(Part 1 & 2 is on my page) If you haven't read "Aspiration; The Beginning" or "Aspiration; The Truths" you should cause this Part 3.

Warning: It's AU so Characters have sort of been changed from their original personality to fit my story

A/N: Here we go again

(Thank you to my reviewers! Even those who don't like Aspiration, I still take your criticisms to better this story :D )

-Speech- People thinking or talking telepathically

-X X X- Means POV has changed or Some time has past (or both)

(Tell me of you see a mistake or typing error)


.:ASPIRATION:.

.:Chapter 21; Diaries:.

"Roxas! Roxas let's take a picture!" Sora yelled, Hayner, Pence and Olette were standing next to him

Roxas turned; "Yeah! One sec!" he said, he looked back at his Dad and Aunt; "I'll be back, okay?"

"Go ahead" His dad said

"Make sure to get lots of pictures!" Dannie said smiling; "You all look so nice in your graduation gowns"

Roxas grinned and ran to his friends;

"I think Roxas looks the best out of all of us" Olette said laughing

Hayner looked at her shock; "No way! I'm the only one here who actually could pass for a college student. You all still look like kids!"

Sora frowned; "Hey! It's not my fault I've always looked like this"

Olette hugged him; "And you look as cute then as you do now"

"This is almost unreal." Roxas said; "I can't believe we finished high school"

"Yeah. Diploma and everything" Pence said excitedly

Roxas smiled; "I'm so glad high school is over!"

Hayner turned to Roxas; "Speaking of over, did you ask your parents about-"

"I asked my dad, Aunt Dannie doesn't know yet" said Roxas

"Well what did he say!" Sora asked

"He said Yes! We all get to travel together this summer!" Roxas said, everyone cheered.

X X X

For a moment, everything seemed perfect.

Roxas taped up the last of his boxes, all of his things were put away now. He sat down on his matress and looked around his empty room and sighed; "I guess this is the first step to growing up..."

"Of course it is!" Dannie said, walking into his room with a suitcase; "Here. Put as much of your stuff you can" She put the suitcase down; "I think this is gonna be our best vacation yet"

Roxas looked around and called out; "Dad! I thought you said you told Aunt Dannie already"

"No, I haven't been able to yet" Roxas' dad said, also walking into the room

Dannie looked at both of them; "What do you mean? What haven't you told me?"

Roxas looked down, his father put an arm on his sister; "Dannie. Roxas is going on vacation with his friends this year"

"What? But we always go together. I know Cloud doesn't want to come this year and now you don't either Roxas" She asked, staring at Roxas

"I am getting older... It's not you Aunt Dannie, but this summer I really wanted to spend time with my friends

Dannie started fake crying; "I see! You're just so eager to grow up and leave me! Just like Cloud"

"Aunt Dannie..." sighed Roxas

"I mean! You two know how much I love you but that doesn't seem to stop you from leaving!" She said, almost really crying

"Danielle" Roxas's dad said

"No it's okay! I'm fine!" She yelled, running away

Roxas dad smiled; "She'll get over soon. Are you sure you want this?"

"It's like she said, I just wanna grow up and get out of Twilight Town as soon as possible" Roxas said smiling

X X X

Roxas spent most of the day packing, when he was done he decided to visit Sora's house. He walked around and realized that even though Twilight Town was his home, he couldn't wait to move away. It was his time to leave the nest and Roxas had full coinfedence in himself.

"Roxas" a voice said

Roxas stopped and looked to his side and saw his old friend Zexion standing there; "Zexion? Is that you?" he asked

Zexion walked up to Roxas; "Yes it's me! What kind of question is that?"

"I'm sorry it's just... Where have you been, man? It's like you disapeared right after you graduated last year"

Zexion looked around; "I left... to become stronger..."

"Stronger?" Roxas laughed a little; "What?"

"I did! I need to learn more about me, about my powers and about vampires" Zexion said seriously

Roxas raised his eyebrows; "Dude, are you drunk?"

"No! I'm being serious!" Zexion said grabbing Roxas' arm; "I need you to come with me, I'll explain everything!"

