Complicated...
It isn't like I'm head over heels in love with him or something, it's just a small crush. But then, why does it hurt so much when I see them together? Is it just the jealousy of their good relationship, while mine with Matt is going down hill as I think this over? Maybe I'm just fooling myself, maybe I just think of him as a friend and I just want to believe I love him or something. No, my heart wouldn't beat this fast if it was just a crush or a lie.
I silently sipped my tea as I listened to Hay Lin, Irma, and Taranee talk about what we should do for our part in the school festival. It was a Japanese culture theme, and we were debating whether or not to go with a food stand or a activities stand. My thoughts, however, were focused on him.
"What about you, Will? What do you think we should do? Food stand or an activities stand?" Taranee asked me, and I snapped back into reality. I hoped none them noticed my absence of mind.
"Hmm...I think we should do the food stand. It will be simpler." I said. Just then, Cornelia burst dramatically through the doors of the Silver Dragon.
"Finally! The queen of festivities is here! Good thing you showed up Cornelia, or we might have started without you." Joked Irma, Cornelia frowned. Irma's jokes never did appeal to Cornelia.
"Pipe down, Irma. I was talking with Caleb about our next date." I looked down at my tea, it suddenly lost its good taste.
"Umm...I'm not feeling well all of a sudden, I think I'll just go home early. You guys can work without me right?" I asked them nervously, praying they wouldn't notice anything.
"Yeah, we can handle ourselves Will, you go home and rest." Hay Lin said sympathetically. I smiled weakly, put on my coat and walked out of the restaurant. I pulled my coat around tighter, shivering in the freezing air. Snow was lightly falling to the ground, it looked peaceful. Luckily there wasn't much traffic because of it. My boots crunched loudly in the snow as I walked on the sidewalk. I looked up at the gray sky and watched as the flakes floated down. I turned a corner, and fell to the ground as I roughly walked into someone.
"Will? You should really watch where you're going." Caleb offered a hand to help me up, but I got up by myself.
"I could say the same for you, you know." I replied sarcastically, wiping the snow off my rear.
"Are you going home? Want me to walk you?" He asked. My heart skipped started beating wildly, it was amazing he couldn't hear it.
"No, no, I'll be fine." I said quickly, but Caleb just shook his head and started walking with me. I thought my heart was going to burst threw my chest at any second. Just another block and I would be free of this torture. It wasn't fair, Cornelia always got what she wanted, why couldn't I have the one thing that I loved? I instantly felt ashamed. I had Matt, wasn't that good enough? I sighed a heavy sigh, and turned my gaze to the ground.
"Something troubling you, Will?" I jerked my head back up, and gave him the biggest fake smile I could summon at the moment, and told him I was perfectly fine, just tired. I didn't want him to worry. After a few more moments of awkward silence, we had reached my home. We said our good-byes, and I walked through the door of my apartment. I glided to the fridge where a yellow sticky note told me that mom would be late again, and I was on my own for dinner.
Sulking, I walked into my room and flopped myself on my bed. I wouldn't be able to hide my feelings for him forever. Maybe if I just told him, and he rejected me quickly, I would get over him faster. Or not. Then the phone rang. Perfect. I trudged over to the phone buried in a heap of clothes and answered it in a weak voice.
"Will? It's Hay Lin, just calling to see if you're okay, and got home safe. Call me when you're feeling better okay? Bye."
"Bye." I hung up, and laid back down on my lumpy bed. It was then that the heart of Kandrakar started glowing. I groaned, if the portal was nearby, I could close it by myself with out the others help. I searched for the map of heatherfield, finally finding it, and held the heart above it. It looked like the portal was behind the alley of my apartment building. I rapidly ran out of my apartment and slowed to a walk as I approached the alley. I heard a man's voice, and I ducked behind some trash cans.
It was Cedric! What was he doing here? He was holding something, but he slithered threw the portal before I could tell what it was. The sensible part of me was screaming for me to go back and get the rest of the guardians, but the idiotic part of me was telling me to follow. I should have listened to the sensible part of me. I slowly approached the portal, and even more slowly walked through it.
Cedric was no where in sight. He couldn't have gone far, he just came through. I turned around, about to head back threw the portal. But a snake like voice stopped me in my tracks.
"Guardian..." Snake Cedric stood behind me, snapping back into my senses, I made a break for the neon blue portal. But in one swift movement Cedric had whipped his tail, and knocked me into a large rock. My head was throbbing, I needed to get out of here! Dodging another whip of his tail, I jumped through the portal. I whipped the heart out of my coat pocket and immediately closed the portal before Cedric came back through it. I had noticed that before I came back threw the portal, Cedric was clutching one of my shirts. At least, it looked like it was my shirt. What in the world did he want with my clothing? How did he get it? This day made no sense at all. The throbbing in my head had increased, and it was bleeding. Great.
I needed to call another meeting with the other guardians. Hopefully, they were still at the Silver Dragon.
ShojoButterfly
Sucky...I know...but time will heal my terrible writing abilities.
