If You Only Knew - A Story Of Myself.
I see you, many
times, out there talking to me. You comfort me when I am sad and you
share jokes with me. I thank you for all of that but can't you see? I
am in love with you. You just don't know. No one knows.I didn't say
it out so here I am expressing myself in this corner. If I just said
out my story, I know you will know who you are. I want to say it out
but I am afraid of being rejected. I am too young, some may say. I
know too, I am still young but I understnd more than a normal 12 year
old does. I want to make this story short and clear. I just want you
to know how I feel. I don't know how to express it to you. I don't
know why. Everytime I see you smile at me, I'd stare at the floor and
start blushing. - I stand here, watching you. Everytime I look at you, you will be laughing
along with the others. Everytime I see you looking at someone else. I
wished that, that someone was me. I thought you are the one for me
but I know I won't be the one for you. Don't you know what Iam I
usually up to? Everytime I see you, I start acting crazy, I mess up
my words and start talking crap. That's why I call myself a
crap-talker. But you say I am the best story teller. I don't think I
am the best There are others who are better than me. Any everytime I
have my lunch, I hope that you will be here to have it with me. -
I sit here during lunch, So you see, how crazy I can
be. I look at you but you'll never look at me. You know how much I
hate people pinching me but yet you still pinch me. I am not a
poring. Stop pinching me. You don't know how it feels like hiding
your love for someone who you know will never love you. So everytime
I look out of my window, I stare into the sky. Thinking of you so
many times. Even at school, I think and daydream of you and end up
getting scolding from my teachers in school,. Don't you know? -
I daydream and stare I hoped
that for once you would embrace me in your arms and let me cry all I
want for once. No one will ever let me do that and if anyone would
let me do that, I hope it would be you. But I don't think you will
even hug me for once. All you do is pinch me. As I said, I am not a
poring and I dont want to be one unless you want me to. If there was
a guild meeting in real life and we would all go to the club, I
wonder if you would even dance with me, but I know that will never
happen. As I know it will always be. - How would it be
like, But all I know all these things I
dream and hope will never come true cause you are so far away from
me. You are older than me by so much and yet I still am in love with
you. You are in a different country as me. My body is longing to hold
you, so bad, it hurts inside. Time is precious and it's slipping
away. And I've been waiting for you all my life. Nobody wants to be
lonely. So why, why don't you let me love you? - I can only
dream, It's hard to imagine things come and go so fast.
There are many things that will happen and it happens only once, but
why must all of them happen in one day? I don't know what you think
of m. I tried to do a lot of things for you. I tried, but I usually
fail. Live is unpredictable. You will never know what is going to
happen next. A second later, I might be dead. You will never know.
How I came to be, this way. So here I am in my room with my doors and
windows all locked up, my curtains are closed and I am am hearing
loud music while writing this story to you. Only you. If you ever
knew, if you even knew. I love you. But I am just too young for you.
It's funny, isn't it? Things like these can happen, after all this
times, I know you for more than 6 months, I love you for more than 4
months, you just don't know. I am afraid to tell you. I am afraid of
being rejected. And after all of this, I learnt something that will
go with me down the road of present, and my future. - So don't
tell me that it's over. And so my
story ends here. I hope you know who you are. I hope you will not
reject me. I just want you to know, I will always love you, even if
you were to reject me.
But you never
notice me.
I always wanted to be your 'girl'
But I know I will
never be. -
Watching you again.
I really hope you
would look this way,
At me. -
At the back of your head.
I dream what
would happen,
If you were to love me the most. -
If it was me in your arms.
How would I feel like
If it
was my you danced with-
Of the happenings.
The maybe's and what not's
Only
dream. -
Don't give up on you and me.
'Coz
there's no such thing as hopeless,
If you believe:
Unsinkable
ships sink.
Unbreakable walls break.
Somethings the things you
think could never happen,
Happens just like that.
Unbendable
steel bends.
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable,
I've
learnt to necer underestimate,
The impossible. -
