~Quick AN!~

Hey guys, be gentle with me please (T~T)! This is the first fanfic I have ever written, and it was about time too! I've been pondering the story for about a month now, cause I wasn't really sure what I wanted for the characters. I've got it all figured out now though...so no worries! I'm planning to write MUCHOS chapters, so no worries about that either, stuff WILL happen. They're just in their pre-realization stage right now... next chapter I promise a bunch of fluff (so bear with me!)! I apologize for any OOC during the story, but lets face it, if they're not a little bit out of character, nothing will EVER happen. Oh, I will also be adding a little adventure later on in the story to strengthen their bond or whatever...:P

See ya at the bottom of the page! ^_^

Title: I Love You, is that so wrong? (you will get the title later, as I progress further on in the story...)

Rating: T for future scandalous acts :)

Paring: Kou x Haruka (Shota~ don't like, don't read! Well, it's lightly hinted anyway...for now :)_)

Warnings: none really any...not yet at least :) {hinted boy's love, perhaps...again, for now :) MWHAHAHAHAHA}


{PROLOGUE}

His knees were shaking uncontrollably and his stomach was sick with butterflies, but eventhough he was nervous to the point he could pass out, he remained composed. You would expect nothing less from a boy with a highclass and sophisticated upbringing. The 11 year old boy had already graduated from an American university and had recently gone to study in England, but that was after it had happened.

That was now behind him. The airport was crowded, and so was the small row of seats on the side, the ones he was sitting in. He had temporarily returned to Japan after close to a year of studying in a refined English university, and was anxious to see the friends he had left behind. Even if he wasn't sure they still considered him a friend, he missed them, and wanted to see them more than anything. All the more important, he wanted to apologize. He had betrayed their trust, and the guilt was eating at him like a hungry rat.

After what I've done how can they possibly even consider forgiving me?, he thought, but I have to apologize, I owe them that much.

Lost in his deep train of thoughts he didn't notice his butler returning with the luggage. He layed one of his hands genlty on Haruka's shoulder, Haruka flinched.

"Are you alright Haruka-sama?" he asked carefully.

"Yes", Haruka replied, snapping out of his daydream, " Yes, I'm fine, thank you." He recomposed himself, and faked an uncertain smile, which has been showing up an awful lot lately.

"Shall we go then Haruka-sama?", the butler requested. Haruka nodded. He got up and they left the airport, descending on to the hotel.

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Haruka was all alone in the hotel room. His butler had gone out to run some errands and get the paperwork in order,but that was around an hour ago.

He pranced around the room impatiently. He was used to being alone, but this felt different somehow. Not knowing what to do with himself, he decided to sit down on the bed as he felt his uneasyness subside a bit. At least he had stopped his useless roaming-around-the-room habit, that was one accomplishment.

His abstinance of nervous habits didn't last for very long though, considering he had started to fiddle with the small golden earring that hung in his right ear.

There is not much left of it though, he thought.

He was right. The charm that used to dangle in the now empty ring was destroyed in the final battle, the ring was all that was left of it.

Toying with the lonely accesory felt strangely unsatisfying, and he let himself fall backwards onto the soft, freshly made up bed. He curled up partially, like a cat, and enveloped in his thoughts closed his eyes. There was a lot on his mind and he needed to concentrate to sort them out. He wished he was able to see his friends again, maybe he could talk to one of them about it. He could talk to Akira, Shirogane, Master, Kengo, Aya...well maybe not Kengo, he would never be able to concentrate long enough to actually listen, but he was sure Akira would be able to hear him out. And Kou... He opened his eyes at the thought of him.

"Onii-chan", he whispered. His heart skipped a beat, and he clutched the soft material of the bed, squizing it in his small hands.

I wonder if he will ever be able to forgive me.

His eyes closed once again, and suddenly he realized how tired he was.

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KNOCK, KNOCK.

Harukas eyes snapped open.

How long have I slept?

KNOCK, KNOCK, the door rasped as it grew more impatient.

"Coming", replied a groggy looking Haruka, as he scurried over to the door, barely able to keep his eyes open and rubbing them unconciously trying to wake himself up.

The butler must have returned, Haruka thought, as he grabbed the doorknob he turned it slowly. And as the door opened Harukas eyes widened, and a mix of many different emotions washed over him. It was as if someone had just made a cocktail out of his stray feelings and dumped it over his head, because in the doorframe stood very last people he expected to see. Akiras face displayed a warm smile, a gloved hand gently resting on his shoulder, and behind him, attached to the hand, was Shirogane, displaying a very nervous expression. But before any of them could utter a single word of greeting, Kengo jumped out from behind them and pounced Haruka, as if he was a Jaguar pouncing a prey.

