A/N: I know that all of those that are waiting for me to update CourtCrossed are probably going to be mad at me for writing this, but please don't kill me, because I'm hoping to update on that tomorrow!
Okay, this is an INCREDIBLY short (like only 400 or so words short) songfic. It's the first songfic I've written, so I hope I'm doing it all right. The song excerpts I've used are from My Immortal by Evanescence. These thoughts take place in Iron Queen, while Puck, Meghan, and Ash are at Leanansidhe's cabin. I hope you like it!
Disclaimer: If I were Julie Kagawa, I would be working on writing novels right now. Not Fanfiction.
Puck's POV
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears/When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears/And I held your hand through all of these years
I'd been there for her. Since she was born, as she grew and matured, I had been there for her. I had been the other to cheer her up after another ruthless teasing, wiping away her tears with a joke and a laugh. I had been the one to take her into the Nevernever after her brother. I'd taken a bullet for her. I'd disobeyed my king for her. He hadn't. He hadn't.
You used to captivate me with your resonating light. Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
She was always so bright, so beautiful. She would glow with that happiness and braver and determination and stubbornness that I had fallen in love with.
But he took her. He took her and left me brokenhearted. And I had to follow them - had to follow her. That light of hers might have as well made me a moth, the way it drew me in. But she chose him and now I'm exiled. I'm stuck out in the human world with no way back home.
I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone/But though you're still with me/ I've been alone, I'm alone!
I've tried. Believe me, I've tried. When they kiss, when they touch, I force myself to look, in an attempt to cure myself of this love for her. She's not mine. I missed my chance, and now she never will be. I'll never get to touch her like he does, never get to hold her for no other reason than it makes both of us happy.
And though I see her everyday, even though she is with me… she is ever truly mine. And now I have no one. No one to trust, no one to love, no one to depend on. I'm alone.
But you still haunt me
I know I'll always love her. No matter how much time passes, no matter how close they become, no matter what she gives him - her virginity, a child, a wife - I will always love her. It will be her name on my lips as I fall asleep each night, her face that I see in the moments before I die. No matter what happens, she will always be with me, but never truly mine.
