"How are you??" Deb smiled

Carter looked away,taking deep pained breaths,"Okay"

"John??"

"As good as you can possibly be after being stabbed,Deb" he snapped,his eyes cold but pained


"Right" she answered quietly,"Of course"

"Listen.."

"No" Deb replied,"no excuses.I should go" she stood up off the hospital bed

He rested his head against the pillow and closed his eyes,"I should rest"

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even though the world is bleedin
the feeling just fine
alone in my castle
we were always free to choose
never free enough to find
I wish something would break
cuz we're runnin out of time
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She jumped as the elevator door opened.

"Jing Mei??" Mark asked,"You alright??"

She nodded,"Jumpy" Deb gave a small smiled,"I'm fine"

He smiled unassured,"If you say so.Did you go to see Carter?"

Deb looked down at the floor

"He's doing better??"

Deb looked up,"He's fine"
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and I am overcome
I am overcome
only water in my lungs
I am overcome
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"Dr.Carter!" the nurse called

He kept splashing his face with water,wiping himself dry,washing away his tears

"Dr.Carter!"

Carter closed his eyes, his breath shallow

"Dr.Carter! Are you alright??"
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these women in the street
pullin out their hair
my master's in the yard
givin light to the unaware
this blasted little place
is just a step amongst the stairs
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Mark kept talking..about work, Lizzy..

Deb looked surprised when her pager went off.

"Who is it??" Mark asked,stopping the elevator.

"Upstairs" Deb answered quietly,"Carter"

He nodded softly,"Up we go"

She bit her lip,her hands shaking.
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and I am overcome
I am overcome
only water in my lungs
I am overcome
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His back was turned to the door,his shoulders slumped.

"John??"

Carter straightened his neck,"They paged you,huh?"

Deb sighed loudly,"What's wrong??"

His shoulders shook, strange gasping noises escaped from his body.

"John??" Deb inched closer

He was crying,tears racing down his cheeks."Why??"

"Why what??" Deb held her breath

"Why'd I live" he turned his face to look at hers,"Tell me"

She held her breath so hard it hurt."Why??"

"Why?? I mean Lucy"Carter's face scrunched up in pain,tears running down and pooling by his chin

Deb sighed loudly,shakily reaching out to touch his shoulder.


He flinched,like her touch was painful

"Because I needed you to" she answered quietly
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so drive me out
out to the open field
turn the ignition off
and spin around
your help is here
but I'm parked in this open space
lockin the gates of love