February 12th2005

It hurts, knowing that what happen with April could happen with Mimi. But I can't let that stop me from loving her. She's amazing, I haven't felt this happy in a long time, hell, I haven't felt this way ever, not even with April. Even with all the problems we deal with I still feel like she's the only one I want. I guess it's the fear from losing April to it; this disease could kill both of us. Mimi is the one person I feel most connected to, even more then Collins and mark. Ever since she came into my life with her candle, I've loved her. She must feel safe around me, to let me help her get over this addiction, she never even let Benny help with that. I love Mimi martez with all my heart, and I never want to lose her, I just hope we can fight this disease and stay together. - Roger