Dear Ellis,
You are probably reading this hours after i have left. Knowing how late you sleep, you will most likely be the last to learn of my absence. I felt that since i will disappear without warning, i should tell you everything.
Remember that horde from earlier today? Yeah, well i got bit. I tried to hide the bite and my pain, but i think Rochelle might have noticed.
You know how smart she is about those things.
I only have about an hour left, i can feel my body shutting down. Right now, i am watching you sleep. I know how creepy that sounds, but it is my last chance to look at you, to really see you. You are so adorable when you sleep. I know right now you are thinking, "What the fuck nick, you sound so gay." Well i know i do, because i am gay. That is why my wife left me. For years i have tried to hide it, to suppress my love for men. I can't anymore.
Ellis, i am in love with you. I have been since the moment i first saw you in that staircase leading up to the roof of the Vannah. It has been about a month since then, but i still love you. I know that sounds kind of dorky, love at first sight and all. oh well, i am dying. i can be dorky. You are always blowing off my attempts to flirt with you. I give up. If only i had told you sooner, maybe things would have turned out different? Maybe we wouldn't be here... maybe i wouldn't be dying. but we will never know.
I'm sorry, but i kissed you. Softly, i kissed your lips. You might feel violated, but i just couldn't not kiss you. Take it as my goodbye present of whatever.
Ellis i love you.
It has taken me so long to write this, i am close to the edge. I have fought the monster this long, i dont know how much longer i can fight it. I will leave now. I am heading far away. Hopefully we won't meat again. I don't want you to have to kill me.
But Ellis i need you to promise me something. If you see me as a zombie, if our paths ever cross again, please don't hesitate to kill me. If you can't then let coach or rochelle do it. Just don't let me live like that.
I love you,
Nick 3