"Haruka~", he purred.

"K-Kengo", his voice revealed both excitement and horror, for these people were the ones he wanted to see most and least of all, "W-what are you doing here?"

"Eh?", he replied, confused, " didn't you invite us here?"

"We came to see you", Akira explained, "Your butler visited our houses and invited us. He said you seemed lonely, and was hoping we might cheer you up."

Haruka was speechless, what was there to say? Yes, he had been acting strange lately, and yes, he was lonely, but having them here...he just didn't know what to do. For some reason though, he started crying.

"Ha-Haruka?", Kengo stuttered, "D-Did I hurt you? I'm sorry!"

Aya, who had remained hidden from behind the guys' backs, jumped out, her wooden sword in her hand, ready to punish Kengo.

"BAKA!", she yelled, "Why aren't you more careful!"

"I-it's alright. I-I'm just so happy", Haruka managed to blurt out between sobs.

Aya and Kengo alike, were dumbfounded.

"Ok guys, everyone out", Akira ordered, "We need some space here."

"But Akira!", Shirogane and Kengo protested.

"Akira's right, all of you, OUT!", Aya commanded, also recognizing the guys' need to be alone.

The boys slumped off, and Aya followed. Slowly closing the door and peaking her last glances at the guys left behind.

Oh Haruka, she signed, feeling sympathetic for the weeping boy, please be alright.

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"Ok", Akira said, "spill it. What's going on? I've never seen you cry before."

"It's just...", Haruka started, "I'm just so happy to see you. I thought...I thought you might never want to see me again", he sobbed, "for what I did to you..."

Before Haruka could continue Akira had kneeled down and wrapped his arms around the boy and was hugging him tightly.

"Shut up already, nobody's going to think like that. We understand why you did what you did. So stop crying, you baka."

Haruka nestled his head in the others shoulders, and hugged him back. He found Akira's harsh words strangely comforting. Maybe it was the air of maturity that seemed to follow the boy, he didn't know and didn't care, he just let the warmth spread through his body and replace the cold loneliness that had swept over him just moments ago. He pulled away and wiped off his tears on the sleeve of his suede jacket.

"Thank you, Akira. I feel better now.", and he smiled, a REAL smile, the first one in years.

"No problem.", he grunted, slightly embarassed, "Let's go, there are people waiting."

"Yes, I think so too.", he said as he reached for Akira's arm.

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Kou was nervous. He had missed Haruka a LOT while he was gone, he missed caring for the boy. They had been almost inseperable before the battle, and afterwards neither of them had spoken to the other. He had wanted to, but Haruka avoided him, and hadn't even looked him in the eye once. How he wished they could go back to the time that Haruka was cheerful, even if he had faked it. Oh, Kou had known alright. He knew what Haruka had planned even before they were close, he just didn't know why. In the final showdown, it was Kou who had tried to talk Haruka out of it, unsuccesfully, but he had always known that Haruka would make the right decision in the end. Even if his happiness was a lie, the friendship between them had always felt real, and he hoped that that was not just a delusion made up by his hopeful mind. Their close friendship was one of the many reasons that the past months had been a living hell for him. While Haruka was off in England doing God-knows-what Kou was still sulking that he had not been able to make Haruka stay. After all, he was really attached to that kid, and that he knew as well. Constantly wondering how the boy was doing, fighting the urge to call him from the other side of the world, despite the time difference, just to make sure he was ok, there was really something wrong with him. He had never cared so much about anyone before, and that bothered him most of all.

Turning back to reality he saw his friends up ahead. He gave them a quick wave.

"Hey Ken, Aya, Shirogane. What's up? Why are you guys out in the hallway? Did Haruka finally get enough of you and scold you?", he joked. A normal, but important part of his life.

"Kou-nii!", Kengo cried, not yet over the shock of Haruka practically bursting into tears.

"What is it Ken?", Kou inquired as Kengo was annoyingly hanging on his sleeve.

"I-I think I broke Haruka~!", he bawled.

(AN: yes, looks like Haruka has now been demoted to the rank of toy...-_-" sorry guys...)

Kou's stomach dropped, and all common sense was cast aside.

"You did what?", he demanded trying to sound as calm as possible, what was he getting so worked up over?