Roxas smiled nervously; "Zexion, I promised Sora to meet him at his house"

"Please, it'll only take a second" Zexion insisted

"No, I should go..." Roxas said, tugging his arm

"Roxas! As your friend, I'm begging you to give me ten minutes of your time..." He said, looking deeply at Roxas; "...Please"

Roxas looked down; "Fine... Ten minutes"

X X X

Zexion brought Roxas to his house and started going through his things; "You may not remember this but you were once involved with a vampire"

"What are you talking about?" Roxas asked; "The more you say Vampire the more I'm convinced you're going insane"

Zexion stood up; "Listen to me! Don't you ever think? Don't you think it's odd that your memory of Junior Year is blurry?"

Roxas scratched his head; "So I have remembering problems, probably from all the partying I did"

Zexion went back to digging through his things; "You have holes in your memory because Axel took away all your memories even slightly regarding him"

Axel. the word throbbed in Roxas' head; "Who is Axel?"

"The Vampire you... loved..." Zexion sounded sick while saying it

"Loved? Impossible! Why would I forget someone I loved?" asked Roxas

"Because..." Zexion replied, pulling out a small jar; "... Axel and I made sure you and no one around you remembered him or your relationship." He said revealing the jar; "But if you drink this, all of your memory will come back"

"How is this possible?" Roxas whispered

"Let's just say it's a witch's brew. A spell mixed with the blood of the vampire who compelled you, Axel gave it to me himself" Zexion said, holding it out

"No!" Roxas yelled; "I'm sorry Zexion but this is too much!" He said, trying to storm out

"Your memory wasn't the only thing we took!" Zexion said loudly

Roxas stopped; "What?"

Zexion stood there, looking a little nervous; "When I heard Axel took your memory. I was the one who took everyone else's memory of him, but I also took any phyiscal evidence" He said, revealing a notebook

Roxas stared at it and took it out of Zexion's hands; "Aunt Dannie bought this for me. I-I picked it out because... it's red... But I don't like the color red." Roxas turned to Zexion; "I thought I lost it and you stole it!"

"I stole it because you wrote things down about Axel!" Zexion yelled

Roxas shook his head and opened the journal to read the first page he saw;

Dear Journal,

My aunt Dannie bought you yesterday; she says I should start this school year off writing down all my thoughts and feelings…

I thought it was kinda weird, not the writing. But school started two weeks ago. She's kind of nuts.

Anyway, There has only been one thing on my mind these last two weeks; Axel. It's been two weeks since we've agreed to start dating, and we've barely seen each other. I mean, I'll see him in the hallway and whenever I walk toward him; my aunt calls me.

This upsets me, considering we're supposed to be dating, even though we live in the same building we don't see each other. I'm losing sleep over this!

So I've been reduced to writing him a letter, I can't even call him! It sucks! So I'm going to slip the letter under his apartment door this morning. The only good thing about today is the fact it's Friday.

-Roxas

Roxas realized it was his hand writing, he flipped the pages and stopped to read;

Dear Journal,

I know I haven't been writing in you lately.

Actually, I've been avoiding writing in this journal

It has to do with Axel. So much has happened with him that I don't think it's safe to write in here about it.

I guess all I have to say is that my relationship with Axel is good right now and I really hope it stays that way

-Roxas

Roxas took a deep breath; Who is this Axel!

Zexion stepped forward; "If you drink this... I promise everything will come back to you..."

Roxas looked up at it the jar, "I don't know... I'm not ready for this! Why did you have to come now!"

"I need your help Roxas! I didn't want this either, I wanted you to live happily as a normal human being... If giving back your memory is the only way, then so be it" Zexion said

Roxas took the jar; "A part of me really hopes you're either playing a prank or going crazy..." Roxas said, he looked at the red liquid and looked back Zexion. Zexion nodded and Roxas sipped the drink. It tasted bitter and nothing happened for a moment;

Then he gasped as his head started to sting horribly, his whole body was trembling and words started ringing through his head;

"I'm…Axel. I've lived here less than a year"
"Why don't we just date?"
"Roxas, Axel cares for you more than you think."
"I'm sorry Roxas... But we're Vampires..."
I should love Axel for being a vampire because he loves me for being a human...
"It took me awhile to win Axel, but I did and now we're in love"

Roxas yelled out from the pain in his head

"I love you too..."

"Axel?" Roxas whispered

"But there's no guarantee I'll even ever come back... You have to forget our love, all the memories of me."

