Okay so this is my third story i'm in the middle of writing, this one just seemed like a good idea its short to start with just a taster there will be more chapters added enjoy (:
Two lost souls
Chapter 1 - Help me
Sara POV
I can't take it anymore! why is my life so shit ever since i moved to Vegas it's been one bad thing after the other, for one i'm getting more and more nightmares about when i was little like it doesn't play on my mind i have to constantly dream about it. I can't sleep and i'm 'forgetting' to eat well i say that but i just don't have the time what with work and drinking, yep that's right i've turned to drink yet again what more of a fuck up could i be?
To top it all off i had a massive argument with Catherine at work and again like i don't have enough of them! I've tried so hard to be nice to her let's face it i have feelings for her well more than that i think i love her, she doesn't know and she will never know, she's straight and she obviously hates me. Numerous times i've kept out of her way but she still finds a way to pick on me about something and i can't stand it anymore...
So here i am sat in the corner in my apartment drinking my life away, i've got nothing to live for, nobody and no one, hell i can't even keep a man interested in me what a bastard Hank was. I really should get some sleep but how can i, i've got so many things circulating in my head at the moment and everytime i try to sleep im scared about having a nightmare. Wow i actually admitted to myself about being scared, note to self never say anything like this in public.
Ahhhh fuck fuck fuck! damn my life, damn work and damn Catherine for being so fucking beautiful so that even though sha has ago at me and puts me down i still love her even though i shouldn't! as i down what feels like the twentieth beer i've which it probably is i can't stop thinking please some Help me
Catherine POV
I really shouldn't be doing this i've got a daughter that means the world to me and a job i worked my ass off to get and quite frankly friends and family who love me but fuck it i can't take it anymore. Lindsey my daughter means everything to me i would literally do anything for her yet she hates me at the moment well it feels that way anyway, she doesn't talk to me, she doesn't want to be around and she always screams im never there for her, to be honest it's true work takes over my world but i've got to really try and make it up with her starting tomorrow. At the moment i just have to do this to release the pressure that's building up inside me and to top it off i think i've fallen for the one and only Sara Sidle, yes the woman i always argue with and at work i really went for it we had this huge bust up and it was all my fault! Why do i do this to myself i can see she's trying to be nice to me yet i throw it in myself, i god help me for saying this i think i love her but she will never know this i pushed her too far.
I'm a total bitch and no wonder people don't want to talk to me, i've been having trouble sleeping and i can tell by the way people have been looking at me at work they can tell, i look like shit and that does not happen to me i really need to try and sleep before work and before i try and fix things up with Lindsey, hell i might think about patching it up with Sara, i really want to try...
As i push the razor blade deeper into my arms and moving it across my previous scars on my stomach i sit on my bathroom floor shaking and crying whilst bleeding thinking oh god please someone Help me
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