This is a short little drabble about Roxis's thoughts on Vayne. Im in the middle of working on two one shots for them but I was having a fight with my plot bunnies. (Little bunnies that give me ideas for stories XD)

Anyway I decided to write this to give the Rayne fans something to muse over while I'm working on the others.

**Dont forget to vote for my next Mana pairing to write about**


I hate him so much. I hate everything about him. I hate his guts more and more every time I think about it.

So why do I bother thinking about him. Do I love hating him so much that I give myself more reasons to do so?

My mana says that deep down I'm in love with him. I always get mad and he laughs.

Stupid mana.

He brings up an interesting point....Do I hate Vayne so much that I care about him?

No.

I hate him.

I hate everything about him.

...Right...?

No.

I don't hate him that much.

I don't think I want him to die...

At least not now.

If I want him to die my mana will leave me.

So its just acting....yea..That's it acting.

...

No.

Things change..People change.

I changed.

I don't hate Vayne that much.

Not enough to kill him.

Not enough to hurt him.

Not physically at least....

Mentally?

No.

I don't want to hurt him like that either...

Alright maybe I don't hate him.

Maybe I care about him so much that I hate him....

Yes.

I think I'm begining to understand myself.

Is this what my parents ment by self growth?

Yes...Maybe.

Maybe I don't hate Vayne.

Maybe that cute stupid silver head boy means something to me.

Maybe.

....................

I sure as hell would hate to admit that outloud.


Hmm

That was ok..

It was a little drabble after all. ^^

But comeone can't you all see Roxis thought process being like that?

-I hate him, I hate him.- -....- -Maybe he's ok-

Heehee ^-^ and it grows from there.

Anyway hope you like reading Roxis's thoughts.