"Axel, No!" Roxas yelled, reaching out for nothing and losing his balance

"Roxas!" Zexion said, catching Roxas when he fell. Zexion sat there, holding Roxas

The room was spinning while all the memories returned, like turning a light on in a dark room you haven't seen in a long time. Tears came to Roxas eyes when he realized everything he had lost; "I remember..." Roxas looked at Zexion; "Axel left me!" he cried

"It's gonna be okay Roxas, I'm right here..." Zexion said, holding Roxas' face

"I can't- I can't breath" Roxas hissed, the room was spinning and Roxas lost conciousness

X X X

Roxas opened his eyes; he noticed he was on a bed

"How do you feel?" Zexion asked, sitting at the end of the bed

"I- I feel like I have a hang over" Roxas said, not feeling like getting up

Zexion made a small smile; "Your head will stop hurting tomorrow... Getting your memories hurts in more way than one"

Roxas sat up; "It's like my world has been shaken, nothing makes sense anymore. It's almost like I was living a lie and didn't even know it. Even time is escaping me... How long has it been since Axel left?" he asked

"About a year and a half... He left pretty suddenly, I'm sorry I had to do this to you" Zexion said, very sincerely

Roxas shook his head; "No... I'm kinda glad that I know the truth now. But, why? Why did you have to give me back my memories?"

Zexion stood and walked to the window; "Ever since I was little, I had this dream... I wanted to live with my own kind but dhampirs aren't common and I can't even find one. But I still held on to my dream, to live, not humans or vampires. I wanted to be around other wizards and witches, I thought I would fit best with them. So that's what I did" Zexion said, looking back at Roxas with his small grin; "It was nice being with other magic users... But..."

Roxas stood up; "But?"

"There weren't as many as I thought there would be... And that's when I found out that certain vampire clans are still kidnapping witches in secret" Zexion said, getting angry; "I want to find them and rescue them! But I don't know anything about the Special Vampire Clans. Then I remembered Axel saying he was part of one the best clans in the world!"

"So why not look for Axel? Why do you need me?" Roxas asked

"I just said I don't anything about the special clans. If theres anyone that would help me, it would be Axel. But because I don't know where he is, my only option was to give you back your memory and have you tell me where he is" Zexion said

Roxas' eyes widened; "Zexion, Axel never told me where is clan was! Why would he?"

Zexion fell on the bed, rubbing his hands on his face; "So I gave you your memories for nothing..."

"No!" Roxas sat next to him; "I'm thankful you did... Listen, I promise I'll do whatever I can to help you... and find Axel" Roxas said

Zexion looked at Roxas; "Are you sure you don't know anything? He never told you anything?"

Roxas shook his head; "No, he wasn't comfortable talking about it... Unlike Riku who told Sora everything, I wish Axel was more like that"

Zexion starred at Roxas; "Sora knows?"

X X X

Sora opened his front door; "Roxas? You're an hour late" Sora said

"I-I know... I need you to do something" Roxas said, acting nervous

"What is it?" Sora asked

Roxas sighed; "Just say yes, okay?"

"Okay Roxas..." Sora said, opening his door all the way

"He said yes!" Roxas yelled

Zexion walked passed him into Sora's house; "Good!"

"Zexion? When did you get back?" Sora asked, surprised

"I don't know!" Zexion said, going through his suitcase

"Are you sure you have it?" Roxas asked

Zexion nodded; "Yes, luckily Axel gave a small amount of his and Riku's blood"

Sora looked back and fourth; "Roxas, what's going on?"

"Just-wait for it" Roxas said, with a hint a frustration

Zexion pulled another jar; "Okay, I wasn't prepared to make another potion for Sora but I was able to combine Riku's blood into the leftovers of the one gave to you Roxas" Zexion said, standing up; "Drink"

Sora stared at Zexion; "What the hell did you say"

"Just drink it Sora!" Roxas yelled

"No! It's disgusting looking!" Sora said

Roxas grabbed Sora; "You need to trust us, Drink it!"

Sora could see in Roxas' eyes that he was serious; "Fine..." he said picking up the cup; "It looks like blood"

"Because it is" Zexion said

Sora held his mouth; "Do I have to?"

"Yes" Zexion and Roxas said together

Sora poured the whole cup in his mouth, he spat a lot of it out; "It's horrible!" Sora realized his head was stinging; "What's happening!"

