My first Glee-fanfic so be nice ;) Wrote this when I was a bit depressed and I think that might show. I don't own any songs or characters that will appear in this story. It might be considered and AU since I don't know what grades the Warblers are in and only know that Wes isn't in season 3... which I haven't seen yet... it hasn't come to my country yet... Happy reading!


Part 1

He stood in the room that was the Warblers practice hall and sighed heavily. He was the only one there, everyone else was downstairs celebrating. Wes walked around the room letting his hand run over the familiar furniture as he passed the different items. He would miss this… a lot. As the only senior on the Warblers that year he would be the only one leaving… and it broke his heart. He didn't want to leave just yet. He wanted to spend another year with his brothers in the Warblers.

He sighed and walked up to one of the windows and looked outside. The sky was grey, just his luck he mused, but the sun still found its way through the grey clouds at places. Below him he could see happy parents hug even happier graduates and Wes felt sad… again. His parents weren't there… they had refused to come. Had refused him. It had happened many years ago and Wes knew why it happened. It happened because of him being the bastard son of his father. How did he know he was a bastard? Well he'd been told so and Wes' dad was Asian but his 'mother' was African-American… Yeah you understand right? Wes' dad had met an Asian woman at a party and they ended up having sex... resulting in Wes being born. The woman left Wes with his father as soon as he was born. At first Wes was staying with his grandparents, passed off as a orphan cousin or something... but when he got older he looked more and more like his father. So to avoid a scandal, his family was wealthy and important after all, they sent him across the nation to different private schools. He was never allowed home, not even during summer vacation. He was stuck at Dalton during Christmas, his entire Dalton-time.

No one, not even his best friends David, Thad and Blaine knew that. Wes had always come up with excuses like his parents being late and when he became "leader of the pack" in sophomore year he claimed he stayed behind to make sure all his Warblers got home alright before going home himself… thus was one of the reason he was given the title Big Brother Wes and Mother Hen of the Warblers. He saw a family hug and sighed sadly. His parents hadn't come and now he would have to leave the only family he'd ever had and that pained him something horrible.


The Warblers and Kurt were all hanging out in the dining room talking and laughing. Blaine had called Kurt to tell him that Wes was graduating and invited him to the celebration. They were all having a good time and had cheered louder than anyone when Wes got his diploma. But none of them had noticed the guest of honor disappear. Not until a small food fight started… courtesy of Nick and Jeff.

"Hey cut that out!" Thad yelled but was ignored. Even though he was on the Warbler-council he was ignored. David had no better luck. David sighed.

"Wes", he begged their leader. "Could you-" He stopped as he turned to where Wes had been sitting and found his seat empty.

"Wes?" He asked and got up from his seat and looked around. "Wes?" He called and everyone turned to him.

"What is it", Blaine asked and looked at David. The taller and older teen looked at him.

"Where's Wes", he asked and everyone looked around. The Asian was nowhere to be seen.

"Maybe he's in the bathroom", Trent supplied.

Everyone agreed to that and sat down again waiting for their friend to come back… but after twenty minutes they started to get worried.

"Where the hell is he", Thad asked and got up. Suddenly the janitor and one of the cooks came out from the kitchen talking, not noticing the kids.

"I'm gonna miss that Warbler most of all 'em graduates", the janitor said. "Especially celebrating Christmas with him and those other two students that never go home."

"Me too", the cook, a short plumb woman with a friendly face said. "How someone can hate that sweet boy so much is beyond me. If he was my son I would be the proudest mother in the world."

"I would-" the janitor began but his voiced was blocked from the Warblers and Kurt when the door closed. For a moment the room was completely quiet then David broke the silence with a:

"WHAT?"

Everyone turned to him and saw that he was angry. He looked like an angry bull ready to charge. Thad and Blaine hurriedly grabbed him by the arms and pushed him down in his seat again. Kurt looked as the Warblers started to talk amongst themselves and sighed. He got up and slipped out without anyone noticing. He had a pretty good idea as of where Wes would be.


Kurt found Wes exactly where he guessed… in the choir room. Wes was still at the window watching the families leave cheerfully below him. Kurt was about to knock the door when he became pray to an uncanny ability of Wes'.

"What is it Kurt", Wes asked without looking away from the grass below him. Kurt knew there was no way Wes could've seen him but he still knew exactly who was behind him. Wes always knew who entered a room or left… or was about to leave. Kurt came to think of all the humorous times a Warbler had tried to sneak out of practice for one reason or another while Wes was busy reading something over or look another way. They all had been frozen to their spots when Wes said things like "where do you think you're going", "going somewhere" or "don't think that I can't see you leave Warbler(name of student trying to skip) only because I'm not looking at the door". Kurt sighed and walked inside.

"I'm not here to say I know the feeling", he said calmly as he approached Wes. "Not fully… but being let down is a feeling I do know… it's happened to me a lot."

"Why are you telling me this" the lack of emotion in Wes voice worried Kurt to no end. The older boy was the most dangerous then because you would never know when you angered him. Kurt sat down on a chair close to Wes.

"We know", he said.

"Know what", Wes asked calmly.

"That you've spent Christmas at Dalton alone… David is livid."

"That almost rimed…"

"Wes."

"Kurt."

The older teen didn't look at him and Kurt sighed.

"Why didn't you say anything", he asked. "Spending Christmas here all alone for so long… didn't it upset you?"

