doing this? '
' WHY? Ashley, please I basically watched you and Aiden flirt with each in front of me. You spent more time with him then you ever did with me.. And the way you guys would look at each other' Spencer let out a huff laugh'...Ashley come on it doesn't take a rocket science to see that you still love him. I, fell stupidity for your little game. '
' Game?'
' Yea, game. Everything I did Ashley, I did was for you. I let all of your bull crap slid like it was nothing when it was hurting me. I let all of our fights slid off easily because I knew if I didn't make up with you quickly you would have been running straight to Aiden. You would rather be with him then work out our problems. Honestly, I feel like I was nothing more then just toy to keep you distracted from your feelings for Aiden –'
' Spencer stop! That's not true, my feelings for you are real.. ' Ashley screamed back. Tears fell as if they were waterfalls. ' they are real..' she whispered.
Spencer wiped her tears from her eyes, letting out a laugh. ' Real. If they were real you wouldn't have stabbed me in back, not just me but Kyla too. You knew exactly how she felt for him and yet you still went after him, some kind of sister you are.'
Ashley was speechless. Her heart was breaking into pieces and tears kept falling harder. She has never seen Spencer this way before, it scared her. All she was able to do was lower her head in shame, knowing that Spencer was right.
Spencer inhaled deeply in efforts to calm and put herself together.' Before I go I do have one more thing to say..'
Ashley looks up, her eyes gazed directly into Spencer's watery blue eyes.
'Thank you. Thank you for helping me realize who I truly am and for helping me come out to my parents...helping me accept who I am.'
With that said Spencer turned around and began her walk back home. Ashley was left alone, she was confused, hurt, and lost. She wanted to go after her but couldn't, it was like her feet were glued down to the ground and as if she had forgotten how to walk. She felt hopeless. Ashley watched Spencer walk in a quick pace back to her place, which was only a block up, she could feel her heart shatter into pieces when she no longer Spencer, not even her shadow.
Tears covered Ashley's face. Her breathing became heavier, she tried to catch her breath as her heart beaten slower and her heart tighten. Ashley's mind filled with what was now useless things that she could have said to make Spencer stay.
But they weren't said.
that was end of the first chapter. remember the more reviews I get the more likely I will update.
