I have been an avid reader of the FAN FICTION stories for some time now but have never written on myself. A very good friend of mind suggested I try it so here it is, please be kind in your reviews. I apologize in advance if any of part of my story is similar to any other story, there are so many great ones out there. I didn't intend to infringe on any other story but sometimes it just happens. As with so many other stories on this site my story is my version of how Gil and Sara first meant and how they were "outted". I call my story
ONLY THE STARS KNOW
From the first time there eyes meant Gil Grissom knew that Sara Sidle would be his only love, never had he seen such deep brown eyes. He had once read that the eyes were the mirror to the soul and after seeing Sara he believed it. Sara's eyes shown the look of pain - of secrets buried deep within but when she smiled they were full of compassion and love. Gil was not sure what caused her pain, but he was sure that he wanted to take it away.
Sara too knew that Gil would be hers, how she loved his deep blue eyes, she was positive that she could lost in them. At first Sara thought that she was being foolish, after all, Grissom was older then she and he was her instructor.
You see, Gil Grissom was not only the senior CSI in the crime unit that was attached to the Los Vegas police department but he was also a forensic entomologist - one of the best in the country - and the university considered themselves fortunate that he taught there, even if it was only part time, so how could a man such as he want anything to do with her?
Sara had confided in her room mate and closest friend about her feelings. Sara could remember Kelly saying, "Oh yeah, he wants you, wants to bang you while he is here and the ride off into the sunset leaving you with a broken heart."
Perhaps Kelly was right. Just perhaps that was all Professor Gilbert Grissom wanted.
Sara mind was changed on their first date, after diner at one of the many beach front restaurants Gil had asked her to take a walk, the night was warn and the moon full - a perfect evening. As they walked Gil slipped his hand onto hers, Sara could not help but smile.
Gil stopped. "Sara," he said, almost uncertain of how to word what was in his mind, "You are a fascinating woman, I doubt I have ever meant anyone that has …." Gil paused, uncertain if he should go on. After convincing himself that it was to late to turn back now he continued, "Touched my heart the way you have. I am not sure if it is love yet that I feel for you but I am sure that it is very close." Gil breathed a sigh and stood waiting for her response.
Sara gently touched his face. "I understand," was all she said.
Gil gently cupped her face in his hands and kissed her, nothing deep or demanding but yet it was the most intimate kiss Sara had ever felt. "Perhaps I shouldn't have?" Gil questioned.
"Yes, you should have," Sara said, returning his kiss.
Gil took her hand and led her toward the restaurant where he had parked his car. By this time Sara's insides were on fire, never had she wanted a man as much as she wanted him. Right now Sara didn't care if all he wanted to do was "bang you while he is here and the ride off into the sunset" she wanted him.
Gil and Sara rode in relative silence, each in their own thoughts. When they arrived at Sara's apartment Gil opened the car door for her and walked her to the door.
"Do you want to come in?" Sara asked.
Gil, realizing what she was trying to ask, touched her face, "I can't."
The look on Sara's face was a mixture of hurt and confusion, "You can't?"
Gil tried to explain himself, he knew it was going to sound foolish but she had the right to know. "Sara, I … I don't have casual sex. To me sex is the finally act that bonds a man and a woman together, to me sex and love must go hand in hand - you should not have one without the other and even though I am .. Well more then found of you, now just is not the right time. I hope you understand."
Sara gave him a half smile, "I do. Thank you for your honesty."
Sara started to turn when Gil touched her arm, "I hope this will not end us, I want to get to know you much better."
Sara smiled, "Not at all. I want to see you again also."
Gil once more kissed her.
"I'm not to sure it would be wise to tell anyone," Sara said, knowing if anyone found out they could both be in trouble.
Gil smiled, Only the stars will know."
Please let me know if you think this is worth any further chapters. I do have a few ideas but I'm not sure if I should continue. Thank you, Tish
