I assumed he came to you first...

John's POV

Sherlock is back.

He is alive.

I know this because I saw him on the news this morning. I glanced at the television while I was drinking my tea. I recognized the pale skin, the long dark coat and the black curls immediately. At first I assumed they were replaying some old story, but then I realized I never saw that material before. I focused and there it was…. That very familiar voice…

'…and yes, my suicide was fake. Obviously.'

I dropped my cup. Hold tea splashed over the floor and burned by bare feet, but I didn't feel it.

'…says Sherlock Holmes, back from the death. Later today in an exclusive interview he will reveal how he cheated death and what really happened that day, almost two years ago. So stay tuned.'

For about two minutes I starred at the screen. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. My brain didn't work. I couldn't process what I heard and saw.

Then I gasped for air, grabbed the phone and called Lestrade. We haven't spoken in months but as soon as I heard his voice I said: 'Is it truth?'

'John?'

'Yes of course it's John. Is it truth?'

'Is what truth?'

'Sherlock! He is alive. The tv….'

'Yes of course its truth.'

I gasped for air again. Lestrade seemed confused.

'Are you alright, mate? I would have called you but I thought you knew. I assumed he came to you first….'

I still couldn't speak.

'But he didn't…. did he?' Lestrade asked.

'No', my voice sounded harsh, 'no he didn't.'

Lestrade said something else but I had dropped the phone. I sunk down and sat on the wet floor. In front of the television.

And now here I sit. Somewhere in the back of my mind I register the sound of the tv and the voice of Lestrade coming out of the phone. Or is it just a beep? I cannot focus. My mind is blank. The walls of my apartment are closing in on me and while the floor seems move like waives. It's making me sick.

He is on the telly. He is alive. He has been alive all this time. My partner. My flat mate. My best friend.

He is back, he didn't die and he never even send me a text.

Thank you for reading!