"Calm down Kou-san", Aya tried in vain, "Don't take to heart what Kengo said, Haruka is alri...", but that was as far as she went before she realized it was useless, and instead just stood there, frozen in place, gaping at Kou. He was striding towards the hotelroom in big steps, furious.

"Uhm, Kou?", Shirogane let out, baffled by his behaviour.

The words just seemed to fly past him, totally oblivious of their target, it was like talking to air. He didn't take long to reach the door and forced it open with a big swing.

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Haruka looked up at the doorway and saw Kou standing there, he almost didn't recognize him, he had never seen such a pained expression on his face. What at first looked like fury, was with closer observation more like concern than anger.

For Kou it felt like his heart was on fire, as if an internal battle was being fought between concern for the boy and anger for the one who misdid him, it felt like hell.

Akira just stood there, Harukas hand still in his. He snickered. I never thought I'd see that kind of look on his face, not even when concerning me or Kengo.

"Onii-chan.", Haruka gasped (Kou was still being scary as hell).

"We were just about join you guys.", Akira explained, "you are just in time."

Kou fixated his piercing blue eyes questionably on Haruka, he looked a little shaken by Kou's violent appearance, but beside that seemed just fine. His heart relaxed, and he suddenly felt stupid for overreacting like that. Was that really necessary? he scolded himself. His mout turned into a mischievous grin as he collectively strolled over to the place where Haruka and Akira were standing.

"Sorry for bursting in like that Aki", he started, " I had heard you had stolen Haruka from me, and I just had to come and get him back.", Kou teased while he casually put his arm around Haruka.

"You know your mine right?", he whispered, hot breath tickeling Harukas ear seductively, "Don't think I'll let you get away that easily." he finished with a playful grin and a wink.

Haruka could feel his cheeks burning, and he desperately tried to avoid the mans icy, blue eyes, that somehow showed more warmth than any others he had gazed in.

Kou placed a hand on Haruka's forehead.

"Are you alright? Your burning up.", he said.

Haruka nodded, for some reason he was unable to speak.

"Aki, go fetch him a glass of water", he ordered, shaking his head in disbelief.

"Will do.", Akira said as he took off towards the fridge in the corner.

"Now to take care of you...". He turned his gaze back to the boy. Well, it's not like his eyes ever really left.

"I-I'm fine, don't worry about me!", he hurriedly stuttered, frantically motioning his hand from left to right and shaking his head.

"Bullshit!", he exclaimed, "I'm not going to listen to a sick kid talk nonsense."

Then he grabbed Haruka by the waist and hoisted him up into his arms in rescued-princess position. He carried Haruka all the way to the bed and plopped him down on the soft matress.

"Stay there until you feel better.", he ordered, as he walked off.

Haruka was in shock for a moment, not able to think about anything, but he quickly recalled the way he was brought to the bed and started blushing like crazy, his cheeks turning a crimson color. He buried his head in the pillow he was laying on to hide his embarrassment. His heart skipping beats left and right. Why did he have to do that? He wanted to squeal in happiness, but wasn't sure if the pillow would muffle the sound enough and decided not to risk it.

"I'm sure you're not really sick", he heard a familiar voice say as something was set on the table beside the bed, "but for now, just play along with Kou-nii alright? He just wants to take care of you, after all, he has been very lonely since you left. Well, see you later, Haruka."

With that he was left alone in the room to think about what Akira had said to him.

Onii-chan, did you miss me too?


Hello again! Welcome to the boddom of this page, WHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Well whatever, some formalities then...

I wanna thank my lovely editor, Caitlin, for making my story presentable, without you my story would be crappier than it already is, thank you so much for putting up with me T^T! That's about it...nobody else to thank, besides myself ^-^ *patpat* good job me! Anyhow, to end this lame author's note, here's a quote from one of my favorite people on earth...(he's not really alive, but whatever...)

"Whatever else you may think, one thing is certain: all homos are SATAN'S RAPE DEMONS...!"

-Tatsumi, Soichii (aka. Senpai) - Koisuru Boukun

I'm sorry Morinaga, I feel your pain...T^T

If it make you feel better, I love you, you do what none of us are capable of...converting a straight, tyrannical, too-stubborn-for-his-own-good homophobe and teaching him love...you are my hero T^T *tears of happiness*

October OUT!

editor's notes:

Well I must say this is pretty fun, to edit (did it in place of my review :P). Kou scared me at the end though.

Thank you for asking me to do this, but your mistakes are getting smaller & smaller, soon I won't be needed...T~T

AN- I'll always need you, I'd be lost without my precious editor T^T

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Haruka & Aki~

Haru & Akiiii~ x3

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