Disclaimer: I do not own Ben 10 or its characters.
Summary: Kevin's thoughts of his life so far.
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Kevin's View
It's starting to break. My world it's crashing down. I think I'm
losing my saneness. He was there to look at but not to be touch.
And how I wish to touch him, but I do not want to lose him. If he knew
of my thoughts he would hate me. He would abandon me again. The
first time was stupid of me. I found out I liked how he looked and how
he'd smile, but I knew it was wrong for two reasons: 1. because we
were both boys and 2nd we barely knew each other. That's why I knew I
had to push him away and hate me. The good news it work and he
hated me, but the bad news it had work. Then he left me, and how I
deeply regretted it.
I kept going to find him, but each time I found him I found it hard
to say sorry and end up talking myself into thinking it wouldn't matter
and that it's wrong. So I would start fights with him just to spend time
with him. But one day I went too far and I felt very shameful, because I
let Ben's enemy out. I was so stupid back then. This got me send into
the null-void a lot of times. Then years later, I've been good on my own
with what I am doing. Then my little world broke, because I heard his
voice. I was doing one of my deals and BAM! He showed up and started
fighting with those "clients", well actually they started fighting Ben and
his cousin and some old guy. He turns into an alien that I didn't know
of. I knew it was a bad time but I jumped in his way just to talk to him.
Let's just say we ended up fighting again. And of course Ben won like
always. And also, let's just say at the end of the day I join Ben and
became good. I was thinking I could show him I am good then we can
become friends like last time but difference is we stay friends and I
don't hurt him anymore.
I can't help but feel like I'm a burden for Ben. Ben still hates me I can
feel it. Gwen likes me for some odd reason. I just "flirt" back 'cause it
distracts me from the guy sitting about 4 feet away. I'm starting to
wonder if it was a good idea to do this. I think I should tell Ben the truth
so he will hate me more and kick me out of the group. Or do something
else for him to.
~~~~~~The Next Day~~~~~~
At the Mr. Smoothies.
A green car with a black stripe down the middle came into the parking
lot. Kevin knew he would find Ben here. He was going to set his plan in
motion.
"Hey Tennyson." I said while sitting down on the picnic table where Ben
was.
"Hey Kevin." He said a little distracted. I see about 6 empty smoothie
Cups by Ben.
"Exactly how many of these have you had?" I asked trying to not seem
like I care. When I really do care.
"Why do you care?" I just look at him hard with a pinch of glaring.
"Okay. I give stop staring at me like that."
"So…?" I urge.
"I broke up with Julie." I couldn't help it I jumped out of my seat and
yelled "Yes! Finally!" I was jealous of her. She could see and touch
Ben. I'm blushing now I can feel it. I look at Ben he's gaping like he just
saw humungusaur trying to do ballet. 'Which would be hilarious to
watch.' Then I hurried and mumbled a "Sorry." Ben mouth close than
opened again. Then Ben said
"Did you just jump for glee then apologize after it?"
"Yeah. What of it?" I said trying to keep my rep up.
"Oh trying to find why you would be happy me and Julie broke up?"
"…" I didn't reply.
Then Ben just suddenly said. "You want to date Julie don't you?"
What!?!
"No! What? How did you get that?" I ask beyond curious.
"Well you don't seem like you want Gwen and you seem to like Julie
and you just jump for joy about a few minutes ago." What!?!
"Half of that's true. The part about Gwen but I swear on my car I don't
like Julie. I liked one person in my entire life, since I was a kid."
"Okay. I believe you. You swear your car so I believe you." He sounded
sad. "Good 'cause that's the truth." I said a little smug.
"Kevin?"
"Yeah, Benjy?"
"What is your person like? I mean the one you like- like?" Why not tell
him the truth.
"They are brave, strong, smart, beautiful, and the nicest person I ever
met."
"Oh…" He seems sad again.
"Yep."
"…" Silence. Well because he was drinking his smoothie.
"Benjy?" Its my turn to ask questions.
"Hmm?"
"Do you trust me yet?" There I ask it.
"The truth is Kevin…I do or I would have never seen to you to that ship
while me and Gwen were grounded." Yeah I guess but that doesn't
mean he likes me. Just look at me and Manny.
