A/N: Here is a new story I have been working on so let me know if ya'll like it. Tell me what you think about it in a review. And let me know it I should keep going with it .
All he never knew :
Five years, Its been five years since Dimitri left to go be Tasha's Guardian. Five years since I've seen him or her, when ever Lissa goes with Christian to see his aunt I stay home with Dimka; Yes I said Dimka as in Dimitri. My son Dimitri Alexander Hathaway is four years old and he is the love of my life. I've only ever been with one man in my life and that was Dimitri Belikov, and it was only once. I never thought that the one and only time I was with a man that I would get pregnant because really Dhampir's cant get pregnant from another Dhampir, but I'm not just ant Dhampir I'm shadow kissed. Just my luck too because I have managed to keep Dimitri from finding out about Dimka but that is all going to change tomorrow when Tasha and Dimitri come to visit.
I ran around the house chasing after Dimka, " Dimka, Come on we have to leave for school and your making me and aunt Lissa late again." I yelled after my son. He stopped and looked at me and Lissa came up from behind him and grabbed him, " Mama !! Help me aunt Lissa is gunna get me." He yelled, I just smiled and walked over to him, " Dimitri it's time for school now go put your shoes on and lets go." Lissa let Dimka go and he walked over to the front door and sat down and started to put his shoes on. I turned and looked at Lissa, " Liss what am I going to do?" Her face softened a bit and she put her arm around me and hugged me, " Rose, everything is going to be fine this was bound to happen some day." With that she walked away to get her things. I looked over to where my son sat and I watched him get ready, he was only four and half but he was very smart for his age. The doctor said it might have something to do with be born from two Dhampirs. He was bigger then most four year old too, he was about the size of a six or seven year old. As I sat there and watched him get ready I could see so much of his father in him. He acts just like Dimitri sometimes, he can be very quite and controlled and other times he is just like me loud and wild to say he has his moment would be and understatement.
I walked over to the door and sat down next to Dimka and put my arm around him, " I love you baby." He turned to me, " I love you too Mama, and I'm not a baby anymore I'm a big boy." I gave a little laugh and pulled him up with me, " Well come on big boy its time for school." We waited for Lissa and Christian to come down stairs so we could leave. Once they came down we were out the door and walking across the campus, and yes we are all still at St. Vladimir's . The Academy had a house built for us since we wanted to stay and teach and since we didn't want to be apart in the dorms they built us our own house right on the campus. As we walked I looked down to Dimka and he smiled up at me, " Dimka, remember mommy told you that we have guests coming today, and you are to be on your best behavior." " Yes Mama I know, you told me like five times already." I laughed a little and hugged him before he went off to his class room. I followed Lissa as she walked Christian to his class room, and then we went to her class room where I took up my post in the back of the room. The day went by way to fast and soon it was time to pick Dimka up from class and go home and get ready for Tasha and Dimitri to get here.
As we were walking Dimka came and took my hand and said, " Mama, what's wrong?" I looked down at my son and thought of everything that had happened in the past five years. And how he hadn't had a father for the last five years, even though Dimitri wasn't in his life Dimka was still so much like him. I smiled at the thought of my son grown and just like his father, because I already knew that Dimka was going to be just like Dimitri in so many ways. And I really think that it would be good for him if he was like Dimitri because Dimitri was a great man and guardian. I hadn't realized that I stopped walking and when Dimka pulled on my arm I looked around and saw that Lissa and Christian we both looking at me as well as Dimka, I smiled and said, " Sorry I got lost in my thoughts." I picked Dimka up and put him on my back to give him a piggy back ride because he loved them so much, I ran around with he yelling and laughing, " Mama! Mama ! Mama!" he yelled and when we reached the house I stopped dead in my tracks and put Dimka down and grabbed my stake. I bent down and said to Dimka, " Go to your aunt and tell her that the door the to house is open and that I am going to check it out, tell her to stay put." Dimka turned and ran back to where Lissa was and told her what I said she nodded her head and I took off into the house. I knew it wasn't a Strigoi but I still wanted to make sure everything was safe before I let my son and best friends into the house.
