AN: Hi guys. This was originally gonna be in my One-shots collection. But it got a bit out of hand XD

WARNING: This gets REALLY angsty. Mention of suicide, and possible OOC-ness (dude that's a weird sentence). Johnlock mentioned.

Well... enjoy? XD x


Watching You

"But watching you stand alone…" – A Thousand Years (Christina Perri)

POST Reichenbach; Sherlock watches John from afar. At first, his resolve to stay "dead" is set, but over time, it begins to waver.


I am dead.

Well, technically I'm not, but to the world I am. To London, to Scotland Yard, to Lestrade, to Mrs Hudson.

And I'm dead to John. The only one who knows I'm alive is Molly. Even Mycroft has been temporarily fooled. It won't be long though, until he realises. He's not stupid.

I stand beside the tree in the grey cemetery. I see John. He's by my grave. He's talking. I can hardly make out what he's saying. Some kind of sentimental rubbish, it is John after all. He's always been so emotional.

He touches the headstone. Is his hand shaking?

"I was… So alone… And I owe you so much…" he says. His voice is uneven. He's crying. I feel a warmth in my chest. He's crying over me.

"Just one more miracle, Sherlock… For me." He is pleading. What does he want? "Don't… Be… Dead." The one thing I can't do. Not yet, anyway. Not until you're safe, John. "Just for me, stop, just stop this…!" My heart thumps. He knows! But if he knows, why is he so upset?

He doesn't know, he's just wishing, believing. Denial, I believe it's called.

He straightens up. Soldier-mode. That's his way of dealing with it. He will treat my "death" like it were a death in the hospital, on the battle-field. Just another patient.

I watch him walk away. If he turns just ninety more degrees to the left, he might see me. But he can't. I'll move.

He stops. He's heard something. A bird rustles above me, and he turns. I am behind the tree before he is done. I'm thin enough to hide easily behind the tree. I wait a while before peeking around.

He is gone.


Ok. The angst ain't here QUITE yet.

I'm gonna try and update this every couple of days.

It has been fully written, so it won't stop randomly like all my others (I am ashamed ¬_¬)

Reviews will make my heart sing :) x