What am I to become, the memoirs of Queen Akasha

My memoirs from the time I was taken aboard a Wraith Hive ship at the age of 5 were I was trained as a servant. To when I became a Hive Queen myself. This is my story, a story of a Human transforming into a true Wraith.

Chapter 1:

Throughout my life, I have wondered what I was to become. I have even asked myself who I was and to be honest, for most of my life I could not answer either of those two questions or if I did I would have answered with one of many titles that I held in my life. "Human, Slave, Servant, Worshipper, Queen's Attendant, Wraith, Mind Walker, Hive Queen" But are these titles truly the things that define me? I do not truly know. For the wraith they do but for humans, this is not always the case.

I have few memories from before the time I was captured by the Wraith. I remember that my name is Akasha. I remember that I was a princess of the people I was born from and I was meant to rule them. I am able to remember this simply because status is very important in wraith society being born as royalty was something my wraith brain would remember well. From what little is left of my human side I know I should be saddened by this but in the end, it is simply the way of things. What I do remember very well is from the time I was brought aboard the Wraith hive ship.

The first true memory that I remember is waking up with a headache. I slowly got up off of the strange floor that felt like rough hide. When I opened my eyes I found that the room was not well lit. I could tell that other people were also in the small cell, all of them from the same place that I was taken from. No one was talking that is until one of the others noticed me and the sign of recognition entered his eyes. The short man said "Princess, I am sorry princess there was nothing we could do to stop them. I am sorry Princess oh so sorry. Our people…" I had no idea what the man was talking about but I was not given a chance to ask him any questions because a tall white-haired man interrupted, no a man was not the right word for he was not human he was something else. In a strange voice, he said "So you girl were a princess. I think the queen may be interested in you little girl. You will follow me and the rest of you will follow the drones. Come." I was scared and I did not want to follow this creature but something in my mind would not let me disobey him. My small legs carried me all the way to the throne room.

The white-haired male creature kneeled before a tall and slender female who wore a long and flowing dress. She was sitting in the strangest throne chair that I have ever seen before, not that I have seen much in my life. I was unable to take in any more details of this throne room for I felt compelled to kneel before the queen and once I had kneeled I was unable to move my head from the floor. All I could see is the floor which was a blue and purplish color.

Something was off a strange feeling entered into my mind. The two beings did not speak out loud to each other with words but they were conversing with each other nonetheless. I could even understand what it was they were talking about. I could not describe with words what it was that I was understanding. But nonetheless I knew that they are talking about me, how I used to be a princess, that by right I now belong personally to the queen and that no other wraith had the right to feed upon me. I now knew that these creatures called themselves Wraith. I was even more frightened now than before and that is saying a lot.

When my fear increased I could feel the two wraiths eyes upon me. I could not see them but I knew without a doubt that they were staring at me in surprise. The queen spoke not with words but in my mind. "So you are gifted young human, yes I can feel your mind. You have the blood of our kind running through your veins. Your mind is powerful for such a young human, no I should say for humans in general."

The queen thoughts turn to the other Wraith in the room and said "Yes I am going to keep her; she will be my personal slave. Commander have our scientist enhance her Wraith genes so she can see in low light and not be so frail and weak. Make sure her mind is not damaged for I will be displeased if her mental abilities are damaged. On the other hand, if they are improved they will be rewarded."

The wraith commander bowed and said "Yes my Queen" I could not understand the words he was speaking but I simply knew what it was that he said. The commander turned to me and in my tongue said "Follow me" and like before I had little choice but to follow him.

I do not remember much of the following week all I remember is pain and lots of it. I remember I would wake up screaming and then pass out again. Looking back I now know that my five-year-old human body could not take that level of strain. So the procedure had to be done in stages or it would have killed me.

I later learned that I woke out of a Coma a week after the scientist had finished operating on me. When I awoke I found that I was not in any pain. In fact, I felt better and stronger than I ever have in my short life. The dark rooms of the hive ship no longer seemed dark to me anymore. I could smell scents that I was never able to detect in the past. But the biggest change that I noticed was I could feel the hive in my mind. There was something else I could now feel the hive clearly in my mind. Thinking back on this experience I could feel the hive before my transformation but it simply was so faint that it was something that only resided in the back of my mind. I was only able to consciously recognize telepathic thoughts when I focused on the person making them. Things were different for me now. It only took a bit of effort for me to hear a myriad of thoughts that were all around me. It felt like a new set of eyes had been opened for the first time in my life, that before I was simply stumbling in the dark.

