The air was cold. It made john shiver. He wasn't really able to keep up with the events of the day. But there he was, standing next to Sherlock, who was about to leave in his plane. John realized, this is where it ends. Sherlock will exist, John will exist, but not together. Gosh he wanted to punch him now. "So here we are" I said uncomfortably "William Sherlock Scott Holmes"

"Sorry?" Sherlock said "That's the whole of it, If you're looking for baby names"

"No, we're pretty sure it's a girl"

"Oh, okay" Sherlock said and a sad silence rose between us

"I can't think of a single thing to say" I admitted

"No, neither can I" said he

"john there's something i should say, I meant to say it always, and I never have"

he inhaled

"Sherlock is actually a girls name"

I sighed, not of relief, but disappointment. Next I chuckled.

"no, its not" said I

He smiled "It was worth a try!" then he laughed, but my heart was beating faster than ever.

"actually, when I come to think of it, I do have something to tell you" Sherlock said. I looked at him with great expectation

"I-I know you won't like this John but..." he inhaled sharply "I love you"

John hesitated. "shut up" I said and histated.

But I pulled Sherlock in for a kiss. Damn him. His lips were rough but the kiss was smooth. we knew it was goodbye and that made the kiss bittersweet, but loving, none less.

"goodbye sherlock holmes"