English's not my first language and I do not own Pot. Corrections are welcome :)


BACK THEN...

Back then I wasn't sure if what I felt for you war that strange thing called love. You would always laugh when I asked you and then you would answer that I should stop reading romantic novels. It wasn't like I had told you that I was having those feelings for you of all the people. I only mentioned them and your reaction war pretty predictable. Especially because you used to connect all my problems and defects with the books I read.

Back then you liked to come to me. You were always around me, even when you thought that it was me the one who was always following you. You used to chase me like a little kid who was pursuing his mistreated pet. The only difference was that I never ran away. Now you're still a kid, but now you don't need my presence. You were bored so you purchased a new toy and…

Back then I was happy when I could embrace you, even when it was just in a friendly way. Because you would never know which were my real intentions, my true desire. Because you were too blind, too distracted to see the true person behind the mask. (Sometimes I tried to get rid of those distractions, but then I had to discover that it was impossible to get your full attention.) All my needs, all my wants, you would never notice them and I would never really talk about them.

Back then we used to play doubles. You would be the showy and me the clever one. The acrobat and the genius. Back then we were a team of two. Now you pay with Hiyoshi and I am now a team of one single person. It's not like I miss you. Actually I feel finally free from your jumps and tricks. It's not like I really miss you, it's just that now I realize how big the court really is.