This is my first time writing a fic. This a Meredith/Addison centric story.

Background: Addison didn't cheat on Derek. They moved to Seattle Grace because Cheif Weber offered Derek and Addison that they could be heads of their departments and have state of the art equipment. Meredith never hooked up with Derek.

Bold is flashbacks

Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy but i wish that i did.


Meredith pulled into the parking lot. She quickly found a spot and parked her S.U.V. She stared into the overhead mirror. Izzy could see that something was wrong with Meredith. She wanted to ask Meredith what was wrong but she knew if she asked that they would be late for rounds. The walked into the hospital and waited for the elevator. George was worried about Meredith and asked her if anything was wrong. Meredith stared blankly into space until George shook her and broke the stare. He asked her again if anything was wrong.

She distantly responded "no" when really something had happened but she didn't want to talk about it because then it would become real.

Meredith, Izzy, and George finally reached the locker room where they saw Christina and Alex. When they enter the locker room they can hear Christina and Alex arguing about something but they decide not to get involved.

Just as Meredith, Izzy, and George were about to change into their scrubs Bailey comes in to the room and hands out the assignments for the day.

"Stevens you're with Dr. Sloane, Karev and Yang you're in the pit, Grey you're with Dr. Montgomery."

Right before Bailey was about to walk out of the door Meredith asked her if she could switch with one of the interns. Bailey turned around quickly and stared Meredith right in the eye and told her "no changing the assignment ever."

As her hopes of avoiding the one person that she didn't want to see that day she slowly walked out of the locker room and proceeded to look for Addison. Meredith was walking as though it was the worst day she could ever experience. She figured the best place to find Addison was to go to the N.I.C.U so she immediately started to walk the opposite way

Just as she was about to head down the hall she saw Addison.

She tried to walk the other way but Addison caught up with her. She couldn't look Addison in the eye so she did everything possible to not but all she could think about was Addison's hazel eyes. She finally gave into temptation and looked at her in the eyes. She couldn't help but have flashbacks to what had happened only 12 hours before.

Meredith walked into Joe's bar after a long 18 hour shift. She sat in her regular seat. Joe walked up to her and poured her a shot of Tequila without even asking her what she wanted. She tossed back that shot faster than Joe could put the bottle down. After she finished her shot she looked around the bar to see who was there and if she recognized anyone.

She saw only one person sitting at the edge of the bar with two drinks in front of her. Meredith got up from her seat and sat in the empty one next to Addison. Meredith asked her why she had two drinks in front of her and she answered "so I could get drunk faster."

Trying to act like a good person Meredith asked her if anything was wrong. At first Addison didn't want to answer but as she thought about it she figured it would be better than holding it in. She told Addison that she thinks that her marriage is over. Addison then went on to tell Meredith that she doesn't love Derek anymore and that she is in love with someone else that works in the hospital but can't tell them.

Addison told Meredith that she told Derek today and that Derek blew up at her for destroying their 15 year marriage on a crush. Derek stormed out of the hospital and jetted home. By the time that she caught up with him all of her stuff was on the lawn outside the trailer that they were living in. Derek told Addison that he never wanted to see her again and slammed the door on the trailer.


next Chapter will be up soon. Please review and tell me what you think of it so far