I walked around the house and when I got to the living room I saw who was in the house, They turned around, " Hello Rose, where are Lissa and Christian ? Is everything ok Rose?" I just stood there staring at Tasha and Dimitri I felt like I couldn't move, but I got myself together and said, " You left the front door open, your lucky I didn't kill you." I turned and walked back out of the house to where everyone was standing, they all looked up as I came closer to them. " What's wrong Rose?" Asked Christian I looked at him and said, " Your Aunt and Guardian Belikov are here, they are waiting for you guys in the living room." I turned to Dimka and bent down so that I could be eye level with him, "Dimitri, remember what I told you earlier." he nodded his head and I got up and took his hand and we all walked to the house together, half way there Lissa took my hand in hers and she smile over to me and thought through the bond it's going to be fine Rose, calm down and don't worry. I tried to smile at her but I think I might have failed because she just shook her head at me and laughed a little bit. We finally got to the house and I looked at Lissa and said, " You guys go in first, I just need a minute ok?" They both said yes and walked into the house. I sat down on the stairs and Dimka came and sat on my lap wrapping his little arms around me, " Mama, Is everything ok?" I smiled at him, " Yes baby everything is fine, I just wanted to give your Aunt and Uncle some time with their guests before we go in." " Ok Mama." was all he said as he put his head down to lay on me, I held him for a bit longer knowing that soon I may have to share him with Dimitri.
I stood up hoping that things would be ok, I took Dimka's hand and walked into the house, we were greeted by everyone as we walked into the house. I looked over to where Lissa was standing with Christian holding his hand she smiled a small smile at me and I nodded to her. I looked to Dimitri who was standing there looking dumbfounded I almost laughed at the look in his face, but he quickly recovered and just looked at me with a thousand questions in his eyes. I saw the look on Tasha's face and it was just plan lost. I walked more into the house and just ignored everybody and went around like any normal day I turned to Dimka, " Dimka, take off your shoes and go up stairs and do you home work." He looked at me and made a face. " Come on Mama please, I don't wanna do my home work yet. Cant I go out side and play just for a little while then do my home work?" I thought about it and I knew he saw that I had made up my mind because he ran over to me and hugged my legs, " Thank you Mama! You're the best ever!" He said as he ran out the door, but before he got there he looked at Christian and said, " Hey Uncle Christian you wanna come and play out side with me?" Christian looked over at me and then to Lissa and before he could say anything Dimka said, " Aunt Lissa can Uncle Christian come out side and play with me please?" This made everyone laugh " Yea I guess for a little bit but you to better not come back in here covered in dirt again." She said the last part while looking at Christian. They both laughed and ran out the door, I turned to Lissa and said, " You do know that they are going to be covered in dirt right?" She laughed, " Yea I know." I looked at the other two people and then back to Lissa, " I'll be in my room if you need me." And with that I walked away.
As I walked down the hall to my room I knew he was behind me, I got to my door and opened it and just as I was about to close the door Dimitri walked through it. I didn't look at him even though he was in my room, I made my way around the room looking for something to wear. I finally found something and turned around to go to the bath room but Dimitri was standing right behind me. I looked up at him, " Your in my way, and I want to go change so can you please move." He just looked down at me and did nothing, so I tried to go around him with no luck at all. I knew he wouldn't let me by till I talked to him, but I just did not want to talk so I did the next best thing and started to get changed right in front of him. The look on Dimitri's face was priceless I just laughed at him and finished getting changed. When I finished I turned around and looked at Dimitri who had turned and looked out the window. My guess was that he was watching Dimka play outside, I went over to him and just stood next to him and watched as well. We stood there for a while before Dimitri finally turned to me, I want nothing more then to pretend that he wasn't there but I knew that it wouldn't work anymore and that we had to talk.
I sat down on the window seat and looked out the window at my son who was playing with his Uncle and as I watched him playing I wondered if I had done the right thing by not telling Dimitri earlier about him. Dimitri sat down next to me and took my hand in his and I looked up into warm brown eyes and I saw all the love in the world in them. We sat like this for a moment or two and then he spoke, "Rose, Dimka is he my son?" I wanted to answer him I wanted to tell him yes and that the little boy out side running around was his, that he was our son but I couldn't talk I could barely move; that's when I felt the tears that had started to fall down my cheeks. " Rose please don't cry, I'm sorry I didn't mean to up set you I - I - I just need to know." I looked at Dimitri, " Yes, he is our son." I couldn't say anything else I felt myself slowly falling apart, so I stood up and started to walk away but Dimitri's hand reached out and pulled me to his chest. I put my head down and I cried a little bit, I not really sure why I'm crying maybe its that I had finally told Dimitri that he had a son. For whatever the reason was I had finally stop crying I pulled back and looked up at Dimitri as he sat holding me and watching his son play out side. "You know he is just like you in so many ways." I said and Dimitri looked down at me with a small smile on his face, " Roza why didn't you tell me about him?"
