Anymore
Written by: Kalyn of Sherrkay
Pairing: J/C DUH!!!
Summery: Chakotay writes Kathryn a letter.
Disclaimer: we don't own them we just make our favorite couple lives better!!!!! Oh yeah and the song this is based on is Anymore by Travis Tritt
A/N: KayB and I (honney862002) have decided to team up together and write our fanfic together. We hope you enjoy!
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My Dearest Kathryn,
I can't hide the way I feel about you anymore. I've hid it for the past 5 years, ever since New Earth. I've tried to hold all the hurt inside, tried not to let you see the pain in my eyes every time you pushed me away. I can't do it anymore Kathryn.
I can no longer keep the tears from falling. All the times you've flirted with me, made me believe you truly loved me, truly wanted me. My resistance is not that strong anymore. In my mind I keep creating a life, my life, with only you to love. A life where you love me back.
I've tried to ignore it, tried to say I was over you. I was lying to myself. Kathryn, I cant keep pretending that I don't love you anymore.
Please let me make one last appeal, my sweet Kathryn. Please let me show you how I feel about you. I've tried dating other women as you well know. I even allowed myself to believe I was falling in love with them. But in time I understood that they couldn't replace what I felt for you.
I swear there is no one that could hold a candle anywhere next to you my love. My heart can no longer take the beating you're invoking on me. The one thing I want the most and that you'll never allow me to have, is to hold you tightly in my arms, to make you feel all the love I have for you.
There's a small voice inside my sole that keeps telling me I cant go on like this. It tells me to stop pretending that I'm not in love with you anymore.
I know you probably don't want to hear any of this. I also know you'll tell me to get on with my life. That's why I have to take this chance and not let it pass by. If you truly love someone Kathryn, you should say it before the moment passes you by.
I'll never get on with my life if I just let you go without even knowing what a relationship would be like with you. Without knowing what it would be like to truly love you as I have only dreamed of. To make love to you as I have wanted to since the night on New Earth when I told you the legend. Do you remember it Kathryn? Or has it been too long ago?
Please don't push me away again. Don't throw protocol up in my face. Please allow me to be all you need, to make your burden lighter like I promised to all those years ago.
Until that day, I'll be faithfully yours,
Chakotay
