My Last Breath – Sequel To If You Only Knew

- My P.O.V. -

Here I am, staring at my lil penknife I bought just half an hour ago. I'm making a desicion between life and death. My life is in a mess. I've been rejected so many times. I decided that you will be my last. I can't take it any longer. I want to see you just one last time before I leave. I've decided to leave my pathetic excuse of life. This pain is just too real. These wounds in my heart can't be healed. If you could just let me hold on to you...

- Hold on to my Love
You know I can't stay long
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms-

I stare at my only photo with you, my dear. A tear trickles down my face. Violently, I wiped it away. Will it be my last tear for you? I tried to kill the pain. But only brought more. Now I wiill tell you what I've done for you. 50 thousand tears I cried, screaming deceiving and bleeding for you. And you can't hear me. Con't want your hands anymore, this time, I'll save myself. aybe I'll wake up for once. Not tormented daily defeated by you. Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom. And now, I will be dying again.

- Holding my Last Breath
Safe insifde my self
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight. -

Catch me as I fall. Say you're here and it's almost over. But no one's here and I fall into myself. This truth is driving myself into madness. I know I can stop the pain if I am willing to turn it all away. But I am not willing to. I'd rather die than see you every time. Loving you more and hurting myself most.

- I miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (Come find me)
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears. -

Picking up my penknife, I hold my breath. Holding it up to my left wrist, I slit deeply. Blood flow out like a river onto the carpet of my room. The pure white carpet, stained with my blood. Turning it from white to red, never gunna reverse back. I switched the penknife into the other hand and repeated the same process. I fall onto the floor, lying there as my last breath was about to be gone forever.

- Holding my Last Breath
Safe insifde my self
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight. -

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies. I don't know what's real and what's not. Always confusing the thoughts in my head. So I can't trust myself anymore. I lay here dying and I pouring crimson of regret and betrayal. I'm dying praying, bleeding and screaming. Do you remember me lost for so long? Will you be on the other side or will you forget me? I close my eyes for the final time.

- Closing you eyes to disappear
You pray you dreams will leave you here
But still you wake and know the truth.
No one's there. -

So good bye, my love. My God, my tourniquet. Return me to salvation. My wounds cry for the grave. My soul cries for deliverance. Will I be denised, Christ? Tourniqueat. My suicide.

-Say goodnight
Don't be afraid.
Calling me Calling me as you fade to the black. -

The End