Title: All My Fault

Author: SpikeandCharlie'sLostLuv

Summary: Charlie's thoughts when he is sitting by the fire after he was hung and (thankfully), brought back to life with CPR in "All the Best Cowboys Have Daddy Issues"

A/N: This is my first fan fiction so I want to start off short and small, and build on something that already happened. Please R & R if you want another story.

All My Fault

"He seems to be experiencing some sort of shellshock" Jack said softly to Kate, who glanced over at Charlie. He looked even smaller than usual sitting near the fire, his eyes unfocused and staring into it, unaware of anything going on around him.

"Has he even said anything since you brought him back?" Hurley asked as he walked up, looking concerned. Jack's eyes looked troubled as he shook his head no and sighed.

It's all my fault Claire's gone. Charlie continued to stare at the fire, unblinking. I should have fought harder for her. If it had been Jack, Locke, or Sayid, she would be here now. Even Sawyer would have protected her better than I had. I'm weak. He thought to himself angrily.

I'm nothing but a weak drug addict. I should have died. Jack shouldn't have saved me. I don't deserve this. If it were someone else with Claire, she would be here right now.

Jack walked up and sat next to Charlie as Kate placed a blanket over the young Brit's shoulders.

"Does this hurt?" He placed a finger on the ugly scar circling Charlie's neck and pressed lightly. "How's your breathing?" Jack sighed after Charlie didn't answer.

"Charlie, you've got to talk to me. I promise we'll send out a search party for Claire first thing in the morning. It would be helpful if you told me anything you saw, heard, or remember." Charlie's zombie-like expression didn't change as he finally answered, his voice hoarse.

"I didn't see anything…hear anything. I don't remember-anything." Jack and Kate turned away, bowing their heads sadly.

"Claire" Jack abruptly turned to face Charlie. "That's all the wanted."

"They? I don't…" Jack began before Charlie cut him off.

"All they wanted- was Claire."

And they got her. Charlie thought. It's all my fault.