Hey This is Idorent and I'm hear with a story + update.
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And thank you sooo much for your honest reviews.
Here's a story I created a while back and I'm still editing but her it goes.
Also I wrote this story in inspiration of fan fiction user: OllieBella. Thanks!
Well Sorry for long update. Here's the story.
'I have to do it. (preview)'
I wanted Spencer's life. Her body, smarts, and opportunities in life . It wasn't fair she'd go to Rosewood University on Scholarship and all I had was a broken heart. One from Maya then from Bethany, a bright eyed dainty beauty from the south whom I barely knew. The only thing that Bethany and Maya had in common was that I was being to clingy. And honestly I was just trying not to use them, but I guess I drove them out of my life just like everybody else.
Aria hating me for ratting her out about her cheating. Me telling Hanna to feel better about herself and that I wasn't her fault that her mom had a serious car accident, only making her have toe worst attitude EVER towards me. I was commonly rejected to all types of people. I was socially deprived from society. The world hated me. But for what? Turning against my family's beliefs and future plans for me? Or me basically telling my aunt to stay out of my life? I had no 'good' way of telling bad news. I just blurted it out. I was depressed before dating Bethany because of my break-up with Maya. But Maya made me feel clean and pure. Like it was meant for me to be gay. But then Bethany made me feel the exact same way.
Is the next girlfriend I have be this supporting and loving and I become clingy and need? Was the world saying it wasn't meant for me to be gay? Was I made to be Straight? I known cute boys my whole life but I only paid attention to the hot girl in short shorts that would catch my eye. My parents didn't take it well they argued that I needed to be more like Spencer- Smart, nice and STRAIGHT. But as I asked why Spencer and not any of the other girls. Their reply? Aria was the cheating slut. Hanna was the insecure suicidal teen. They were right though because Hanna had talked about killing herself but I thought she was being dramatic until she actually tried overdosing. Then days later her mom had the serious car accident. She was blaming herself for that. That for trying to take her own life mother nature would take her mom's.
But instead of being the guidance counselor. I was lost myself. Confused at what the problem was… my sexuality or the fact that I push everyone away because of my clinginess. I knew that whatever the problem was, was eating at me. Causing pure Paranoia. Constantly when I'm around people I feel they can see through me and become open to judge me. I can't live like this. Being constantly paranoid, Socially deprived, and never accepted by the ones who once cherished everything I hate about myself the most.
I have to do it. It's the only way I can be happy…I have to kill myself.
Emily had thought that she had found the solution to her problem…
*Author's note: Dang! I didn't know it would be this long. 45 Pages on the dsi (flip note) is sure a lot.
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-Alex
