Addison and Derek in New York, before the affair, before Meredith, but not before all their issues started.

Will they make it?

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I don´t own any of the characters in this fic and trust me, Addie and Derek never ever would´ve broken up if I did… No slutty intern, no panties in a tux,…

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Don´t leave me alone in the rain

Here we go again that were Addison Forbes-Montgomery Shepherds thoughts when she waited for her husband, as usual.

„He´s not coming, he stood me up, again! "She said to herself as she cleaned the plates and threw all the food away she spent hours to cook.

It was their anniversary, their 12th anniversary to be exact. Derek had a last minute surgery at the hospital, at least that´s what Addison suspected since he didn´t even bother to call and cancel anymore. And it was not getting any easier. The wounds just got deeper and deeper and it ripped her heart apart knowing her husband would rather stand in an OR than spending their anniversary with her, his wife.

If he even remembers she thought to herself. She wasn´t sure of anything anymore. He changed, he just wasn´t the guy who was once waiting for her down the aisle. She wasn´t even sure he loved her anymore.

Addison sighed as she sat down, hoping that drinking a bottle wine would help her, but gosh, she was so wrong! It just made her see everything twice!

Now I see everything twice, but still, don´t see my husband at all. That day is just great!

She stretched her long legs and let another sigh escape her chest.

How did we end up here? She asked herself as she thought back to all those funny and often slightly embarrassing moments they shared. But it was gone, all gone. Her paradise was rocked, since a few months her husband ignored her, forgot for example her birthday last week and just wasn´t the same anymore. It seemed like everything has changed and like she could never get it back. She wanted her life back. And her husband, who WAS her life.

A few hours later Addison woke up. She actually fell asleep on the chair in the dining room. But what was it that woke her up?

She opened her eyes and lifted her head to see her husband walking to the kitchen.

She got up and walked over to the kitchen door and leaned against the wooden doorframe.

"You didn´t show" she was still wearing the dress she bought for today and the horribly uncomfortable heels.

"what?" he hadn´t even noticed her standing there and looked at her in confusion.

"Remember today? Or what we did 12 years ago?" she rose her eyebrows. She didn´t tell him he forgot her birthday, but this she so would tell him!

"Addison, I don´t have time for your Guess what?´ games!" when he looked at her she saw nothing. Nothing but blue emptiness. Her heart ached as she thought back how he used to look at her, but she forced herself back into the here and now thing.

"To make this easier for you, since you are to busy to talk to your wife" her voice was close to getting really high, as it usual did when she was furious "today, exactly 12 years ago, we got married and this makes it our anniversary" she said this like she explained it to a three year old

"I am not stupid Addison!" was his only response, she didn´t even get an I´m sorry, which he never truly meant anyway.

"Why the hell didn´t you show then?!" now she was yelling. Yelling out of pure frustration over her husband who didn´t care about anything that involved her.

"I´m not going to talk to you when you´re like this" he passed her and walked into the living room.

She flipped around so fast that it made her head spin "You never want to talk to me!" that was it, she was yelling again and her voice had reached the highest progression there was

"I really don´t have time for this right now!" he grabbed his coat and headed towards the door

"That´s it?! An I really don´t have time for this?! That all I get?!" she was furious

"We´ll talk later, okay?" he said as he placed his hand on the door nub.

"You keep telling me this for weeks Derek!" she stopped the yelling, she wasn´t even mad anymore, just hurt.

"I have to work" he stepped out in the rainy New York night.

She followed him and now stood on the porch as she felt the raindrops on her head

"That´s what you always say! That´s all I hear! My work! There´s only a you´ anymore, no more us´!"

"Go inside, you´ll just get sick!" he said and opened the door of his car

"Like you even care!!!!!" she yelled at her husband, if you could still call him that.

He got in the car and didn´t even look at her.

Hot tears started streaming down her cold cheeks as she said "Don´t leave me alone in the rain Derek" then her voice broke and he drove away.