Roxas and Zexion said nothing

Sora held his head as everything poured back into his head, causing him to fall onto the ground and yell out too. Then he sat there for two minutes without making a noise;

"Sora?" Roxas asked, touching his shoulder

"Roxas? Was that suppose to happen?" Sora asked, holding his head still

"I'm affraid so... Do you know Riku?" Roxas asked

Sora started crying; "Yes..."

Roxas smiled for him and hugged him; "I know it hurts... But we have to be strong now... For Zexion"

"Why?" Sora asked

"I need your help..." Zexion said, preparing to repeat all he told Roxas

X X X

"Riku did mention the special clans and how the Xemnas Clan used to kidnap witches. But I heard Axel swear that their clan didn't do that anymore" Sora said

"So if it's not their clan... It must be one of the other big clans. Do you know where any of them are?" Zexion asked

"No, Riku didn't tell me where the location of their clan was... He said only members and friends know locations of other clans, so that means if you want to find them then you're gonna have to find Axel or Riku or someone else" Sora replied

Zexion walked around; "Damn it... I'm still stuck..."

Roxas ran a hand through his hair; "We're still no closer to finding Axel... or those witches..."

"You guys actually are gonna still try? Even though you have no experience or sources?" Sora asked

"What choice do we have..." answered Roxas; "I have to find Axel and if blindly looking for him is the only way... so be it"

Sora jumped; "You don't have to! Riku told me that there are these cities made up of only vampires! You can go there and see if any vampires from special clans are visiting like Riku did!"

"Great! Do you know where this city is?" Zexion asked

"No... He didn't tell me that either..." Sora said smiling, Roxas and Zexion groaned. "Wait, Riku did tell me where one of his rich vampire friends live! We can visit him and ask him where the vampire city is!"

"How would that work?" Roxas asked; "You said he was Riku's friend. Not ours, he wouldn't tell two humans and a dhampir anything"

Zexion walked up to them "actually he'll tell me, a vampire"

Roxas looked at him"But you're not-"

"He doesn't have to know that" Zexion said smiling; "Don't worry boys, I'll be fine. Now, if you want I can take your memories back with-"

"No! I told you I want to find Axel!" Roxas yelled

"Well if you're going, then I'm in! I'll just my parents I'm traveling friends, but in a different way now!" Sora said smiling

Roxas smiled; "Good idea! I'll do that too!"

"Are you sure? You might die" Zexion said

"You won't let that happen" Roxas said

Zexion rubbed his head; "Okay, but I want to leave as soon as possile. Like tomorrow"

Roxas nodded; "I guess I'll see you two tomorrow"

"Wait! There's one thing I wanted to do before leaving Twilight Town! And you two should go with me! I mean to make up for forcing blood on me and for my help!" Sora said cheerfully

Roxas and Zexion looked at each other; "What is it?"

X X X

"I haven't been up here since I was a kid" Roxas said, sitting between Sora and Zexion on the Twilight Town Clock Tower

"Zexion, are you okay?" Sora asked

"I'm fine! I just don't like heights that much" he said, sitting away from the edge as much as possible; "Tomorrow we should leave!"

"Yeah... The sooner we leave the better" Roxas said

Zexion nodded; "We have a lot of things to do and we don't have a lot of time!"

"Three months..." Roxas said, a little sad; "Three months to find the witches, wizards, Riku and Axel..."

Zexion and Roxas just sat there frowning

Sora smiled; "You guys think about things too much!" He said, staring at the sunset; "You guys don't seem to realize we're about to embark on a life changing journey! Searching for our lost loves and missing magical people!"

"Only Sora would look at this mission so postively" Zexion said, rolling his eyes

"Well someone has to!" Sora said, standing up

Roxas looked up; "I hope it's as nice as your making it sound..."

Sora reached for Roxas' head; "Don't worry! Everything will be-" He lost his balance; "Aa-"

Roxas turned; "Sora!" he screamed

Sora looked at him straight in the eye while falling down

"Oh god" Zexion said, looking away

"Zexion! Do something!" Roxas screamed

"I-I!" He couldn't do anything, not being able to focus

"Sora No!" Roxas yelled, standing up and looking down

In a flash Sora fell to the bottom of the clock tower and hit the floor. From where Roxas was, he could see blood surrounding Sora's body. Roxas felt tears appear in his eyes; "No..."

They both knew Sora was dead


A/N: I'm not gonna update unless I get reviews

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