Chapter One: Prologue
As usual, I wake up first to my alarm clock. Then, I fail to sneak in an extra five minutes of sleep. As I'm dozing back off again, my little sister runs in and shakes me back awake. She steal Shamisen who is curled up at the foot of my bed and runs out singing "Breakfast! Breakfast!". I swear, it's the same old routine every day. I get up, eat breakfast, brush my teeth, get changed, put on my shoes, grab my bag and bike and leave for school.
Except, that I leave each day wondering if today will be one of those days where Haruhi sinks into an awkward depression that has some impact on the world and usually I get dragged in to fix it. Oh, joy. But those days are fun. More interesting than these regular days anyway. Sometimes I dream of that time Asakura tried to kill me, and too often I have dreams of the time I was trapped in closed space with Haruhi and kissed her...but I have to forget that. It's not like I enjoyed kissing her! I mean, it was fun to run around in a panic trying to figure out what to do. And then, Koizumi showing up at the window in his glowing-red form. Not to mention, the time the world was changed completely and I woke up to find Koizumi and Haruhi were missing, Mikuru had no idea who I was and Nagato was a completely normal human with emotions. Who, as I'll mention, was very cute. Dammit, I need to remember that's in the past. I have to forget it - I can never see that human Nagato again. I should just forget it! But I keep dreaming of her. I shouldn't, really, I mean I felt no attraction to her? Well, at the time I didn't. But now I kinda miss that human Nagato. What if I hadn't pressed the button? What if I kept the world that way. Maybe I could have asked Nagato out, her seemingly shy self would have opened up and we could have dated...maybe...but no! Forget it. What's done is done. But if I could see that human Nagato for just a day...or even for just an hour. No, an hour isn't enough. I'd love to have a day to take her out, get to know her, then bring her back to my place...oh, geez, what am I thinking? I'm sounding just as perverted as Taniguchi. Oh, whatever. I won't deny I have feelings for her, but it's not like I can talk to anybody about it. The only people that know about her are Koizumi, Nagato and Asahina. All of them would tell me that what's done is done, and what I did can't be reversed. That I can never see her again. I wish I could though. But I can't! Oh, but I really want to...dammit...this is difficult. I need to get over it!
How is it that I'm attracted to that Nagato? The human, emotional one, the one that put a lot of effort and courage into asking me to joint the literature club. The Nagato in this world is plain and boring, speaking in a monotonous voice. I couldn't date her, she's an alien. She doesn't age. Nnce all of this is over - whenver that actually is - she will leave. Even if she could stay, I wouldn't be able to stay in a relationship with someone as boring as her. No offence, Nagato, but you are boring. Cute...but boring.
I could live in that world. I could be with Nagato. Koizumi can have Haruhi, I mean the Koizumi in that world admitted to being attracted to her. I don''t know where Asahina would go, but I'm sure she'd find somebody - she's so adorable, she could get any guy she wanted if she tried. But none of that can ever happen - it never will happen. I will never see any of them again. Or could I? If I asked Nagato to change everything again...no, I can't. She would say no - no doubt about it.
I need to get over myself. I will never see that Nagato again. End of.
