Where the Wild Roses Grow
Chapter One
Ever, and Ever
Aconite sat on the bed with the toddler cradled in her arms, it had been two years since the birth of Acacia, and she never regretted anything. As she began to grow up, she started to look more and more like her mother. She had some of her father's resemblance, one was the mischief in her eyes especially in the park, and another was how much she ate.
Her first word was not mum or dad, it was in fact kitty, She had bought a little kitten and the cat has grown up with Acacia for a long time. Aconite had named the cat Oracle; it just seemed to suit him. Oracle had a certain way of knowing what she was thinking, Aconite would think about feeding him and he would stand by his bowl, when she thought about getting him fixed he hissed at her. But he is a good cat, although he can read thoughts, that doesn't really explain his name, she guessed she just liked the word Oracle.
"Mama?"
"Yes Acacia?"
"Tugghbnt."
"Sorry?"
"Tugghbnt." She said more forcefully, Aconite still didn't understand what she wanted and that was when Acacia got angry and went red in the face and shouted at her mother before she realised what she meant went a Teddy hit her in the head.
"Did you do that you little witch?" The young mother smiled at her before placing her on her own hip and picking up the brown teddy. "You're a little witch whose going to be causing me trouble eh? Double, double, toil and trouble, fire burn and cauldron bubble." After a soft giggle from her Aconite poked her lightly in the ribs to hear her laugh loudly. "You're just to cute for me." She clapped her hands together and grabbed a piece of hair that had escaped from her mother's ponytail. Giving it a soft tug Aconite laughed at her and gave her the teddy bear.
A rang came from the front door, still with Acacia on her hip with the teddy in her daughter's arms. As Aconite walked from the bedroom to the kitchen where the front door was, a soft rustling of chitter-chatter came from the door. She peeked through the white lace curtains to see Hermione and Ron grinning as they waited for me to open the door.
"Hello Luvs." She greeted the newly engaged.
"Hello Aconite and hello Little Acacia."
"Menny." She said as she reached out to Hermione. Hermione took her from Aconite's hip and tickled her why Aconite invited them in and began to make tea and coffee.
"She's so cute Aconite."
"She should be, seeing as how she's my daughter." Acacia was holding Hermione's hands and jumping up and down on her thighs while the mother handed them their coffee and placed her tea in front of herself.
"She's bigger then she was last time we saw her, oh, Ginny and Harry apologize for running late but Harry's been held up at the office while Ginny is waiting for him. " They all shared a small smile knowing exactly what was going on.
"So when's the wedding date?"
"18th of March, I wanted it to be in spring." Acacia reached up and pulled on Hermione's wild hair. A soft ouch escaped Hermione's lips before Aconite took the toddler off her and cradled her before placing the Teddy on the ground. Her eyes drooped into a soft slumber before Aconite placed her in the oak crib.
When she came out of the bedroom she smiled, "That sounds wonderful, spring is always filled with the most beautiful flowers." She shut the door behind her and went back to her tea.
"Exactly, and I told Mrs Weasley that I was going to wear the same wedding dress my mother wore, because who else would, and I find that it's absolutely beautiful."
"Is Acacia still able to be the flower girl?"
"We wouldn't want anyone else." Hermione's charming smile made me remember my fairytale wedding. "Do you talk to the father?"
"I love him and he knows that, if I can't be with him, I still want him to talk to his daughter, he sits and plays with her while I'm out at times, I am happy enough to know at least Acacia will know him."
"Self sacrifice for your daughter, you really are a wonderful person." She smiled at her friends and chattered about this and that. When Harry and Ginny turned up she raised an eyebrow at the couple.
"Ginny, you're looking a bit flustered."
"I was at a doctors appointment."
"I knew it."
"Knew what?"
"You're pregnant."
"It's a boy." Everyone raised an eyebrow before Hermione and Aconite rushed and hugged Ginny. Harry had a past on the back that was a bit harder then it should have been.
"Next time you knock my sister up, warn me first."
"Sure, sure mate." The two smiled as the emotional girls cried over the happy news, muttering about happiness and names before the sobs turned to giggles. The two husbands just shook their heads and mutter women before their wives hit them over the back of their heads.
"She's grown so much." He said with a small smile on his face that brought back memories from when I was just a schoolgirl. And as these memories passed through my eyes, I remembered how my heart thudded when he was around.
"It scares me." It was a thought on the memories that I didn't mean to say aloud, but I was so busy with the thoughts of his fingertips on my skin I didn't realise what I said until it was too late.
"That she's grown so much?" Bitting my lip I thought of telling him a lie and agreeing to that she grows so much so quickly, but I owed him enough to tell the truth, without him I wouldn't have such a well furnished apartment.
"No Sirius, that every time you visit me, I wanted to curl up next to you and sleep." He looked away as I said this. The tea in my hands was going cold and as I sipped it, the taste turned bland. Putting it down I looked at my daughter. "She's definitely a witch, she had a Teddy fly to her this morning."
"I would have been surprised if she wasn't a witch." I smiled at him as I leaned on the table. He was right, she had to of been a witch, but if she wasn't they wouldn't love her any less.
"Sirius, she will find out, I can't hide a secret forever and you know that." Wrapping my hands round myself I looked at the floor. "And when she does, I won't know if you'll still be round, I think other people know, she has your eyes, they couldn't miss it, their my colour and shape, but the way she'd look at me when I catch her escaping, it's you."
"I just can't, you know that, it's difficult to explain, but..." He sighed as he ran his fingers through his hair. "I just can't do this, not now."
I slammed my hands onto the table and looked up at him, "Then when Sirius, it's been over three years since you found out about the pregnancy, you knew she was yours and promised to look after her."
"I know-" His voice was cut of by my screams of empty feelings, the look in his eyes as I interrupted scared me, there was something in there that made me think about what was going on.
"She's going to have no father, and you know why Sirius, you wanna know why?" I could feel the tears falling down my face as I looked at him, he looked so sad as I spat out the last words, "Because it hurts so much to love you that I'm afraid to find someone, because I still love you." Acacia was crying now, he wooden blocks that she was playing with no longer interested her. Picking her up I turned to Sirius, "I love you and you ripped my heart out, I know it couldn't work and I know I started this but I will always love you." One of my windows broke as Acacia cried harder.
Muttering a spell, the window fixed it's self. "Just leave." I said as I rocked Acacia to her crib, slowly and quietly I sung a song. "Live forever, for the moment, ever searching for the one." She calmed down as I heard the crack of Sirius apparating to his house. "Everlasting, like the sun..." I sighed as Acacia rolled in her crib before falling asleep. I continued to hum the song as I walked to my bed and burst into tears. My pillow was soaked by the time I fell asleep, my throat was hoarse from sobbing and my ears throbbed with the echoes of my cry of pain.
I dreamt of nothing.
