AN: Hey there guys, well this is my first shot at a Supernatural fic, So please be nice. Sorry if i have got any of the passages wrong. I don't own anything. I hope y'all enjoy, let me know. :)

Spoilers for season 8.

Set in the finale, when Castiel tells Dean about the trials, before they know Metatron's plan.

Summary: Castiel's thoughts about the the Trials and his true reason for shutting down Heaven.

'So the questions come about, would he lay down his free will, his life for God. Leave the people he cared about for God. Maybe a while ago he would but now...'

~Lovelife xx


Nothing without Sacrifice

Thes 3:3 (NIV) 'So that no one would be unsettles by these trials. You know that we are destined for them'

Trials.

Through out the time of God there have been trials. The Lords plan takes patience and time. The trial of retribution, having patience that God has something great planned for you, your destiny.

'My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trial, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. (NKJV)

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The trial of Faith, can man truly believe in God when being pulled through mass amount of pain and suffering. Losing reasons to live and breath. When you lose your reason to get up in the morning and carry on with live, when you just beg for death (the horseman that would be happy to oblige) how can you have Faith in God then?

Daniel 3:16-18 (HCSB)

16 Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego replied to the king, "Nebuchadnezzar, we don't need to give you an answer to this question. 17 If the God we serve exists, then He can rescue us from the furnace of blazing fire, and He can rescue us from the power of you, the king. 18 But even if He does not rescue us, we want you as king to know that we will not serve your gods or worship the gold statue you set up."

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The trial of Love. Life is a test that God has assigned to be completed. When life gets hard, that is God testing your strength and love. The depth of love during life's test. Peter was an example of this:

John 21:15-17 (HCSB)

When they had eaten breakfast, Jesus asked Simon Peter, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me more than these?"

"Yes, Lord," he said to Him, "You know that I love You."

"Feed My lambs," He told him.

16 A second time He asked him, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me?"

"Yes, Lord," he said to Him, "You know that I love You."

"Shepherd My sheep," He told him.

17 He asked him the third time, "Simon, son of John, do you love Me?"

Peter was grieved that He asked him the third time, "Do you love Me?" He said, "Lord, You know everything! You know that I love You."

"Feed My sheep," Jesus said.

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The trial of Obedience. Would you obey God no matter what? Would you blindly follow his orders without any question? Without doubt. Without Free will. Will you follow God even if he ordered you to do something that question you morals, your beliefs? Something you find uncomfortable or wish to avoid? Jesus himself was and example of Obedience.

Matthew 26:39 (HCSB)

39 Going a little farther,[a] He fell facedown and prayed, "My Father! If it is possible, let this cup pass from Me. Yet not as I will, but as You will."

Philippians 2:8 (HCSB)

8 He humbled Himself by becoming obedient
to the point of death—
even to death on a cross.

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Finally the trial of Sacrifice. Are you willing to sacrifice everything in the name of God? Sacrifice your possessions, your loved, your life. At what point would you stop sacrificing? Would you sacrifice yourself to follow Gods orders?

Genesis 22:7-8 (HCSB)

7 Then Isaac spoke to his father Abraham and said, "My father."

And he replied, "Here I am, my son."

Isaac said, "The fire and the wood are here, but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?"

8 Abraham answered, "God Himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son." Then the two of them walked on together.

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Sacrifice.

To sacrifice your freedom. He had seen many wars in Heaven.

Cain and Abel,

Michael and Lucifer.

He was there when Moses set The Decalogue and saved the slaves. Noah had built the arch and he had witnessed God destroy mankind for disobeying, that was the first time Death had roamed the earth. He watched as Abraham willingly sacrificed his son but as the fatal blow descended, God stopped him. Abraham would willingly lay down his own flesh and blood as sacrifice for his Faith, his God. So the questions come about, would he lay down his free will, his life for God? Leave the people he cared about for God? If it was a time set in the past, he would. Without question he would offer everything to his Father, as he was a obedient son, a loyal son. But now,

No.

He would not lay anything down for his Father who had abandoned them, who had left them to fend for their selves and did not care whether Armageddon came. He did not care that his son's were destroying what it meant to be a Angel, tainting their grace. Yes they were warriors, the defended his Fathers creations yet his Father did not care as his Brothers were killing them. They stopped that without him, so no he would not leave his loved ones for God.

What is right.

That is why he would leave the people he had come to call family. The people who taught him to be human and how to feel.

He would leave Sam and Dean because that is what is best for them. hey deserved a better life, one where Angels were not clinging to their backs. Constantly destroying every beautiful thing that happens to them. Both their souls had been tormented enough.

Dean's soul had been beautiful before he entered the pits of hell, before the righteous man broke and let the fiery pits consume his soul, torturing it until he cried and begged fr them to stop, pleaded. He gave in and tortured. They had done that to him, the Angels. It was always Dean's destiny to start Armageddon, the destiny they had scripted for him.

Dean Winchester had made Castiel feel and he thought of Dean as family more than he ever had with his brothers.

So for Dean, Castiel would complete these Trials, lock himself in Heaven where most of his Brothers would want to kill him, but for Dean Winchester he would do it.

The trial of Patience, he would wait for Dean to finish his profanities and angry words that were being spat at him. He would wait for Dean to realize Castiel was doing this for him. He would wait for Dean to realize Castiel had learned to love, to love Dean Winchester and when he did Castiel would be waiting in Heaven for Dean.

The trial of Faith, Castiel had faith in Dean. Faith that Dean would shut the gates of Hell and live a happy life. Faith that Dean would never forget Castiel and would always think of him as family. Faith that Dean would understand that Castiel loves Dean and is waiting for him. Faith that when Dean finally gave himself to peace he would come find Castiel.

The trial of Love, Castiel loves Dean's eyes. They shone like an Angels grace and despite Deans tortured soul they show that his soul was still as beautiful and pure as it was before Castiel gripped him tight and raised him from Perdition. It was Castiel's love that gave him strength to lock himself in Heaven. He loved Dean too much to let him suffer at the hands of Angels any more.

The trial of Obedience, Castiel obeyed Metatron's dark,twisted words and killed a Nephilim. He murdered an innocent girl to shut the gates of Heaven. He obeyed for Dean.

The trial of sacrifice, Castiel would sacrifice his freedom, his life, and his love. His everything because that was the most loving thing to do. To save his love, he would let him go. He would complete the Trials and lock every Angel in Heaven, for his righteous man, his Dean. He would lock himself away with his brothers, whom would be seeking revenge and blood. He would do this because no trial, no test can be completed without sacrifice.


Thanks for reading guys. Sorry for any mistakes and if it is terrible.

~Lovelife