(I really thought this song reflected on how Tifa felt about everything going on in her life, how lonely she was and couldn't help, but to add it in this fic)
Disclaimer: I don't own final fantasy or the character!
Those three words I long for.
Tifa was doing her usual late night wipe down. Once again she was listening to her usual depressing song that she always listens to even after the second defeat of Sephiroth
'Now I will tell
you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
and you still
won't hear me'
Tifa then stopped and looked out the window as the song continued she let out a sigh.
'Don't want your
hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not
tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached
the bottom
I'm dying again...'
After wiping down the tables she began to sweep feeling as if she was being watched, completely ignoring it she continued and turned to the radio and put the music up a bit louder so it could drown her thoughts.
'I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break
through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and
the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always
confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself
anymore'
Tifa then stopped and looked outside she saw the bushes rustling and immediately reached for her gloves. As the door opened the song was carried into the streets no one seemed to notice except for ho ever was hiding she raised her leg and kicked as hard as she could her eyes widened when she heard a yelp and a blond man jumped out clutching his side. "Cid you jerk were you spying on me?" she asked clutching her fists and fighting the urge to hit him again.
"Yes… no… uh…" he trailed off and lit his cigarette taking long drags which confirmed her suspicions. "Fin Cid one free drink and that's it, leaving a pregnant Shera home alone isn't wise." she said letting him in and shutting the door after he entered. "Thanks Tif, always nice." he took another drag of his cigarette which Tifa pulled out of his mouth and put it out. "Sorry." he muttered. "So how's spiky?" he asked curiously. "Still looking for her?" he asked eyes falling at the thought of their deceased friend. He turned off the radio as the song ended and sighed. "You always listen to that song when he's gone." He added thoughtfully but regretted all his words when the mg Tifa was carrying hit the floor and broke. "I'm sorry." she muttered picking it up and getting him another drink.
"I'm just so depressed Cid, why the hell doesn't he realize that I…" she trailed off and looked at him. "That I love him." She finished, little did she know someone who snuck into his room was listening from his door.
Cloud had just gotten back from a few deliveries when he realized how late it was he snuck in his room and the sound of two voices was heard, both he could recognize. "Cid." he whispered to himself and went to the bottom of the stairs where he could listen to the two. After hearing what Tifa said his eyes widened. "She really feels that way?" he thought to himself and was brought back by the sound of Cid's voice. "Tell him Tif, it can't go bad, he will either accept it or comfort you some other way." He said
"But that's it Cid, I'm afraid he'll reject me, after all he's in love with Aerith, and I don't blame it, who wouldn't love her, she's so perfect." She said shaking her head. "No I won't do it, it will ruin everything for him." She said in a voice that meant don't push the matter. "Fine, well I have to go, Shera is going to kill me." and with that he left and shut the door behind him.
Tifa watched him leave and locked the door and looked up to the heavens. "What is it that you have I don't?" she asked. "Please Aerith, please help me, the way you always did like a big sister." she said. Tifa looked around the bar and walked towords her stairs and her eyes widened. "C… Cloud how long have you been their?" she asked watching the mans expression go from concerned to shocked.
Cloud's feet were glued to the spot, had she really felt that way, even after believing that he loved Aerith, she would still ask her for help. He heard a voice in the back at his head say. 'You really love Tifa; just tell her everything is going to be ok' that voice it was Aerith, yes he did love Aerith, but as a sister, not the way he loved Tifa. "Tifa… I…" he was lost for words. "I just came and heard the door shut, I thought you left and came downstairs." he said acting as if he heard nothing.
Tifa was relieved and upset that he didn't hear what she said. "Denzel and Marlene are sleeping so I guess I could make you something to eat." she said smiling and walking back to the bar to prepare food for him. "So what took you so long?" she asked him giving him his dinner before sitting across from him. Cloud didn't look up until she sat opposite him. "I had to deliver something to Wutai, and as usual Yuffie insisted I stayed longer." He said rolling his eyes at the thought. "I'm sorry if you got worried." He added giving her a small smile. "You did it." She whispered smiling herself. When she watched his confused expression she giggled. "You smiled." She added smiling brightly.
"Tifa I have something to tell you." he said after his food was finished.
"I…"
(I'm so mean a cliffy, ah well get used to it cause there will be a lot of them, I hope you enjoyed this so far))