"It's my troubles to carry Kurt, my worries", Wes said and looked at Kurt with eyes that were glassy with unshed tears. "No one should have to worry about me Kurt, don't start now. I'm fine."

"Fine my ass", Kurt said startling the older teen slightly. "Oh don't look so surprised Wes. I live with a football player and hang out with a juvenile delinquent."

"Right", Wes said and chuckled mirthlessly and turned to the window again. Kurt got up and stood beside him and saw the families. They stood in silence for a bit and then Kurt looked around the room.

"It's so spooky in here when no one is here", he said. "Like the room is grieving or something."

"You're just used to all the craziness that is the Warblers", Wes said calmly. "So peace and quiet seems… odd."

"Will you miss it", Kurt asked and Wes sighed and finally, finally left the window. He sat down on a couch and buried his face in his hands.

"Yeah", he said.

"I can understand it… I miss all of you but I am happy in New Directions… I think I understand how you're feeling because it's how I felt when I had to leave them."

Wes groaned into his hands.

"I'm losing it Kurt", he said.

"Losing what", Kurt said and sat down beside him.

"Everything… I'm losing my friends… no I'm losing my family. My real family… I'm the only one leaving and it breaks my heart to leave. I don't want to leave and now I have to. Just like the first time I got shipped off to a private school. I didn't want to leave my 'family' then and was still flown across the nation. The further away from them the better they said."

"How old were you?"

"8…"

Kurt stared at him mortified and covered his mouth with one hand.

"Why", he asked.

"Because I'm a bastard", was the dull reply as he finally looked up at Kurt again.

"You are no such thing", Kurt said outraged. "You are sweet and kind, strict yes but fair… a big brother to us all! Someone we can always count on! A good guy! A reliable rock in the stormy weathers! The one we can always turn to if we have problems! Wesley-whatever-your-last-name-is-because-I-have-forgotten-though-I-know-it-starts-with-an-M you are the Warblers. Without you they, we, wouldn't be anything!"

"Kurt I'm happy you think so but I am a bastard." Wes said and smiled slightly.

"Absolutely not!" Kurt was furious that his friend, big brother, could think like that about himself.

"Kurt you misunderstood me", Wes couldn't help the small chuckle and looked at Kurt. "I am a bastard… But not like that."

"What do you mean", Kurt asked.

"I'm a bastard", he covered Kurt's mouth with his hand to be able to continue. "An adulterine… illegitimate… a mistake… proof of cheating if you like."

Kurt stared at him in shock and Wes let his hand drop.

"Dad had someone on the side and the result me", Wes said with a shrug and getting up from the couch and started to pace. "Of course everyone could figure it out so we have to get rid of the proof. My dad comes from an important family and I was dumped with them for the first eight years of my life… no problem everyone thought… until I started to look so much like him. I had been passed for a cousin whenever I met my half-siblings and 'mother'. Dad always knew of course and pretended… no he acted as if I was less than nothing to him. Which I'm obviously am. But when I was eight my 'mother' realized I looked more like her husband than her own children did and questioned him about it. My dad denied that and assured her I was not his… but to avoid further problems… they sent me away. No contact. I still don't know if my half-siblings remember me or if they even know I exist at all."

Kurt was yet again mortified and Wes stopped pacing.

"My life wasn't the best", he said walking up to the table where he'd been sitting as head of the council and ran his hand over it. "Until I got here and got into the Warblers. I finally got a place where I fit right in and… where I was accepted for just being me… I also got someone to take care of like older brothers should. But now I'm losing all that…" The last was choked out and Kurt saw that Wes that Big Brother Wes was crying! He'd never seen the older boy cry or being sad! Kurt got up, walked over to him and reached out a hand towards him.

"Don't."

Kurt froze at the word coming from Wes.

"Kurt just… just leave me alone for a bit", Wes walked across the room and lied down on the sofa. "I want to be alone for a bit more before leaving everything tomorrow… I'll come back to the celebration later…"

Kurt nodded and left the room… but had no intention of letting this go. He had to find the other Warblers.


He ran all the way back to the dining hall where the Warblers were panicking over both him and Wes missing. When Kurt got there Blaine pulled him into a big hug. Kurt waved him off.

"Don't worry about me I'm fine Blaine", he said and looked at the worried Warblers. "But we have a problem."

They all looked at him worriedly.

"Wes is crying", he said and they all stared at him.

"You got to be kidding me", Jeff said. "It's a joke right? Wes never cries!"

"He does now", Kurt said and told them everything. When he was done the room was completely quiet… something only Wes and his gavel could manage otherwise. The Warblers sat in silence and then David said:

"We have to do something."

"Do what", Nick asked.

"Show Wes that we care", David said and rose. "Wes has always been there for us! He's the one who've spent hours to teach us to harmonize and sing together… to be a family! Wes cares more about us than himself and it's time we show him we care about him too! We'll have to show him how much he means to us and how much we will miss him."

"How", Blaine asked.

"Easy", David said. "We sing it to him… sing for the best big brother either of us could ever have… for our Warbler graduate!" He looked at Kurt. "But we will need some help."

"On it", Kurt said pulling out his phone to call New Directions. David turned to the Warblers.

"Now here's what we'll do", David said. "Tomorrow when Wes is about to leave…" He told them his plan and everyone smiled.

A few hours later Wes rejoined them and hadn't Kurt told on him none of them would've been able to see through the fake happiness of his.


TBC