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FAGE 10: Reborn
Title: See Me Now
Written for: Carlette Dennis
Written By: Michelle Connor
Rating: T
Summary/Prompt used:
Harry Potter fic | Non-canon pairing | "I see you and you don't see me"
Hermione has been in love with Harry forever and he turned her world upside down when he arrives at her door with some news: Ginny broke up with him!
She gets a taste of the future she has always wanted, and before the year is out it seems like that is going to become a reality.
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Hermione couldn't remember when her love for Harry changed when it had gone from friendship to romantic. All she knew was it had been years, years of him overlooking her and seeing her as his insufferably brainy best mate. That fact broke her heart, but she couldn't let on, to him or anyone.
More than anything, she wanted to be with him in a romantic relationship, but how could that happen unless she actually told him how she felt? Though, it wasn't as if she hadn't tried... She had, in fact, tried to verbalise it, even written it down in a letter. But without fail, she lost her nerve right at the last moment. Her deepest fear was what would happen if he reacted badly; she didn't know what she'd do then. Plus, he was in a relationship now anyway, so how could she split them up?
He seemed happy. No matter how much seeing him with someone else hurt her, she couldn't ruin his happiness to save herself. What kind of friend, what kind of person, would that make her? A bad one, an awful one, that's what! And she didn't want to be seen like that.
Now, she couldn't even remember the last time she'd seen him. She pushed him away, knowing she had to get over him. Though it wasn't as easy as she thought it would be. Memories came flooding back when she least expected them and tonight had been no exception.
Hermione was in bed and trying to sleep when she ended up - not for the first time, and unfortunately probably not the last - daydreaming about him. She was lost in the memory of their time searching for horcruxes, when it had been just the two of them. She liked being alone with him more than she cared to admit, then or now. Despite their journey being hard, the days being long, and their emotions running high on top of having to be on constant alert, she had been able to relax around him. She laughed and smiled more than she remembered doing in years.
In a way, she longed to be back there. Just, maybe without all the stress.
What she truly wanted was to be with him more than anything. But she couldn't. The logical side of her brain knew that, and she wished more than anything that her logic could overrule her heart.
She rolled over and hugged her favourite cushion to herself and felt that the pillow was damp. Great, she'd been crying again.
A meow came from the door as Crookshanks nudged it open. Soft pats echoed on the hardwood as he plodded over to the bed before jumping up and coming over to nuzzle into Hermione's cheek.
"Hey, Crook-" Her voice broke as the tears came. She stroked her loyal pet as she tried to calm down. Crookshanks curled up close to Hermione in an effort to comfort her, and she took solace in burying her face in his neck, fur tickling her nose. With that, she drifted into an uneasy sleep.
