I am gone. I have been gone for a couple hours now. Nobody has come looking for me. Not even Angel. Which is perfect I don't know what happened but I just, one day, had the sudden urge to cut myself. I have no clue as to why but it feels SO good. I now know what Mark feels and why he does it.
Mark, he tries hiding it from us, but Roger loves him way too much. I want to be able to feel again. I need to get used to the pain. Everybody will leave me. Even my real blood family has left me. I only have me and my little friend here to depend on.
I decided it was time and held the sharp object over my arm and made a nice deep cut right next to the major veins. I took a deep breathe as the pain rushed over me. I love that feeling, its like heroin its addictive. When you cut you immediately need to cut again. I made another incision right next to that one. It feels so good.
I hear footsteps echoing against the alley walls, but I don't care. I'm on cloud 9. I feel someone take my arm and feel for a pulse. Then I hear a relieved sigh when they find it.
I open my eyes and find myself face-to-face with all of my friends.
"What are you guys doing here. Leave me alone. Go away you cant help me. Its too late" I was trying to scoot away from them but they kept following me.
"We are going to help you. You need help" Roger said. I noticed Mark wasn't there.
"Wheres Mark" I asked. They all looked at Roger who had fire burning in his eyes.
"He is in the hospital. He was cutting himself and he hit the vein. Mark could have died, for the same thing your doing" Roger I noticed had tears streaming down his face.
"Please, get help. I lost April to this, I almost lost Mark, I don't want to loose you too" in all my years I had never heard Roger beg. I looked around at all my friends and my lover and said:
"I will try, but I need your help".
A/N: I really hope you like it. I was really bored and was listening to depressing music when I wrote this. Please leave a review. I hope you enjoyed.
