Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or anything do with this story.
This is my first fan fiction ever so please bare with me if it's not great but reviews would be great as well as suggestions. This fan fiction takes place right after Sean leaves in Back in Black. The first chapter is written in the present while the rest of the story is written in a flashback and the last chapter will be back in the present. Some parts of this story are exactly like the show and some of it is my own writing.
Oh and I do not own Cassie Steele and her song Love CostI.
Jay just dropped Ellie off after Sean said he was staying in Wasaga with his drunk parents. Wow I must be that horrible of a girlfriend if he choose his alcoholic parents over me though Ellie.
Ellie opened the door and walked into the apartment that they shared that was once filled with love and happiness but is now filled with silence and loneliness. Silent tears ran down her face as she put on her CD player and ran into the room that she used to share with Sean. Snap snap as she snapped the rubber band around her wrist.
Just by thinking his name she started crying even harder as she went to her dresser. As she was searching for her familiar CD case she let the word's of the song wash over her.
Do you miss me?
Am I still on your mind?
Thought I made you happy baby
Then why was I left behind
Just then she found the CD case and opened it pulling out the first thing she could find. It was a razor. She then pulled down her arm warmer exposing the many scars she had and held the razor to her skin. As she thought of him again she pulled the razor across her skin leaving a gash that was bubbling over with blood. But she knew how much pressure to apply so it wasn't too deep.
She proceeded to make more cuts over and over again. She got up to number 15 when she finally looked down and saw that blood covered her arm. She went into the bathroom where she grabbed a towel and held it to her arm. She opened up the medicine cabinet and took out a bottle of peroxide and some cotton balls.
She then proceeded to clean her cuts wincing as the peroxide stung her cuts. She grabbed some bandages and bandaged her arm and pulled her arm warmer back up. She then walked over to the bad that she shared with him and laid down. Once she laid down she immediately felt the loneliness because he usually put his arm around her while they slept. As she thought of this she started crying and thought of the day her life changed, the day she met Sean Cameron…
