So I was trying to update BITIBA but after the last episode this wouldn't leave me alone so I had to write this quick oneshot

Warnings: Blangst

Disclaimer: Do I look like Ryan Murphy? then no I do not own Glee


Kurt held his fiancé in a tight embrace as if trying to squeeze all the insecurities out of him with love.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" Blaine mumbled over and over again his composed facade finally breaking and the tears streaming down his face freely.

Kurt tried to hush him but Blaine kept choking out how sorry he was " I don't deserve you, you're amazing and I...i'm just...me... Blanderson."

Kurt's heart broke with every word that Blaine said but he refused to let go of his fiancé.

"And i got so jealous of everyone in combat class leering over you. You're so amazing and handsome and.. "

"And yours." Kurt said interrupting Blaine's frustrated monologue."Blainey come with me."

he instructed and led his fiancé by the hand into his bedroom. He told Blaine to sit on the bed whilst he dug under it and brought out a very large and heavy book. The bed springs jumped as Kurt dropped the tome onto his bed.

The front cover of the book was ornately decorated in gold leaf surrounding a collage of pictures of Kurt and Blaine. "its our wedding book" Kurt offered lamely as Blaine gasped.

"Can I?" Blaine asked uncertainly and with Kurt's encouragement started to leaf through the book. Blaine hadn't been sure what he had been expecting but the empty pages that were glaring back at him were not on the list. Blaine his head to the side as in question "I don't understand."

"I bought the book a few days after you proposed but I haven't been able to fill it," Kurt started to say squeezing Blaine's hand reassuringly "and that's not because I haven't had any ideas, I've had hundreds of them but you weren't here to argue with me about them."

"I still don't..." Blaine started but Kurt continued "we are getting married, and this not about just me but both of us, you and I. I can't do this on my own I need you Blaine."

"but I've been horrible to you this week"

"you were and I'll admit that but you were feeling insecure about yourself and we often lash out at those we love at times like that. I love you, nothing can change that. I'm just so sorry that wasn't there for you"

"you were there"

"No Blaine I really wasn't, all those times you wanted to talk and I just ignored you" Kurt said lying back on the bed so that his head was resting on Blaine's shoulder "and I could see that you were hurting during combat class but I did nothing about it."

"Kurt please don't blame yourself none of this was your fault. I just feel so helpless and lost."

"then lets get lost together," Kurt smiled kissing Blaine's forehead. "we are one, I need you to be happy so that I can be happy."

"you make me happy" Blaine mumbled into Kurt's hair

"I can't hear you when you mumble like that honey."

"I said that you make me happy." Blaine repeated

Kurt grinned wickedly "really?" he teased sitting up and straddling his fiancé "shall we see just how 'happy' I can make you"

Blaine smiled but his grin quickly faltered "But Kurt I look disgusting...the freshers' fifteen..." but his protests were silenced when Kurt kissed him square on the lips.

"I think I'll be the judge of that Blainey" Kurt smiled as he traced his long fingers down Blaine's torso to the hem of his shirt. "Do you trust me?" Kurt asked

"Always" Blaine moaned in ecstasy as Kurt trailed alone of kisses along his waist.