I felt a mental tug and suddenly I knew that I was to go to the queen's chambers with all due haste. I got off of the bed, a task that normally would have taken me about five seconds to perform. This was no longer the case I sprang up and was standing on my feet in a blink of an eye. I knew that if a human saw what I just did they would have thought I had teleported myself for that is how it would have looked from there point of view.

I stopped pondering my new abilities and made my way to my queen's chambers. I had no idea where they were located, but this quickly changed since the living hive ship guided me via our telepathic link that I now have with the Hive ship. I could not help myself I used my faster reflexes and speed to get to the queen's chambers. It was fun becoming a blur of movement. The other Wraith did not seem surprised as I flashed by them and I seem to know when one was coming around a corner so I was in no danger of running straight into one of them.

But sadly I had arrived at my destination twenty seconds later. I let out a small giggle of happiness for I knew in my old body it would have taken me a few minutes to travel the same distance. I stopped to pad down the new dress that I just seemed to have noticed. It seems that my new body was more interesting than this light silk dress that seemed to flow like a liquid. I did really like the blue dress it seemed to match my longer and silkier hair that was now a dark bluish black. I was about to knock on the organic door when it folded upon itself to reveal a doorway and I walked into the throne room.

I felt the tug on my mind again and knew the queen was in her private rooms so I walked over to the door that was on the left side of the large chamber. The door also slid open as I approached it. I found the Queen sitting in a chair that was facing a translucent window that faced the stars. I so wanted to stare at the stars beyond but my new instinct made be kneel a few paces from my new Queen. I bowed my head to the floor and waited. Two minutes passed before the Queen communicated with me. A Wraith rarely spoke to each other with words for thoughts could convey so much more than mere words. But as this is my diary I will do my best to put mental communication into readable words.

The Queen asked me "So young one how do you like the gift that we have given to you?"

I quickly responded, "I love it, my Queen, I feel different like my eyes are open for the first time in my life."

The Queen replied "Good. You will brush my hair."

I then saw a mental vision of where the queen's hair brushes were located at and how she wished for her hair to be brushed. I walked over to the organic table that I saw in my mind and brushed my hand over the gray table. The surface twitched and a part of the tabletop rolled into itself and I grabbed the three brushes from the revealed compartment. As I walked away from the table the table surface returned back to normal. I walked back over to the Queen who was studying a hologram of some sort. I placed two of the three brushes down on the far left side of the Queen's desk and walked behind the queen and I slowly started to brush her hair.

Everything was going fine until I found a knot in the queen's hair and I pulled too hard trying to loosen it up. I suddenly felt a terrible pain in my head that caused me to cry out in pain. But there was more than just pain there were two lessons hidden in this punishment. There was the obvious lesson cause me (the Queen) pain and you will receive even greater pain in return. The second was more surprising and I did not understand why she was teaching me this. She left me a basic understanding of how to enter another's mind and how to trigger the pain receptors in their brain.

The Queen said "Remember these lessons for I do not like having to repeat myself and control yourself girl I do not like to hear you're crying. What are you doing? Get back to work."

Holding back tears I said yes my queen. I am so sorry my Queen.

The Queen replied as my servant I expect you to act like a Wraith. Wraiths are never sorry. They learn from their past experiences and they do not repeat the same mistakes. If you want your time here to be comfortable you will learn to suppress your weaker side of your heritage and adapt to your Wraith heritage, for I do not want a sniveling human as my servant. It is your Wraith heritage that is keeping you alive so far. Now the rest is up to you.

I bowed my head and said yes, my queen.

I started brushing the queen's hair again. A few seconds later I got mental images of how to painlessly remove knots in one's hair. I used the techniques that I just learn and I seemed to be having more success for I was only punished one more time during my assigned task. Like the first punishment, the Queen showed me in my mind's eye how she was causing me to feel the pain she was giving me. I knew that I needed to learn how to do this. For whatever reason why I had no clue but I did not want to make the Queen angry, so I would and learn well I did. When I had finished my task. The queen had me straighten up her chambers and then she told me to see the Second Commander for lessons.