"Yeah. Thanks again for saving me."
"Yeah no prob you're my friend Kevin." Now that's what I've been dying
to hear for five years.
I couldn't help smiling.
"Thanks. Its good to hear that."
"Hey guys! Wow you guys are together and not fighting." Said Gwen coming over
to us. She has to come and ruin my moment with Ben.
"Yeah. I didn't want you to get mad at me for whooping your boyfriends butt."
What is he talking about?
"He's not my boyfriend!" Gwen all but yelled.
"Whoop my butt like you can Tennyson." I said.
"Plus he already has someone he likes." Said Gwen.
"Yeah I know Gwen. I was joking. You know "ha ha" said Ben.
"Oh who is it?" Said Gwen finally sitting down.
"I don't know but he described her earlier." Said Ben. Talking and acting I'm not there.
"Hello? I'm right here." I said annoyed.
"Well describe her again." Said Gwen. Did I say it was a girl? That's what I wanted to
say to them, but didn't.
"Well, they are smart, beautiful, strong, brave, and…"
"The nicest person I ever met." Me and Ben said. Me finishing my sentence. And Ben
annoyed I guess.
"Even nicer than me?" Asked Gwen.
"Yes." I said and she just hit me on the shoulder.
Then Ben ask a question. "Does she know of your alien heritage and how you turned in
a…" I finish the sentence for him by saying. "A freak. Yes they knew and they didn't like
me when I turned into a freak…"
"Then why do you like her then? If she don't like you when you are like that how can she
like you now?" Said Ben. He's right how can he like me now…I'm a freak.
"How do you know they didn't like you then did they tell you that or did you assume they
did?" Said Gwen. I knew when she said "they" that she knew the person was a boy and
I think she knows its…Ben.
"I guess I assume it but come on who would want me?" I said.
"Did you ever think they tried to help you but you kept ignoring them."
""No they didn't care it was their fault they left me."
"Did it occur to you that he wanted you but you just hur t him instead."
"He didn't want me he hates me then and now." Me and Gwen were arguing and forgot
Ben was even their into he yelled.
"Did it occur to you both that I'm right here." Then he walked away.
"Ben." I whispered. "What are you waiting for go get him." "But.." I started but she just
glared at me and lets say her glare was more scarier than mine. So I ran after Ben.
Luckly he didn't use his watch to leave but his feet. "Ben. " I say as I grab hold of his
Shoulder. I turned him around to see him crying. "Ben?" I say again. Then he just hugs
me and says. "How could you think I didn't want you. Even if you are like that." He knew
we were talking about him. But wait did that mean he liked me too. No he can't its pity.
Then I push him away. "No you can't." I yelled and ran off. I'm as hard as rock. I am
rock. I…he cant want me like this. No he deserves better. I hear running behind me. I
stop and turned around. And Ben was a foot away from me and he reach up and kiss
me on the lips. My cold stone lips. I push him away again. Which was hard enough to
push him off his feet. "Why Kevin. Do you keep pushing me away?" "Because I'm not
worth it remember what you said them years ago." I said with bitterness. "Kevin stop."
"Why? So you can laugh at me for being a freak remember what you said when I got
turn into this rock thing." "No Kevin you knew that was a joke. I think your beautiful
inside and out. I don't care. What you look like 'cause you look like Kevin. My Kevin.
Please." "I stop at that. He thinks I'm beautiful. He said "my Kevin". Then that reminded
me off what that one girl said about Gwen and me and my looks. "Do you really think
so?" I asked. Then I actually turned and saw he was still on the ground. "Yes Kevin." I
walked back to him and stretch my hand out to help him up. Then I realize he twisted
his foot. I carry him in bridal style back to Mr. Smoothies. I see its pack with lots of
people and all of them were staring at me and Ben. I notice my mask is off.
"Why do you still like me, When I did this to your ankle? And for what I did in the past?" I
asked. Then Ben said.
"Because I love you Kevin Levin. " He said it loud enough for everyone to hear.
I look him in the eyes to see if he's lying . He's not his left eye didn't twich.
I smiled and said. "I love you too." Then we kissed.
The End.
