This came to me last night at 3am and i just had to write it down, i am actually quite happy with this! i probably have a few issues with grammar and sentance structure and this is un-beta'd so if you see any please point them out so i can correct them:) Reviews would be nice, let me know what you think. I have a few other Bellatrix things and a Bellatrix/Voldemort pairing but i wanna know if i have Bella's character right. Also if anyone fancies Beta-ing the other Bellatrix things i'm writing PM me and we can talk and stuff. Enjoy:) x
Those piercing snake like eyes gaze into mine. Scarlet pools that penetrate my mind, staring into my empty soul. An echo of my former self still inhabits it, occasionally rising to the surface from its hiding place deep inside the barren recesses of my broken mind. I attemp futively to pursue the small shard of my sanity to hold on to it, but like a child playing chase it taunts me; slipping through my fingers and skipping back to its hiding place inside the dark cavern of which my thoughts reside. At times I feel as though my sanity is returning and I become the person I used to be before Azkaban destroyed me.
I fill the gaps of my once present happy memories with the blood and suffering of others until its all I know. It taints every thought and feeling until it clouds my mind and becomes the only thing I think about, eagerly anticipating my next slaughter. Azkaban incinerated every last shred of my humanity creating the black sinking depths that is my madness. I no longer grant mercy to certain victims, they are all killed with the last image of my satisfied smirk of enjoyment. Joy comes only with a death of which I have created, prolonging it until the right moment. I revel in the pain the smell of death in the air: the knowledge that I have power over the worthless makes a hum of electric run through my veins and throughout my broken mind and my mangled body a strange feeling returns. It becomes a powerful need, the need to kill. It becomes an addiction. Its like my Ecstasy and I crave it, it makes me feel alive.