I stood up and then sat down next to him and looked him in the eyes and said, " You left me, you left me to be with her. Why would I tell you about him, why should I have it wouldn't have changed anything. I didn't want you coming back because of a baby, I wanted you to come back because you loved me and well that never happened so that's why I didn't tell you. Because you didn't deserve to know." he looked away as if the word I said had so how hit him. " His name is Dimitri Alexander Hathaway and he is four and half his birthday is in a couple of weeks and he will be five." Dimitri looked out the window with a smile on his face, I walked back over to him and said, " What doing you want to do about this Dimitri?" He didn't answer me but I knew that he had heard me I could see that he was thinking of what to say. I went and sat on my bed laying down on my stomach , I sat and watched Dimitri from behind and it was a very nice view if I do say so myself. Finally he turned around and looked at me, he walked over to where I was a kneeled down on the floor next to the bed and once again took my hand in his and said, " Roza, I want to be in my sons life, I want to be here everyday for him and you. I'm sorry I left you, I thought I was doing the right thing by leaving and now I see that is was the biggest mistake of my life. Please Rose let me be here for both of you." I thought about everything that he had said and I knew that I was going to let him be there for his son but I still wasn't sure about me, he had already hurt me once I don't know if I could take that again.
Dimitri sat very still and watched me and I thought everything threw, when I was ready to speak I told him, " Dimitri, I don't really know what to say right now. I don't want to keep you from our son but I'm just not ready to let you back into my life yet, so if you want to stay around for Dimka that is fine with me I won't stop you but it is only for Dimka." He stood up and picked me up and hugged me and then started swinging me around like a little girl, it made me laugh and feel happy for a short time. Dimitri out me back down and looked deep into my eyes and said, " Thank you Rose, You don't know what this means to me. I love you, I never stopped and I thought about you everyday. You don't know how badly I wanted to run back to you and beg you to take me back." I could see the love in his eyes as I looked at him while he talked, " Rose, please don't push me away, I'll give you the time you need but please Rose I need you as much as I need our son you both are a part of me and I need both of you to live Roza I love you." As he said those words to me I realized just how much I had missed Dimitri and how much I still loved him, and I wanted nothing more then to kiss him. And that is just what I did, I pulled him down to me and I wrapped my arms and legs around him and he lifted me up and I we kissed; At first it was nice and loving slow and careful but soon it grew into something of heat and passion. We stayed kissing till there was a knock on the door and we broke apart and I walked over to the door and opened it to see Lissa standing there with a smile on her face, " I just wanted to tell you that we are going to get dinner and we are taking Dimka with us." I looked at Lissa and threw the bond she said, " Rose, stay here and don't worry about anything. You need this Rose, you need to spend sometime alone with Dimitri so just take your time and don't worry we have Dimka." She smiled at me and I just looked at her, "Thanks Liss but it's ok I think Dimitri might want to eat dinner with his son." I looked back at Dimitri who now had a very big smile and he said, " Roza, you are so very right." he starting walking to the door but I stopped him and looked at Lissa, " Liss could you give us a few more minutes and we will meet you there ok." She just shook her head and bounced down the hall.
As I looked at Dimitri I could see that he loved me and that he would be the best father to our son, but I was still worried about how Dimka would take to this new man and if he would be ok with all of this. As if reading my mind Dimitri came over and wrapped his arms around me and said, " Roza everything will bee fine I promise, you have nothing to worry about I will never leave you again." I wrapped my arms around him and we just sat there for a few moments then I spoke, " When do you think we should tell Dimka about everything? I don't want to put to much into him at once he is still only a little kid." Dimitri thought about it for a few minutes then said, " How about we tell him tonight after dinner and see how he takes it, I think he is a strong boy and he will be fine." I nodded my head and we left to go meet the other for dinner.
Again for the second time today things went by way to fast for my liking, it felt like things were moving around me but I was just standing there waiting to move. I knew it was about the time that Dimitri would want to tell Dimka about everything I just hope that it all goes well.
Ok well here is the first chapter , I don't know if ill keep going but review and let me know what you think and maybe ill keep going.
XOXO ROZA