I bowed to the Queen and left her chambers. I mentally ask the hive ship where I was supposed to go. I followed the directions given to me. I was going to a sparring room that the Wraith used for sparing with each other and honing their bodies.

When I entered the sparring area I found many Wraiths sparring with each other most which were drones. But there were a few males in the room that were intelligent a couple of scientist and lower ranked Commanders. In the far corner, I saw a medium height wraith that I knew in my mind was the Queen's third in command or the Second commander. I walked over to him dodging the other Wraith and once I got to him I knew that I was to bow and to not look him in the eye for that would be a grave insult to him.

He sent me a few mental pictures of ways to stand and move. Once he had finished sending me these images he lunged at me. I tried dodging out of the way but I was too slow. He had knocked me to the ground and had me pinned. A dark grin appeared on his face and I felt one word from him in my mind. "Weak"

I felt something in me snap and I used what I learn from the queen earlier and I slipped into the commanders thoughts and activated his pain receptors and at the same time with all the speed I could muster I rolled from underneath him and quickly stood up. Once I was standing up I could see the pain I was causing him on his face. When I started thinking about this, my concentration broke and the pain I was causing him stopped.

In a flash, I was pinned against the wall with a knife to my throat.

He whispered in my ear "Never stop fighting until the fight is truly over, by not following this rule you are making the biggest mistake you can ever make. Never let your guard down or lose your concentration. You are a physically weak creature; your mind is your best weapon for either out thinking your opponents or for subduing or controlling your opponent's thoughts with telepathy. You had lost control of your thoughts because of this you lost the fight instantly. Before we go on, you need to know that these lessons are to work on your physical body and learning fighting strategy, not to learn how to control your mental abilities other than concentration and using all of your senses. Later you will learn to incorporate both. One more thing, remember I did not expect a pathetic creature such as yourself to have any mental powers. There two lessons here to note. One next time you will have to break my mental shields that I foolishly let down and two you should never underestimate an opponent no matter how inferior it is. "

I was about to apologies when the queen's earlier words came to mind and I simply projected my thoughts to the Commander. "I will remember these lessons and learn from them commander."

As he released me all he said was "Good" and a few seconds later we started sparring or more precisely he tossed me around like a rag doll for the next hour. Once my sparring lessons were over I was allowed to get some food to eat. After the rather spartan meal, I was instructed to go to my room and meditate and learn mental discipline. My room was very close to the queen's chambers. The room was meant for the queen's personal servant after all.

My room was rather small with a small cocoon like bed, a few organic cubbyholes that opened and close by touch, a small desk and stool and a little bit of floor space which had enough room for me to sit cross legged on the floor. To try to do the same thing on my bed would be impossible because of how enclosed the bed was.

As I sat crossed legged I was unsure what I was supposed to do until the Queen told me "You are going to learn how to control your thoughts. I want you to focus on a flame in your mind's eye and nothing else. Other thoughts will appear. You are to dismiss them and refocus on the flame. "

I closed my eyes and tried to picture a flame from a candle in my mind. I am not sure how much time past but I knew that hardly any time had passed before my thoughts strayed to the stars that I saw from the queens chambers earlier. As soon as this happen I got another mental shock from my Queen and was told to focus. The next three hours was quite a painful experience. I lost count of how many times the Queen had to shock me for letting my mind wander. But despite the difficulty of a girl my age getting control over my thoughts I made a lot of progress, but then again with someone able to see your thoughts and is able to punish you on a mental level exactly when you have lost control of your stray thoughts you are able to learn rather quickly. I was still a long ways off from any sort of mastery but for my first day. I think I did pretty well, for I had learned a lot that day.

If every day was like today, I would become a changed person maybe even powerful that is for a human. But to become a powerful Wraith I had a long ways to go and I was going to travel this road for I do not want to be known as a weak and pathetic human, but as a true Wraith. For my new instincts would not allow anything less than me becoming truly great.